100902

 

San Antonio, TX

Wednesday October 9, 2002

                   Let me tell you about today, it was bitter-sweet. Since my older sister Diana is here now I don't have a room and a bed, so I sleep on the pull-out bed in the sofa in the living room. I woke up and planned my day. I grabbed my pocket-calendar and jotted down some goals. I waited until like noon to leave. Diana was the only one home and was busy on the computer. I asked her if she had any spare change I could have for bus fare, but she didn't. Before, at home I saw the screen name in the San Antonio chat room Now Hiring Reps. I checked the profile and it was some new company in town who just happened to be in the same office complex as my old lawyer who is partners with my ex-stepdad, my younger brother Luisito's dad. I jotted down the suite number thinking I might be able to work there. I was going to kill two birds with one stone. Go get some legal counsel about some issues, and possibly find work.

                   Anyway, so I'm at home. It's a ten minute walk to the nearest bus stop and it was getting close to the time when I would have to go. I was searching all over the house for change to no avail. Finally, I just decided to go and try and catch the bus and see if they would let me ride for free. I grabbed my walking stick and headed out. When the bus finally came I noticed I had fifty cents in my pocket. I boarded the bus and recognized the driver, this nice lady I had told my ideas to before. I told her I only had fifty cents and she said not to worry about it. She even gave me a transfer. It had been raining all morning so she was running late. She was cutting it close to get to where all the buses meet every hour. She hurried as fast as she could and when she got to the transfer point I saw the bus that I was supposed to catch departing. She sped up and caught up to him at the stop light, opened the door for me and I ran out and switched buses. Lucky me.

                   I rode the bus, got off and walked to my "friend's" Carlos and Bob's house which was very close to a stop. They were both home and I stepped inside. I asked to borrow the phone and called the bus company to see when the next bus was coming. I found out I was going to have to wait a whole hour to catch the bus that was most convenient to their house. I quickly thought of another route and asked the operator to tell me some times. Carlos overheard me questioning the operator and offered me a ride to the University Hospital Transfer Center.

                   I rode with Carlos to the hospital. I hadn't eaten anything so I decided I'd walk through the transfer center into the hospital and go up on the sixth floor where I had been a patient back in 2000. Back when I was hospitalized I had gotten hooked on that liquid nutrition drink Boost. For the past two years whenever I got really hungry I'd go up to the sixth floor, say hi to people, and sneak into the nourishment room and snag some Boosts. They're great. Boosts are just one quick two hundred and fifty calorie meal. Drink one and you're not hungry anymore.

                   When I went back downstairs and walked to the buses the 92 pulled up. The 92 goes down Fredericksburg and runs every twenty minutes, so there's always one waiting. I jumped on the 92, used my transfer, bummed fifteen cents off of someone and got another transfer. I rode the 92 to the Crossroads Mall Transfer Center, which was about a ten minute walk to my old lawyer's, the one who represented me in both my head injuries. I had planned to seek some legal counsel about filing bankruptcy.

                   Maybe that's all I have to do to get my belongings back from the U-Haul people. I figure I don't have anything to lose. I won't be able to write a check for seven years. I don't care. I don't use checks, anyway. I don't give a damn about my credit either. I would deal with strictly cash from then on. I'd invest in a safe and have it in a safe place. Banks are only in it for the money, every one I've banked with has screwed me over with some bullshit charge or something.

                   I show up at my old attorneys office. Luisito's dad wasn't there, so I asked Oscar my old lawyer if I could make an appointment to talk to him about some questions I had. He didn't seem too happy that I was there and told me to talk to his secretary. She made me an appointment for next Tuesday.

                   I don't like Oscar too much. The only reason he was my lawyer was because he was my ex-stepdad's partner. My settlement for my second injury was only $9,500 or so. He got that exact amount to keep for himself, and he didn't have to get hit by a car. For some reason, his partner Luis doesn't wear the pants in that office, so I couldn't rely to talk to him even though I'd prefer to. Anyway, I got my appointment, forgot all about the job place and headed back to Crossroads Mall. When I got to the lobby of the transfer center I sat down and began to roll a cigarette. As I was rolling it, I overheard some survey-taker asking this lady behind me questions about the transportation system in San Antonio. I got up and excused myself for interrupting, but told the lady that I would be greatly interested in answering questions about the bus. That I would be more than happy to after I smoked my cigarette. I went outside and smoked it. When I finished it, I was approached by some dude, who also worked as a survey-taker. I answered all of his questions and when he was done, I asked him to listen to me. I told him all my ideas about how I'm going to get the bus company loads of publicity and how I planned to eliminate money. He, of course, doubted me. He then pulled out a dollar bill and gave it to me, thanking me for taking the survey. Cool, I had some bus fare in case I needed it then.

                   I looked at my to-do list, waited for about ten minutes and caught the looper bus to Basse/San Pedro where the main office of U-Haul is. Now before I left for the West Coast in the U-Haul I had caused a little damage at these apartments. While I was helping a lady with a mattress she had just bought at the thrift store. While I was driving through her complex I ran the U-Haul into the parking lot covering. I brought it down completely punching a big hole in the front of the U-Haul(which later served as ventilation when I slept in it). I backed up, delivered the mattress and headed towards the front. While I was nearing the front, this lady jumped out in front of the U-Haul screaming, "We saw what you did! Stop! You have to deal with this!" I told her I planned to stop and take responsibility for the damage all along. That I was on my way there.

                   Anyway, a police officer was called and gave me a ticket for no insurance on the U-Haul. Now, I always thought when you rent a U-Haul they're supposed to make you get insurance before being allowed to leave in it. When I had rented it they just gave me the keys and took my money. They were closing up. Later, while I was in jail U-Haul contacted my mother and told her that everything was okay and that the damage had been paid for, by U-Haul. I'm assuming U-Haul realized it was their mistake for letting me take the truck with no insurance and assumed the liability. Basically, I was thrown in jail for a matter that had already been resolved.

                   After that, I had taken off West so I wasn't around to deal with that ticket. Basically, when I returned to San Antonio I got arrested on a warrant they put out for that ticket. I served a weekend in jail and was released with a four hundred dollar fine. I had already got a month extension and the other day I got an additional month. I'm thinking if I can obtain some paperwork from U-Haul that shows that they took responsibility for the damage I caused, that I should be able to get that fine dismissed.

                   I caught the looper to North Star Mall and transferred to the number 4 which goes down San Pedro. I got off on Basse and walked into the U-Haul office. I walked in and asked to speak to the manager. The manager came out and asked me what about. I told him I was the dude that took off with the U-Haul and if I could inspect my stuff being held in storage. He told me that the person running the storage wasn't there at the moment and that I would have to ask him. I then asked him if he could research the incident with the apartments I had damaged. He said I would have to go to the location where I had rented the U-Haul, and that they would have the paperwork. I'll do that tomorrow. I had written down a list of questions to ask before I had gotten there. I asked him if there was any way I could pay him some money, just to get back a little of my stuff. I want to get my keychain, which has a Swiss Army Knife. It's saved my ass a million times. I also want my German turnbeutel some German guy on IRC ordered for me off the Internet. It's one of those really light bags intended for soccer-shoes but I kept my whole life in there. I had my CD player, CDs, pens and pencils, a tape measure, toothbrush/paste and a million other things I used all the time to help me survive in our urban jungle.

                   He again told me I would have to talk to the storage guy, Al. I was going to ask him if he would let me inspect my belongings to make sure everything was still there, but I knew the answer already. I had to talk to Al tomorrow.

