042409

                                                                                                             Sacramento, CA

Friday April 24, 2009

     7:38am  I should make an update by now. I woke up at six thirty. It was awesome, I came home last night and Rene was back from Los Angeles. He brought home a mattress for me to sleep on since he noticed I didn't fit on the couch. Right now I asked him if he could spare a couple bucks for breakfast and he gave me another twenty dollar bill! That's like the fourth one he's giving me. I can spend ten dollars on weed. Even though I only got six and a half hours of sleep last night, I can probably take a nap if I try. I'm going to go into town and get some food somehow. I'll go eat at Fish and Loaves at eleven thirty. Then I'll do yesterday's routine, go manifest some food somehow and then go get some weed somehow too. Then I'll go to the college library and catch up on my typing, hopefully.

     8:07am  I am already walking to the KFC on Amherst a mile away. Hopefully I'll be able to find another cup in the trashcan. I'm going to go to the Valero and buy some cigarettes too. Rene gave me money.

                   I'm wearing my black WPTMJ shirt today. I am at the bus stop and some girl just honked at me.

     8:22am  I just walked the mile to Amherst. KFC doesn't open until ten. I'm going to see if I can get some ice at the Valero. Cigarettes too.

                   Great! At the Valero the ice dispenser fits the hole of my CamelBak perfectly. Screw getting water at the KFC. I got me some cigarettes too.

     8:54am  Sweet, I scored me a courtesy from Amherst to 24th, easy. The nice black lady driver let me on. I'm going to go back to the house and layer down a little bit. Maybe I'll try and score some weed somewhere. Maybe I won't go home to layer down. I'll layer down at a bus stop. Then I'll walk to the light rail.

                   Maybe I'll walk home and see if Rene is home. Maybe I'll take a nap. That's what I'll do. He might know where I could get some weed.

     4:25pm  I just got burned again! Earlier I walked to that Anthony dude's house I met the other day. He wasn't home so I was just asking random people if they knew where I could score some weed. This black dude in a car with his friends told me he could get it from the dudes across the street, so I gave him the ten bucks. The driver of the car just sped off. Argh. That's what I get for trusting people. I went home and took a nap, all bummed out. After I woke up I went and walked around everywhere trying to score again. I went inside the apartments on the corner asking people where to score without success. Another black dude at the bus stop in front of the food mart told me he would go across the street and get it for me. Stupid-me, I gave him the five and he never came back. Argh! Not again! It seems like I am the only person I can trust in this town. Well, me and Rene. He's my brother.

     8:30pm  I should make an update. I haven't done anything else today. I just stayed home. Rene came over and I hung out with him for a bit. It pissed me off so much. I am so bummed out. At least I had a badass harvest of Rene's pipe and I am all resinated. It's not as good as weed, but it flips the switch. I am starving too. All I've had to eat today was a 400 calorie snack cake I got at the food mart before I got ripped off. I spent all my money. I had a dollar thirty left in change. Oh yeah, then the next door neighbor came over. This girl named Cookie. She's half white and half black. She looks really Hispanic to me, but she isn't at all. She said she needed to get dinner started and afterwards she was going to bring me a plate of food, but I don't know if she really is. I have a little change in my pocket and I could go by another snack at the food mart, but I don't want to miss Cookie if she makes good on her word and actually come over with food for me. I don't know what to do. I'm friggin' starving. I could've gone downtown today to Fish and Loaves, but I took a big nap and woke up too late. Makes me mad.

                     Ugh, I don't want to be dependent on Rene. He's already given me like eighty dollars total. That's all his dad's money. He went somewhere and I don't know when he's coming back. Maybe I should leave town.

                     These black kids in the ghetto today sure don't help the stereotype.

     10:03pm  Remember I told you I was all hungry and I had only eaten a snack cake? I was starving and I wasn't sure what house was Cookie's. I went outside just to see if I could tell. She saw me and came outside and told me she had some corndogs for me. Great!

     10:44pm  I cannot believe this tape recorder is still working. I just dropped it again. My night turned out a little better. I had been all down and depressed. Earlier I felt so let down, it had been like an hour and a half since Cookie told me she'd bring me over a plate. It was like past nine and she hadn't come yet. Not that I think I am her responsibility but she offered herself and got my hopes up. Exasperated, I went outside in hopes she would see me. She did and told me she had some corndogs for me. Maybe she forgot her promise and heated them up quick when she saw me outside the window. She had said she'd bring me a plate, remember? I'm not complaining, those corndogs hit the spot. I totally smoked her and Jose out with some resin I had harvested. When I left I was still hungry so I asked Cookie if she had anything else I could munch on and she gave me a big long summer sausage. Great! Thanks for feeding the peace machine.

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