052306

 Paonia, CO

Tuesday May 23, 2006

                   I just switched out to a new tape. Let's see, where was I? Oh yeah, I was talking about Carol. We got into a big argument. I am just ready to leave. I don't know. I am doing some good work on the farm. Ugh, I still want to go traveling by myself and just let things happen. If I want a girl it would be one who could keep up with me, who could follow me. I really don't know. I am really distraught about this. Carol is acting like there's nothing wrong. Oh yeah, we were supposed to go for a hike, I forgot. I was supposed to bring her pipe so we could resin-hit it. I'm going to tell Carol I deserve some free time.

     8:48am  I woke up around six thirty. Carol and I had it out again this morning. I got up to take a shit and Carol went, "Where are you going? Are you going to come back? I want to make love." See, yesterday in our fight she said some bullshit about me leading her on. So today I told her I didn't want to lead her on(and get her hopes up). She finally told me that she understands and that everything is going to be okay.

     5:47pm  I had a good day of work today. From like seven in the morning. Carol today told me, "I just want to be with you until you leave." I am feeling much better now. I am in much better spirits knowing that my freedom is coming once my webpage is up. I had a good productive day working. It's cool that Carol is still letting me use her computer to proofread my webpage. It almost feels like it's too good to be true. Man, once we get this generator going I will have me a badass dream workstation in our tent. We have made this such a badass camp. I took pictures of it the other day. I hope we can get the computer and generator to work.

                   I just had a great idea. Sueño, the cat hasn't been too sociable lately. I'm going to put him in his pet-carrier backpack and take him to the kitchen to meet everybody. I'll bring him back.

     9:46pm  Carol just called her son Kent in Boulder at 700 30th. What happened again Carol? "I guess the sheriff department went there and posted orders to not trespass. They took all the furniture out. Kent was in there and when they started going through stuff and he jumped out the window and ran around the front.
 

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