                   I looked at my list of things to do. What now? Ahh yes, the Peace Corps was meeting at the Whole Earth Provisions store at the Quarry Market mall. The address was 225 East Basse. I walked outside and saw that I was at the 900 block of Basse, so off I went. It was only like four and the Peace Corps wasn't meeting until six. I had time to kill walking. I walked up to 281. The traffic was killer. It was like four thirty. I stood there waiting and thinking. When I got the chance, I just shot for the gap and ran in front of the speeding cars to make it across the highway. I was hungry by then so I walked to the Quarry and went into EZ's Hamburgers, a favorite of mine and Chasity's. I told the girl my situation and how I was a big walker and asked her to "donate some gasoline for my stomach." She told me to hold on and went and got her manager. As soon as he heard my shpeel, he quickly agreed and made me a big juicy hamburger. Yummy fuel.

                   Now, the Quarry Market is a pretty big place and I was sure I could find things to pass the time with. I went to the bookstore there and picked up the Guinness Book of World Records 2002 edition and sat down and started flipping through it. That book just reinforces the fact that anything is possible. Things never thought possible have been done. It passed the time great. Six o' clock came around and I went to the meeting. To start the Peace Corps meeting the recruiter Megan Burkholder popped in a video for everyone to watch. I pulled her aside and threw all my ideas on her. I only think it's appropriate that I make the Peace Corps aware of my plan for world peace, no? She had a huge smile across her face while she listened, but as soon as the video was over she stopped listening and started talking to everyone. She spoke for about thirty minutes and when she was done I raised my hand and asked if I could speak to the group also. She agreed and told people that if they were interested, they could talk to her while I spoke.

                   I went off on my new audience. Just shoving my ideas in their face. Most, of course assumed I was crazy and I could feel it in the air, but like I've said before, I'm trying to make people think I'm crazy. I gave out my email address to a few people. I asked this one older gentleman if he minded taking my email address. He shook his head and responded, "No, I'm not interested." I told him, "It's not like I'm trying to sell you anything." He turned around and walked away.

                   Ahh, so it was close to nine then. I had had a very productive day and got almost everything crossed off my list, except that one job. At the Peace Corps place I had used the phone to call and see when the next bus was. They told me that the 505 route that passed by the Quarry had stopped running for the day. I asked them what was the shortest walk to a bus-stop that would take me to Medical Center. I was thinking I'd be able to crash at Carlos' house and ride the bus home in the morning. Little did I know. I decided to just walk the two or three miles to North Star Mall and catch a bus there to Medical Center. I was like a quarter there when all of a sudden my friend Jennifer drives up with her boyfriend. She had been traveling in the opposite direction and noticed it was me. She turned around and offered me a ride. She was nice enough to take me all the way to North Star Mall where I waited only ten minutes to catch the bus that went to Medical Center. My ex-girlfriend Chasity lives in Medical Center. I looked at a bus schedule and saw that I had time to stop by and visit my poor doggy Stuart. I got off in front of her apartments and walked to her unit in the back of the complex. I knocked on her door and she answered, "Who is it?" I told her it was me and she cracked the door. I asked her if I could please come in to see my dog and she hesitantly agreed. Boy, Stuart was sooo happy to see me. He was jumping up and down. I miss him so much. I was down on the floor with him frolicking and I kneeled over and gave Chasity a great big hug too. At first, she was indifferent, but she soon put her arm on me and starting rubbing my back. I know she misses me too.

                   Just the other night Chasity told me she was going to take Stuart with her when she moved to Florida to live with her dad in January. That just gives me another goal I have to set. I'm going to get my son back. I'm going to get all my stuff back, just you watch. Anyway, Chasity thinks I'm crazy so I could tell she was uncomfortable with me being in her apartment. The truth of the matter is, it was my craziness that she fell in love with and now that the best thing to ever happen to her doesn't want her anymore, she's in some serious denial. Now she's holding all my shit ransom, for no good reason. What a bitch, eh? Well, I will have my day. I'll ruin her with the truth. I'll let the world know how she's a kleptomaniac and that she steals everything. She prides herself in never having been caught.

                   I asked her if I could borrow her phone and she said, "I guess." I called my friend Carlos and explained to him my situation. He had the nerve to tell me I couldn't crash at his house. I then asked Chasity if I could stay there, that I would sleep in the front room and not on the bed(which belongs to me!). She told me no right away and told me to call my mom. I called my mom and told her about my day and how I went to Chasity's to visit my dog. My mom starting moaning and complaining and I told her I could always walk home(like five or six miles) if she wanted me to.

                   It's only fair that I lay guilt trips on my mom. That's what she brought us up on. Her lazy ass said, "Ok then, I'm really tired." I really wasn't surprised at all and I was ready to actually walk home.

                   Stuart had heard Chasity and I arguing and he went and hid under the bed, like he always has. Chasity wanted me to leave already but I had to say goodbye to my son. I climbed under my bed and pet Stuart on the nose, telling him I was going to miss him. I got up and got ready to go, then the phone rang. Chasity answered it and I knew it was my mom. Ha, guilt trip worked. As soon as Chasity was done talking to her she handed me the phone. The minute I got on, my mom started lecturing me about how I could have planned the night better. She told me, "I can't pick you up," and I told her, "Then why did you even call back?" She got infuriated and said, "Well, I was going to come get you, but since you have that attitude, walk then!" I told her, "Fine, I will. I don't need you," and quickly hung up on her. I walked out of Chasity's apartment. As I was walking away from her place she goes out on the patio and shouts, "Don't ever come back here!" I called her a dumb bitch and kept walking.

                   I was hungry again so I walked up the Sonic and gave one of the carhops my line. She told me to wait and went inside. Soon afterwards, the manager came out and talked to me. He went, "Sorry man, my boss is here." I told him thanks anyway and kept walking. I got to thinking, it was about ten and I sure was hungry. I decided I would walk like five minutes and go to the Jim's restaurant and try my luck there. I went in and tried and the manager agreed to give me a tortilla soup. Yum yum, it sure was good. The time was around ten twenty five and I just remembered the night shift was about to end at the telemarketing place where I used to work, which was right across the street from Jim's. I thought I'd go ask for a ride home from someone. Hopefully I'll see this guy Mike I know that lives near my mom's. I walked up to the front of the place..and sure enough, there was Mike walking to his truck. He quickly agreed to take me home. Shweet, so I got free food and a ride. Man I must be doing something right. Shit like this happens every single day, only because I plan nothing. I just let things happen and always look on the brighter side.

                   I'm going to email the Peace Corps. I'm a bit wary about letting them know now. The Peace Corps is funded by George W. Bush and converting Republicans to Perfect Communism is going to be a very hard task. I may even be assassinated, so I should be very careful. The cool thing is, that even if I am assassinated, I will die a martyr and enough people know about my ideas, that my goals will be accomplished with or without me. Maybe I won't email the Peace Corps and just do it without them.

                   Like I always say, no one can stop me. They can only get in my way.

