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 Monday

7:32pm  Let's see this morning I got a lot of work done.  I have been mandating some time on the computer and getting shit done lately.  I am glad.  I did a lot of proofreading with Tita today.  We came to the orchards by the canal where we walk the dogs and sun-gaze.  Tita is going to take over from here.

Tita:  Oh, about our day?  Last night Victor slept in the sunroom.  We had a long drawn-out argument in the afternoon that wasn't intentional, but it had to happen.  The same old stuff and it got really heated and upsetting for both of us.  

        He stayed where he sleeps better anyway, in the sunroom.  And I watched Curb Your Enthusiasm, the very last episode of the new season.  It was really funny.  I started watching a movie and I went to bed around midnight.  

        Victor rapped on the door, I had closed and locked it to make sure I had quiet and I wouldn't be woken up, but since I had hidden his tobacco so I could dole it out to him and I had forgotten to, he came and woke me up and I told him where it was and went back to sleep.  Then I got up at like seven this morning and made Victor some French toast.  I journaled.  I actually had some interesting dreams all about my family.  My family was fixing up my house!  A two story house, a big 'ol house.  I didn't recognize it.  My mom and dad weren't there, but I saw most of my brothers including Juan.  It was an amazing dream.  

        I journaled and journaled about my feelings about my argument with Victor.  I just kind of got it all out and then went back to sleep.  Then we woke up later I told Victor that we were done with arguing, that we shouldn't argue.  That it's kind of dumb the things we argue about.  Then I went to the bank and then to Phenos to pick up some dabs.  Then I went to Grocery Outlet and ended up spending like $82 worth.  Came back home and made a fruit smoothie.  

        Victor was feeling better.  He slept, he took a long nap while I was gone.  He is getting replenished with his sleep.  I was ready to take a nap at almost five o' clock and Victor read all this stuff that he has been typing, our recordings.  It was some really interesting stuff.  Then I shared some funny reels with him.  Just now we had a conversation where Victor wanted to be sure I was okay having it on his blog. 

         I told him he can, but just to let me have final edit of my stuff.  Just let me trim some stuff out and remove anything really personal about my family.  We kind of had a talk about that.  I am okay with him sharing it, but not necessarily all of it.  Victor and I had a lot of conversation.  The same things come up, we are working through our issues.  I am learning how to get along with him better.  That' about it.  It's been a really pleasant day.