- Victor

10-9

AReyes7989:

 AReyes7989:  You are correct in not watching t.v. it is all a bunch of useless misinformation
 DlE lGNORANCE:  right
 DlE lGNORANCE:  the only tv ill watch, when i have absolutely nothing to do
 DlE lGNORANCE:  is the discovery channel
 AReyes7989:  It is only human to bitch about the constant deterioration of life  
 AReyes7989:  The way ignorance eats away at minds that are too blind to act accordingly  
 AReyes7989:  Minds that are easily corrupt and manipulated
 DlE lGNORANCE:  its so sad
 AReyes7989:  You know, there is a fine line between genious an insanity, and I choose to dance between it.   
 DlE lGNORANCE:  "It doesn't take genius to recognize genius.  Just an open eye, ear and heart."
                        - Victor
 AReyes7989:  People are completely insensitive about each other
 DlE lGNORANCE:  im going to eliminate money..
 AReyes7989:  I just announced in the room I was going to kill myself, and nobody as much as asked what was wrong.  I suppose when we have WW3 on our hands, people will act all surprised
 DlE lGNORANCE:  and bring world peace..
 DlE lGNORANCE:  with the internet..
 AReyes7989:  Despite the fact WW3 has been announcing itself  
 DlE lGNORANCE:  if youll listen, ill explain just how i plan to do it..
 AReyes7989:  Go for it  
 DlE lGNORANCE:  ok, what are some common problems one encounters when they have a new idea and theyre trying to get it out?  
 AReyes7989:  Lack of resources to reach others?
 DlE lGNORANCE:  for one, if youre telling it orally, you always run into the problem of not remembering the whole thing, thus not being as effective as you want...  
 DlE lGNORANCE:  cuz everyone makes mistakes  
 DlE lGNORANCE:  secondly, IGNORANCE
 DlE lGNORANCE:  people are too set in their old-fashioned, lazy ways..deathly afraid of change..  
 AReyes7989:  agreed
 DlE lGNORANCE:  and they wont even listen to you
 DlE lGNORANCE:  well..ive found a way to jump both of those hurdles..  
 DlE lGNORANCE:  with the internet..
 AReyes7989:  How's that?
 DlE lGNORANCE:  what ill do..is run an FTP server off my computer..giving anyone in the world access to my hard drive..only the files and directories i want them to access, of course
 DlE lGNORANCE:  on my hard drive ill have my text files..containing all my ideas..  
 DlE lGNORANCE:  that anyone can read with any browser..  
 DlE lGNORANCE:  at their discretion, uncensored..finish when they want to  
 DlE lGNORANCE:  but the whole story will be told each time  
 DlE lGNORANCE:  when enough people read em..and see the sense they make..itll spread like wildfire  
 DlE lGNORANCE:  so you see, you cant stop me...
 DlE lGNORANCE:  you can only get in my way
 DlE lGNORANCE:  :]
 AReyes7989:  You're forgetting that more than 50% of the world has no access to electricity or internet for that matter
 AReyes7989:  That the U.S. is the only country with as many people logged unto the net
 AReyes7989:  That people can barely read
 DlE lGNORANCE:  no im not, my ideas will be published when enough people catch wind of them
 DlE lGNORANCE:  and will be distributed free
 DlE lGNORANCE:  you see, ive had two closed head injuries..and i want people to think im crazy..
 DlE lGNORANCE:  i want them to doubt me too...
 DlE lGNORANCE:  itll make my victory so much sweeter
 DlE lGNORANCE:  my injuries were not detrimental in the least..
 DlE lGNORANCE:  they were great learning experiences..
 DlE lGNORANCE:  i have made a full recovery..
 AReyes7989:  How will you fund the publishing?
 DlE lGNORANCE:  i wont have to..
 DlE lGNORANCE:  other people will do it willingly
 AReyes7989:  Nobody publishes anything for free
 DlE lGNORANCE:  not yet
 DlE lGNORANCE:  im going to try and eliminate money
 DlE lGNORANCE:  thus, bringing world peace
 AReyes7989:  Idea #1, good, Idea #2 bad
 DlE lGNORANCE:  im going to change everyones mind with my ftp server
 DlE lGNORANCE:  whats your internet connection?
 AReyes7989:  ?!


 AReyes7989:  AOL?
 DlE lGNORANCE:  dial up?
 AReyes7989:  Yeah...y?
 DlE lGNORANCE:  my model for this freedom i envision is the pirated-software scene on IRC
 DlE lGNORANCE:  where everythings free already
 DlE lGNORANCE:  games, movies, programs, porn, you name it
 AReyes7989:  Really? wheres that at?
 DlE lGNORANCE:  as long as its in byte form, its out there for free if you know where to look
 DlE lGNORANCE:  now, its an accepted underworld also..
 DlE lGNORANCE:  software companies will end up spending more money tracing and litigating pirates...than theyre already making from all the fools paying for it anyway
 DlE lGNORANCE:  its just nost cost-effective..
 DlE lGNORANCE:  if the feds knocked down my door and told me they were gonna bust me, i would say, "why dont you bust the people im getting this from?"
 DlE lGNORANCE:  eliminating the end user doesnt solve a damn thing
 DlE lGNORANCE:  and if they bust me, i could sue if they dont bust everyone too
 DlE lGNORANCE:  dont i deserve equal treatment under the law?
 DlE lGNORANCE:  its all about money..
 DlE lGNORANCE:  so, if youve ever considered investing in broadband internet..i can show you how to make that investment pay off big
 DlE lGNORANCE:  you can download new movies and watch em at home
 DlE lGNORANCE:  while everyone goes to the theatres
 DlE lGNORANCE:  www.mirc.com
 DlE lGNORANCE:  download it..
 DlE lGNORANCE:  then make sure you sign onto an Undernet server..thats where they keep it phree
 DlE lGNORANCE:  click on the list channels icon and search for "warez"
 DlE lGNORANCE:  after it pulls up all the channels..go in them and start asking questions


Hkbiueangei:


 DlE lGNORANCE:  sup star
 Hkbiueangei:  victor! how did your meeting go?
 DlE lGNORANCE:  exactly how i thought it would..made them think im crazy..
 Hkbiueangei:  i tried IMing you yesterday, but someone said "not here"
 DlE lGNORANCE:  weird i dont remember
 Hkbiueangei:  ahh well, dont let that get you down
 DlE lGNORANCE:  damned head-injuries...
 Hkbiueangei:  i dont believe it was you
 DlE lGNORANCE:  well see, im not sure about wanting the peace corps support..they are after all funded by george w bush
 DlE lGNORANCE:  and it would be a hard task..to convince such a devout republican..of my perfect communism..
 Hkbiueangei:  this is true
 DlE lGNORANCE:  you saw my sn online and you dont think it was me?
 Hkbiueangei:  well, why else would someone say "not here" and that was it?
 DlE lGNORANCE:  weird
 DlE lGNORANCE:  like, i showed up on your buddylist?
 Hkbiueangei:  yes sir
 DlE lGNORANCE:  hmm..time to change my password
 Hkbiueangei:  as AIM, tho
 DlE lGNORANCE:  ohh i see..i have the pw saved on aim..so i probably left it signed on
 DlE lGNORANCE:  whew
 Hkbiueangei:  haha there you go
 Hkbiueangei:  so they didnt hear anything you had to say?
 DlE lGNORANCE:  actually, here, im gonna send you the email i typed up to my dad, which explains everything that happened yesterday
 Hkbiueangei:  ok, great.
 DlE lGNORANCE:  wait..i already sent it to you
 Hkbiueangei:  i read that one..
 DlE lGNORANCE:  ok
 Hkbiueangei:  so youre not feeling discouraged, are you?
 DlE lGNORANCE:  a tad bit..my family still thinks im crazy
 DlE lGNORANCE:  and theyre accusing me of being lazy..
 Hkbiueangei:  rofl
 DlE lGNORANCE:  that i spend all day on the computer and that i dont contribute to the househould
 DlE lGNORANCE:  they dont realize that im contributing to everyones lives..
 DlE lGNORANCE:  im not playing internet dominos, or some other stupid game like them
 Hkbiueangei:  everyone thought Einstein was crazy.... and that just sounds silly to me.
 DlE lGNORANCE:  right..and some of the greatest minds of our times have been diagnosed bi-polar manic depressive..
 DlE lGNORANCE:  ernest hemingway
 DlE lGNORANCE:  edgar allen poe
 Hkbiueangei:  there you go
 DlE lGNORANCE:  im not saying my mind is greater than everyone elses..my ideas arent new..
 DlE lGNORANCE:  just my delivery method..
 Hkbiueangei:  right..
 Hkbiueangei:  well dont get down on yourself..
 DlE lGNORANCE:  its kinda hard not to..
 DlE lGNORANCE:  i have to get the hell out of here
 DlE lGNORANCE:  i need to finish some projects here in san antonio, get a computer job and save up some money
 Hkbiueangei:  i can understand why, but you have good beliefs
 DlE lGNORANCE:  and head west again..
 Hkbiueangei:  west where?
 DlE lGNORANCE:  california..where more people believe me..
 Hkbiueangei:  ooh where in cali?
 DlE lGNORANCE:  i will return to sa..its my hometown..
 Hkbiueangei:  im from santa barbara
 DlE lGNORANCE:  well, my good friend brian lives in berkeley
 DlE lGNORANCE:  cool, ive never been to cali
 Hkbiueangei:  nice
 Hkbiueangei:  i have a feeling youll love it
 DlE lGNORANCE:  i know i will...
 DlE lGNORANCE:  but im gonna try and make san antonio cooler than cali..
 DlE lGNORANCE:  then eventually, everywhere
 Hkbiueangei:  thats a hard task
 Hkbiueangei:  lol
 DlE lGNORANCE:  you cant say i think small
 Hkbiueangei:  i sure cant
 Hkbiueangei:  brb
 DlE lGNORANCE:  k
 Hkbiueangei:  ok
 DlE lGNORANCE:  ko
 Hkbiueangei:  im a bit sleepy today
 DlE lGNORANCE:  you should rest then..
 DlE lGNORANCE:  take a nap
 DlE lGNORANCE:  hey, do you work today?
 DlE lGNORANCE:  itd be really cool if i could talk to someone who doesnt think im crazy..and vent a little
 Hkbiueangei:  im not sure just yet. im supposed to be off. i could call you up if you'd like?
 DlE lGNORANCE:  right now you mean?
 DlE lGNORANCE:  or when youre free
 DlE lGNORANCE:  or just so i can vent
 Hkbiueangei:  whenever youd like, silly
 DlE lGNORANCE:  thatd be cool
 DlE lGNORANCE:  wish you could come run errands with me on the bus..
 DlE lGNORANCE:  hehe
 Hkbiueangei:  ok just give me the # and let me know when
 Hkbiueangei:  i wish i could, but my ex doesnt have my kids until tomorrow, and he would be a devil
 Hkbiueangei:  he = my son
 DlE lGNORANCE:  i gotcha
 DlE lGNORANCE:  wanna hang out tomorrow then?
 Hkbiueangei:  sure, after i get done putting in applications and such
 DlE lGNORANCE:  sweet
 Hkbiueangei:  =]
 Hkbiueangei:  you know, i have no idea what i want to do with my life
 Hkbiueangei:  as far as career
 DlE lGNORANCE:  help me then
 Hkbiueangei:  i told you i will..but i have to have a steady income seeing as i support 2 children
 DlE lGNORANCE:  yeah, for now
 Hkbiueangei:  exactly
 DlE lGNORANCE:  what side of town do you live on again?
 DlE lGNORANCE:  sw right
 Hkbiueangei:  yes sir
 DlE lGNORANCE:  whats closeby?
 DlE lGNORANCE:  is there a bus stop nearby
 Hkbiueangei:  kennedy high
 Hkbiueangei:  yes sir
 DlE lGNORANCE:  cool
 Hkbiueangei:  right at the diamond shamrock
 Hkbiueangei:  which is like a 2 minute walking distance
 DlE lGNORANCE:  cool
 Hkbiueangei:  are you ok tho? i dont like when my friends are down
 DlE lGNORANCE:  ill be fine, when i get depressed..i just hop on the bus and find productive things to do..
 DlE lGNORANCE:  its my own anti-depressant
 DlE lGNORANCE:  say no to drugs
 Hkbiueangei:  im diagnosed manic..they try to tell me i need zoloft or welbutrin, but i told them to go to hell =]
 DlE lGNORANCE:  right on
 DlE lGNORANCE:  if people take these drugs..and they work, and they feel better
 DlE lGNORANCE:  havent they just acquired another dependance?
 DlE lGNORANCE:  just cuz its legal doesnt mean its good for you..
 Hkbiueangei:  exactly
 DlE lGNORANCE:  im sorry, i didnt mean to ignore jew
 DlE lGNORANCE:  i was busy typing out my scripts in the room
 Hkbiueangei:  its cool
 DlE lGNORANCE:  hey..can i get your number instead..i try to be out of the house as much as possible..
 DlE lGNORANCE:  and dont worry, im not trying to bust a mack or anything..
 DlE lGNORANCE:  strictly friends..
 Hkbiueangei:  hahaha
 Hkbiueangei:  its 436 8151
 DlE lGNORANCE:  cool, gonna write it in my calender..
 DlE lGNORANCE:  star right
 Hkbiueangei:  i wont be home at all tomorrow, so ill have to call you in the morning to find out where we can meet up
 Hkbiueangei:  yeah, star
 DlE lGNORANCE:  what day?
 Hkbiueangei:  hopefully tomorrow
 DlE lGNORANCE:  cool, well the number here is 647-7349
 Hkbiueangei:  i wont be home after 230 today
 DlE lGNORANCE:  when would jew like meeh to call
 Hkbiueangei:  when woulld you like to?
 DlE lGNORANCE:  whatevers cool with you..remember i dont like to plan things
 DlE lGNORANCE:  just play em by ear
 Hkbiueangei:  me too


Juggyjonz:

 DlE lGNORANCE:  Juggyjonz - This member is currently not accepting e-mail.
 Juggyjonz:  hi die.. i just fixed that...was getting lots of junk mail
 Juggyjonz:  it should work now...thanks
 DlE lGNORANCE:  cool
 DlE lGNORANCE:  gotmail
 Juggyjonz:  cool thanks can't wait to read it
 DlE lGNORANCE:  thanks for reading it
 DlE lGNORANCE:  hope you dont think im crazy..like everyone else
 Juggyjonz:  no prob where should i start?
 Juggyjonz:  i'm crazy so who cares?
 Juggyjonz:  []
 Juggyjonz:  you there?
 DlE lGNORANCE:  yeah
 Juggyjonz:  whassup?!!
 DlE lGNORANCE:  whats going on
 Juggyjonz:  not much just reading your stuff
 DlE lGNORANCE:  kickass..what do you think so far
 Juggyjonz:  great maybe you should put it together for a book
 Juggyjonz:  or put it in the bipolar journals page
 DlE lGNORANCE:  ive got big plans
 Juggyjonz:  cool!
 DlE lGNORANCE:  im going to eliminate money..
 DlE lGNORANCE:  with the internet..
 DlE lGNORANCE:  thus
 DlE lGNORANCE:  bringing world peace
 Juggyjonz:  ohh that would be wonderful...
 Juggyjonz:  an answer to all my prayers...good luck
 DlE lGNORANCE:  thanks..
 DlE lGNORANCE:  would you work for free if all your needs and wants were taken care of anyway?
 DlE lGNORANCE:  so you wouldnt be bored at home all day..
 Juggyjonz:  hell yeah
 DlE lGNORANCE:  provided you had a job you enjoyed
 DlE lGNORANCE:  well
 Juggyjonz:  i practically work for free now
 DlE lGNORANCE:  if everyone else was too..what would we need money for?
 DlE lGNORANCE:  so do i
 DlE lGNORANCE:  generosity would become our common-currency
 Juggyjonz:  good luck getting everyone to agree
 DlE lGNORANCE:  im going to make the world conform to my standards..because they make sense
 Juggyjonz:  need an assistant?
 DlE lGNORANCE:  yes, i need all the help i can get
 Juggyjonz:  cool
 DlE lGNORANCE:  im practically homeless..had to move back to my dumb moms house..my family thinks im crazy
 DlE lGNORANCE:  i hate it here
 Juggyjonz:  you on any meds?
 DlE lGNORANCE:  no way, i self-medicate myself..
 DlE lGNORANCE:  i walk and drink water
 DlE lGNORANCE:  if you take care of the body, it takes care of itself
 Juggyjonz:  me too...and smoke pott
 DlE lGNORANCE:  right on
 Juggyjonz:  chapter one was great i had a similar experience...got to go to work now see ya later
 DlE lGNORANCE:  k man, have a great day
 Juggyjonz:  you too
 Juggyjonz:  btw got a pic?
 DlE lGNORANCE:  no, but i can describe myself..


LadyRocket24:



 DlE lGNORANCE:  hi kika, do you like to read?
 LadyRocket24:  yeah
 DlE lGNORANCE:  care to look an idea of mine?
 DlE lGNORANCE:  and my big list of truthful quotes
 DlE lGNORANCE:  its some pretty interesting stuff, so ive been told
 LadyRocket24:  ok
 DlE lGNORANCE:  there you go, let me know what you think
 DlE lGNORANCE:  if you like, i have much more good stuff
 LadyRocket24:  ok hold on
 DlE lGNORANCE:  take your time
 LadyRocket24:  i like the first one  makes a lot of sense
 DlE lGNORANCE:  doesnt it
 DlE lGNORANCE:  im slowly compiling a book..all true stories..
 LadyRocket24:  cool
 DlE lGNORANCE:  i document my days..
 DlE lGNORANCE:  it wasnt until i started doing that, that i realized how much cool shit happened to me
 LadyRocket24:  
9. "In life, all good things come hard, but wisdom is the hardest to come by."
                        - Lucille Ball
i like that one
 
 DlE lGNORANCE:  hehe, me too
 DlE lGNORANCE:  one of my favorites..
 DlE lGNORANCE:  you aint seen nothing yet though
 LadyRocket24:  they are very good
 DlE lGNORANCE:  its ever-growing...i always read and think of new ones everyday
 DlE lGNORANCE:  here, can i send you some more stuff?
 LadyRocket24:  you have a brillient mind
 LadyRocket24:  yeah
 DlE lGNORANCE:  read it at your convenience.
 DlE lGNORANCE:  thank you :]
 LadyRocket24:  ok
 LadyRocket24:  i think is going to take me a long time to read
 DlE lGNORANCE:  like i said, whenever you have time
 LadyRocket24:  thanks
 DlE lGNORANCE:  :]
 LadyRocket24:  i have to go  
 DlE lGNORANCE:  bye, have a good day
 LadyRocket24:  you to  


Moonbug 715:


 Moonbug 715:  you are bi-polar?
 DlE lGNORANCE:  ive been diagnosed that, after very minimal contact..
 Moonbug 715:  damn, sorry bout that?
 DlE lGNORANCE:  bi-polar is synonymous with manic-depression
 DlE lGNORANCE:  now i have some great ideas..that make perfect sense, so wouldnt anyone get manic about them
 DlE lGNORANCE:  at the same time..when i run across so much resistance and ignorance..wouldnt it only be human of me to get depressed?
 DlE lGNORANCE:  so in all actuality, anyone can be bi-polar
 DlE lGNORANCE:  im only human
 DlE lGNORANCE:  i feel like i have it all figured out..the whole worl peace bit, but people are too damn ignorant to even listen to me..
 DlE lGNORANCE:  that would depress anyone
 Moonbug 715:  that is one way of loking at it, but let's be honest, even w/ a the "ignorance" this world possess, its still a "chemical in balance"
 DlE lGNORANCE:  no, its not something that needs to be treated..
 DlE lGNORANCE:  it has to be accepted..
 Moonbug 715:  bs....
 DlE lGNORANCE:  and how do you know its a chemical imbalance?
 DlE lGNORANCE:  are you a doctor?
 DlE lGNORANCE:  youre just believing what youve been told
 Moonbug 715:  about has much as you are...bigger question, how do you know i am not right anyay...are YOU a doctor
 DlE lGNORANCE:  all people are different..and thats a fact supported by science..
 Moonbug 715:  so what's your "case" then.....
 DlE lGNORANCE:  because ive had more learning experiences concerning this topic than you
 DlE lGNORANCE:  im human, plain and simple
 DlE lGNORANCE:  im different..plain and simple
 DlE lGNORANCE:  i refuse to be a follower and i prefer to think for myself..
 Moonbug 715:  i am not saying your crazy...or anything like it, i am saying that if incat you hae been "diganose" as "bi-polar" than you are dealing w/ something that is not "natural"
 Moonbug 715:  well that's a good thing
 DlE lGNORANCE:  and not go along with mainstream thought..which makes absolutely no sense to me
 DlE lGNORANCE:  what makes these professional doctors think they know whats in the best interest for everybody?
 DlE lGNORANCE:  when everyone is unique
 DlE lGNORANCE:  just because they went to college and have degrees?
 DlE lGNORANCE:  that doesnt mean shit
 DlE lGNORANCE:  traditional schools only teach you how to be like everyone else..
 DlE lGNORANCE:  if theres something i want/need to know..i learn it on my own
 DlE lGNORANCE:  thats what the internet is for
 Moonbug 715:  oh ok, i gotta jet, i wish you the best and nice talking to you, lets debate sometime again
 DlE lGNORANCE:  fine


Natastrophy1:


 DlE lGNORANCE:  hi natalie..this is victor, remember me?
 Natastrophy1:  Victor (mustang?)
 DlE lGNORANCE:  no no, youre on my buddylist for some reason
 DlE lGNORANCE:  i may have send you some stuff to read before..
 DlE lGNORANCE:  and idea of mine..that should change the world for the better..once enough people read it
 DlE lGNORANCE:  and i plan for the whole world to
 Natastrophy1:  oh yes...my fellow friend in psychosis
 DlE lGNORANCE:  lol
 DlE lGNORANCE:  what all have i sent you?
 Natastrophy1:  everything you had at the time I believe
 Natastrophy1:  many links and downloads
 DlE lGNORANCE:  im gonna send it to you again..disregard what youve already read ok
 Natastrophy1:  k
 DlE lGNORANCE:  argh..everyone thinks im crazy..
 Natastrophy1:  well, join my little club
 DlE lGNORANCE:  i have been diagnosed bi-polar manic depressive..
 Natastrophy1:  everybody thinks I am psycho
 Natastrophy1:  I have manic depression  
 Natastrophy1:  so there!
 Natastrophy1:  lol
 DlE lGNORANCE:  now wouldnt it only be human of me to get manic and excited when i have ideas this great?
 DlE lGNORANCE:  and
 DlE lGNORANCE:  wouldnt anyone get depressed after facing the ignorance to good ideas?
 Natastrophy1:  yes
 DlE lGNORANCE:  i hate calling it bi-polar disorder..
 DlE lGNORANCE:  its not a disorder
 DlE lGNORANCE:  its a condition
 DlE lGNORANCE:  its not like it needs to be treated..
 Natastrophy1:  true
 DlE lGNORANCE:  just accepted
 Natastrophy1:  true
 DlE lGNORANCE:  some of the greatest minds of our time have been bi-polar..
 Natastrophy1:  many people think I am dangerous because I am psycho...and am studying psychology
 DlE lGNORANCE:  ernest hemingway, poe..
 Natastrophy1:  einstein
 DlE lGNORANCE:  yeah
 DlE lGNORANCE:  if i am crazy..at least im harmless-crazy
 Natastrophy1:  yup
 DlE lGNORANCE:  i even try not to step on bugs
 Natastrophy1:  cool cool
 DlE lGNORANCE:  hmm..im getting fed up with all these idiots in san antonio..
 Natastrophy1:  then don't talk to them
 Natastrophy1:  if they are idiots
 DlE lGNORANCE:  i have some projects to finish up here first though..
 Natastrophy1:  save it for the intelligent ones that can appreciate and understand
 DlE lGNORANCE:  im trying to get a job at a computer shop, so i can save up some money
 DlE lGNORANCE:  then im gonna head west again
 DlE lGNORANCE:  im gonna walk/hitch-hike
 Natastrophy1:  sounds like a plan
 DlE lGNORANCE:  no one can stop me..just get in my way
 DlE lGNORANCE:  im gonna go where my beliefs are more accepted..but i will return to san antonio..
 DlE lGNORANCE:  its my hometown..
 DlE lGNORANCE:  my middle name is antonio
 DlE lGNORANCE:  im gonna try and make sa cooler than cali
 Natastrophy1:  excellent
 DlE lGNORANCE:  im thinkign i might go up to austin before i split..
 DlE lGNORANCE:  maybe ill rent a ryder instead of a uhaul this time..and split like i did before
 DlE lGNORANCE:  hehe
 Natastrophy1:  good idea
 Natastrophy1:  I like leading the gypsy life
 Natastrophy1:  minimal possesions, so you can haul ass out of dodge when the time comes
 DlE lGNORANCE:  actually..at the uhaul place here they have their used trucks for sale.
 DlE lGNORANCE:  im gonna see how much one is..
 Natastrophy1:  cool
 DlE lGNORANCE:  and live out of it for years
 DlE lGNORANCE:  yes, do you know what a mendicant is?
 Natastrophy1:  sounds like an excellent plan
 Natastrophy1:  no sir, I do not
 Natastrophy1:  please inform?
 DlE lGNORANCE:  hold up
 DlE lGNORANCE:  Mendicant Friars are members of those religious orders which, originally, by vow of poverty renounced all proprietorship not only individually but also (and in this differing from the monks) in common, relying for support on their own work and on the charity of the faithful. Hence the name of begging friars.
    
    
 
 Natastrophy1:  ahhh I see
 Natastrophy1:  thinking of becoming a mendicant?
 DlE lGNORANCE:  no, i already am..but a modern mendicant..
 Natastrophy1:  ahhh
 DlE lGNORANCE:  how i told you how i get free food all the time?
 DlE lGNORANCE:  - how +have
 Natastrophy1:  no...how?
 DlE lGNORANCE:  what i do, since i walk so much, is i can walk into any restaurant in town, and ask to speak to the manager..
 Natastrophy1:  yeah?
 DlE lGNORANCE:  i tell em, "hi, my name is victor and im a long-distance walker.  my destination today is downtown.  i was wondering if you would be nice enough to donate some gasoline for my stomach
 Natastrophy1:  excellent
 DlE lGNORANCE:  if its a problem, dont worry about it.  im sure the next restaurant i pass will be generous and help me out"
 DlE lGNORANCE:  everyone hooks me up
 Natastrophy1:  lol...thats great
 DlE lGNORANCE:  and if they dont, the next place will
 DlE lGNORANCE:  its just a numbers game
 DlE lGNORANCE:  im not a beggar, im not a taker
 DlE lGNORANCE:  im an acceptor and an asker..
 Natastrophy1:  i hear ya
 Natastrophy1:  I am going to go get ready for work, sweetie
 DlE lGNORANCE:  when i give people the choice to tell me no, helping me becomes their decision
 Natastrophy1:  Hit me up next time you see me online
 DlE lGNORANCE:  ok natalie..have a good day at work
 Natastrophy1:  Thank you Victor
 DlE lGNORANCE:  drive carefully
 DlE lGNORANCE:  :]
 Natastrophy1:  I will...[]


Sandy2go69:


 DlE lGNORANCE:  hi sandy, do you like to read?
 Sandy2go69:  yea
 Sandy2go69:  u
 DlE lGNORANCE:  can i send you an idea of mine?
 Sandy2go69:  sure
 Sandy2go69:  i like your sn
 DlE lGNORANCE:  thank you
 DlE lGNORANCE:  ok, there you go, if you like, let me know..i got tons more good stuff
 Sandy2go69:  its good so far
 DlE lGNORANCE:  itll change the world once enough people read it..
 DlE lGNORANCE:  or do you think thats just wishful thinking
 DlE lGNORANCE:  i mean..it makes sense doesnt it
 Sandy2go69:  yea i think of that kind of stuff  
 DlE lGNORANCE:  guess what i plan to do pretty soon
 DlE lGNORANCE:  im going to try my hardest..to eliminate money and bring world peace..with the internet
 DlE lGNORANCE:  ill be more than happy to explain it all to you..if you care to listen
 DlE lGNORANCE:  see..this is where people start thinking im crazy and ignore me
 Sandy2go69:  no go on
 DlE lGNORANCE:  ok, what are some common problems one encounters when they have a new idea and theyre trying to get it out?  
 DlE lGNORANCE:  for one, if youre telling it orally, you always run into the problem of not remembering the whole thing, thus not being as effective as you want...  
 DlE lGNORANCE:  cuz everyone makes mistakes  
 DlE lGNORANCE:  secondly, IGNORANCE..people are too set in their old-fashioned, lazy ways..
 DlE lGNORANCE:  deathly afraid of change..  
 DlE lGNORANCE:  and they wont even listen to you..
 Sandy2go69:  thats true
 DlE lGNORANCE:  well..ive found a way to jump both of those hurdles..  
 DlE lGNORANCE:  with the internet..
 DlE lGNORANCE:  what ill do..is run an FTP server off my computer..giving anyone in the world access to my hard drive..  
 DlE lGNORANCE:  only the files and directories i want them to access, of course..
 DlE lGNORANCE:  on my hard drive ill have my text files..containing all my ideas..  
 DlE lGNORANCE:  that anyone can read with any browser..  
 DlE lGNORANCE:  at their discretion, uncensored..finish when they want to  
 DlE lGNORANCE:  but the whole story will be told each time  
 DlE lGNORANCE:  would you like a demonstration?
 Sandy2go69:  sure
 Sandy2go69:  u write fast
 DlE lGNORANCE:  hehe practice makes perfect
 DlE lGNORANCE:  here, follow this link
 DlE lGNORANCE:  ftp://Sandy2go69:Sandy2go69@66.69.68.23:21361
 Sandy2go69:  i dont under stand u
 DlE lGNORANCE:  do you know how to copy and paste?
 Sandy2go69:  no sorry
 DlE lGNORANCE:  thats cool, ok highlight it, hit ctrl+C, then hit Ctrl+K, for keyword..then ctrl+V to paste
 DlE lGNORANCE:  and hit enter
 Sandy2go69:  i closed your im by mitake can u do it again
 DlE lGNORANCE:  ftp://Sandy2go69:Sandy2go69@66.69.68.23:21361
 DlE lGNORANCE:  highlight it, hit ctrl+C, then hit Ctrl+K, for keyword..then ctrl+V to paste  
 Sandy2go69:  now what
 DlE lGNORANCE:  hit enter
 DlE lGNORANCE:  or after youve copied it, click in the address bar on top..and hit ctrl+v to paste..and hit enter
 Sandy2go69:  i did it took me to a website
 DlE lGNORANCE:  i never saw you on my server..what website?
 Sandy2go69:  it said sorry we could not find  
 DlE lGNORANCE:  hmm, weird
 DlE lGNORANCE:  so how old are you sandy?
 Sandy2go69:  iam 13 hehe
 Sandy2go69:  ui
 DlE lGNORANCE:  im 24
 Sandy2go69:  sorry iam to young right
 DlE lGNORANCE:  i have friend of all ages..no one is too young/old to just chat with
 Sandy2go69:  thanks at least u understand
 DlE lGNORANCE:  its cool
 DlE lGNORANCE:  be careful though..there are a lot of evil people on aol
 Sandy2go69:  could u bo 1
 DlE lGNORANCE:  no, i even try not to step on bugs..
 Sandy2go69:  your funny

 Sandy2go69:  where did you get your sn fm
 DlE lGNORANCE:  like why did i think of it?
 Sandy2go69:  yea
 DlE lGNORANCE:  this is a sub account i made off of someone elses master account
 DlE lGNORANCE:  its stolen, kinda
 DlE lGNORANCE:  i thought of it because id like to have all the ignorance inthis world die
 Sandy2go69:  i was going to name my band that
 DlE lGNORANCE:  die ignorance?
 Sandy2go69:  yea
 DlE lGNORANCE:  wow, cool
 DlE lGNORANCE:  what a coinkidink
 Sandy2go69:  but sinceu have it no its yours
 DlE lGNORANCE:  you can use it
 DlE lGNORANCE:  i dont have it trademarked or anything
 DlE lGNORANCE:  you have my permission
 Sandy2go69:  thanks u a realy cool guy
 DlE lGNORANCE:  hey, no problem
 Sandy2go69:  i would like to met u someday
 
 DlE lGNORANCE:  maybe someday..
 Sandy2go69:  so what kind of music do u like
 Sandy2go69:  hello
 DlE lGNORANCE:  i like some punk rock
 DlE lGNORANCE:  nofx
 DlE lGNORANCE:  my favorite band in the world is weezer
 DlE lGNORANCE:  pre-sellout weezer though..not all that sold-out whimpy shit theyre playing now
 DlE lGNORANCE:  ween
 DlE lGNORANCE:  dead milkmen
 DlE lGNORANCE:  propagandhi
 Sandy2go69:  do u go to college
 DlE lGNORANCE:  no, i dont believe in school
 Sandy2go69:  o
 DlE lGNORANCE:  traditional schools only teach you how to be like everybody else..
 DlE lGNORANCE:  if theres something i want/need to know
 DlE lGNORANCE:  i learn it on my own
 DlE lGNORANCE:  thats what the internet is for


Texasdiva81:


 DlE lGNORANCE:  hey..did you read it all?
 Texasdiva81:  pretty much i will read it totally when i haev more time
 DlE lGNORANCE:  cool, can i send some more?
 DlE lGNORANCE:  i got tons of stuff
 DlE lGNORANCE:  true stories..ive gotten in the habit of documenting my life...
 Texasdiva81:  coold eal
 DlE lGNORANCE:  it wasnt until i started doing that..that i realized how much cool shit happened
 Texasdiva81:  exactly like when ig ot pulled over on monday that was the funniest thing that ever happened to me
 DlE lGNORANCE:  tsk tsk, damn cars
 DlE lGNORANCE:  you should write a paper on it
 Texasdiva81:  i am sorry dude
 DlE lGNORANCE:  for what? you think im crazy too
 Texasdiva81:  no i dont
 Texasdiva81:  i was saying dorry about the car thign
 DlE lGNORANCE:  what car thing?
 Texasdiva81:  abotu driving my car monday
 DlE lGNORANCE:  its your car..you dont have to apologize to me..
 DlE lGNORANCE:  :P
 Texasdiva81:  so die how old are you?
 DlE lGNORANCE:  im 24
 Texasdiva81:  and what is your name i have an issure with calling you die
 Texasdiva81:  lol
 DlE lGNORANCE:  my name is victor
 DlE lGNORANCE:  and i try to live up to my name
 DlE lGNORANCE:  :]
 Texasdiva81:  nice to meet you victor i amsarah
 DlE lGNORANCE:  hi sarah, its a pleasure..
 Texasdiva81:  likewise hun
 DlE lGNORANCE:  i dont have a pic or anything..i dont really believe in them, but i can describe myself..
 Texasdiva81:  ok
 DlE lGNORANCE:  6'6"/200lbs/puertorican/german/panamanian/italian
 Texasdiva81:  nice
 Texasdiva81:  hey i have a pic where do i send it hun?
 DlE lGNORANCE:  DLE LGNORANCE
 DlE lGNORANCE:  aww..you called me hun
 DlE lGNORANCE:  gawrsh
 Texasdiva81:  ok you have mail victor
 DlE lGNORANCE:  = blushing on all 4 cheeks
 DlE lGNORANCE:  no i dont
 Texasdiva81:  i jsut sent it
 DlE lGNORANCE:  hmm
 DlE lGNORANCE:  are you sure you sent it to DLE LGNORANCE
 Texasdiva81:  dman my phone stillw ont work
 DlE lGNORANCE:  cuz the i's are really L's
 Texasdiva81:  no i didnt be right back
 DlE lGNORANCE:  cool
 Texasdiva81:  ok now you have mail hun
 DlE lGNORANCE:  ok got it
 DlE lGNORANCE:  hey..do you like to walk?
 DlE lGNORANCE:  drink lots of water?
 DlE lGNORANCE:  exercise?
 Texasdiva81:  well kinda
 DlE lGNORANCE:  but not really?
 Texasdiva81:  i do a lot of walking because my jobs require it and i drink water because sodas make me sick
 Texasdiva81:  right
 DlE lGNORANCE:  thats all the exercise you need
 DlE lGNORANCE:  and you walk to class from the bus..
 Texasdiva81:  right
 DlE lGNORANCE:  do you have your own apartment
 DlE lGNORANCE:  great quote about the price tag
 Texasdiva81:  thanks
 Texasdiva81:  i will have my own place in dec
 DlE lGNORANCE:  who are you living with now? parents?
 Texasdiva81:  my friend i have known since i was 2
 DlE lGNORANCE:  wow kickass
 Texasdiva81:  i guess so
 DlE lGNORANCE:  where are you going to move to?
 Texasdiva81:  across the parking lot
 DlE lGNORANCE:  well, i guess not so kickass if youre gonna move
 DlE lGNORANCE:  lol
 Texasdiva81:  i cant afford anywhere else
 DlE lGNORANCE:  how much do you pay at nob hill?
 Texasdiva81:  609 for a two bedroom two bath with washer and dryer
 Texasdiva81:  i will be paying 459 when i move to a one bedroom
 DlE lGNORANCE:  thats not too bad
 DlE lGNORANCE:  songbird?
 Texasdiva81:  no nob hill remember
 Texasdiva81:  damn it i need my phone to work
 DlE lGNORANCE:  oh i thought you said across the street
 Texasdiva81:  i was expecting a phone calla t 10
 Texasdiva81:  from ocking bird and la velencia
 DlE lGNORANCE:  why doesnt your phone work?
 Texasdiva81:  i dont know
 Texasdiva81:  i wish it did i paid my bill
 DlE lGNORANCE:  so its the actual phone thats messed up?
 Texasdiva81:  yes
 Texasdiva81:  i am so glad that you are tall
 Texasdiva81:  i am 5'10"
 Texasdiva81:  it is hard to find tall people to date around here
 Texasdiva81:  or to hang with for that matter i awlays feel so freakish
 Texasdiva81:  well hun i hate to run but i have class at 112 and iw anted to grab a bite to eat before
 Texasdiva81:  12*
 Texasdiva81:  are you still there?
 DlE lGNORANCE:  im sorry
 DlE lGNORANCE:  i had gotten up to put some clothes in the dryer
 Texasdiva81:  it is cool
 DlE lGNORANCE:  let me scroll up
 DlE lGNORANCE:  wow thats awesome youre that tall
 Texasdiva81:  yeah
 DlE lGNORANCE:  ive never been able to date myself..
 Texasdiva81:  i hate not being able to were high heels
 Texasdiva81:  lol
 DlE lGNORANCE:  i cant be the same way with two girls at the same time and not feel guilty
 DlE lGNORANCE:  i feel like im lying to one of them
 Texasdiva81:  damn i wish my phone was working i would love to hear your voice
 DlE lGNORANCE:  so i just make friends..
 DlE lGNORANCE:  and if i click with someone..then ill graduate the friendship
 Texasdiva81:  so you are seeing someone?
 DlE lGNORANCE:  no..everyone thinks im crazy
 DlE lGNORANCE:  but kinda cuz i want them to..
 DlE lGNORANCE:  i want them to doubt me to..
 Texasdiva81:  i dont think you are crazy i like the way you think
 DlE lGNORANCE:  itll make my victory so much sweeter
 DlE lGNORANCE:  thats cool, maybe i can ride the bus over one of these days and hang out
 DlE lGNORANCE:  hey..
 Texasdiva81:  hmmm?
 DlE lGNORANCE:  do you have any unhealthy habits?
 DlE lGNORANCE:  drink? smoke?
 Texasdiva81:  yes
 DlE lGNORANCE:  i dont drink myself, but i smoke weed on occasion..
 DlE lGNORANCE:  i dont do drugs though..
 Texasdiva81:  ok i dont smoke weed i hate that stuff
 DlE lGNORANCE:  just the natural stuff
 Texasdiva81:  but i do smoke occasionally and drink every once in awhile
 DlE lGNORANCE:  why do you hate weed?
 Texasdiva81:  well victor i hate to run but i really need to
 DlE lGNORANCE:  hey, what was your name again?
 Texasdiva81:  i dont like the way it smells or tastes
 Texasdiva81:  sarah
 DlE lGNORANCE:  thats right
 DlE lGNORANCE:  ok sarah, ill talk to you later
 DlE lGNORANCE:  you have a great day
 Texasdiva81:  ok bye bye cutie
 Texasdiva81:  yout oo
 DlE lGNORANCE:  and drive carefully
 Texasdiva81:  i will
 Texasdiva81:  i am a very good driver
 DlE lGNORANCE:  but not everyone else is..so be careful
 Auto response from Texasdiva81:  hey guys i am in class until 2 today. i have a break btween 9 and 1130 so if you have my number call me-sarah


YesIStillHateYou:


 DlE lGNORANCE:  aslp?
 DlE lGNORANCE:  hehe
 YesIStillHateYou:  gee thanks
 YesIStillHateYou:  lol
 DlE lGNORANCE:  sorry, you were asking for it methie
 YesIStillHateYou:  i know
 DlE lGNORANCE:  oh..so you want people to IM you with that?
 DlE lGNORANCE:  reverse-psychology..
 DlE lGNORANCE:  very clever
 YesIStillHateYou:  lol
 YesIStillHateYou:  not quite
 DlE lGNORANCE:  sure sure
 YesIStillHateYou:  but thanks for giving me credit
 DlE lGNORANCE:  im trying to discredit you at the same time..
 DlE lGNORANCE:  some reverse-psycholog of my own
 DlE lGNORANCE:  +y
 DlE lGNORANCE:  teehee
 YesIStillHateYou:  nicely done
 DlE lGNORANCE:  why thank you
 DlE lGNORANCE:  ok, ill let you be now..if im bothering you
 YesIStillHateYou:  no, was checking on the babyt
 YesIStillHateYou:  baby*
 DlE lGNORANCE:  if im not, let me know cuz ill keep pestering you
 DlE lGNORANCE:  im bored
 DlE lGNORANCE:  you have a kid?
 YesIStillHateYou:  hell no, its my niece
 DlE lGNORANCE:  haha you said hell no
 YesIStillHateYou:  i am not that crazy
 DlE lGNORANCE:  good thing
 DlE lGNORANCE:  go get on the shot..
 YesIStillHateYou:  fuck no, been there done that
 DlE lGNORANCE:  hehe
 YesIStillHateYou:  not a good thing
 DlE lGNORANCE:  what happened?
 YesIStillHateYou:  it makes you gain weight, you get depressed, bleed at random
 DlE lGNORANCE:  when you got a monogymous partner..theres just nothing better
 DlE lGNORANCE:  thats why you do some regular exercise.
 DlE lGNORANCE:  to compensate for those side-effects
 YesIStillHateYou:  still, there are lots of side effects
 DlE lGNORANCE:  umm..i think not getting pregnant is worth it
 DlE lGNORANCE:  my exgirlfriend chasity was on depo for the whole 4 years we were together..
 YesIStillHateYou:  everyone's situation is differnt
 DlE lGNORANCE:  i suppose youre right
 YesIStillHateYou:  you're bi polar?
 DlE lGNORANCE:  i have been diagnosed that after very minimal contact
 YesIStillHateYou:  its a fairly simple diagnosis
 YesIStillHateYou:  but there are different types
 DlE lGNORANCE:  and even if i am..wouldnt anyone that had ideas as great as mine be excited and manic about them?
 YesIStillHateYou:  possibly
 DlE lGNORANCE:  at the same time, when that person runs into all the ignorance and resistance of what, to him, make perfect sense
 DlE lGNORANCE:  wouldnt he get depressed?
 YesIStillHateYou:  most likely
 DlE lGNORANCE:  bipolar is the PC term for manic-depressive.
 DlE lGNORANCE:  its not a disorder..its a condition
 YesIStillHateYou:  I know that, but there are different versions
 YesIStillHateYou:  different "types"
 DlE lGNORANCE:  its just one of the many things that makes me different
 DlE lGNORANCE:  it doesnt need to be treated..just accepted
 DlE lGNORANCE:  some of our greatest minds on earth were considered bipolar..
 DlE lGNORANCE:  ernest hemingway, poe, einstein
 DlE lGNORANCE:  everyone thought they were crazy
 YesIStillHateYou:  yep
 DlE lGNORANCE:  until the proved themselves right
 DlE lGNORANCE:  which i intend to do
 DlE lGNORANCE:  but things take time
 DlE lGNORANCE:  and people in our lazy society are way too impatient
 DlE lGNORANCE:  they want everything NOW
 DlE lGNORANCE:  walking will teach anyone patience..as well as delayed-gratification
 DlE lGNORANCE:  it truly is the secret to life..
 DlE lGNORANCE:  you can get away with so many things if you just take care of your body..
 YesIStillHateYou:  true
 DlE lGNORANCE:  and its not anything hard
 DlE lGNORANCE:  people walk every day
 DlE lGNORANCE:  they just have to start doing it on purpose..
 DlE lGNORANCE:  its not that i want to change everyone to conform to my standards..
 DlE lGNORANCE:  what i want is everyone to have the freedom to be different..to be themselves...
 DlE lGNORANCE:  im just going to give some really good suggestions..
 DlE lGNORANCE:  and thats all they are..take em or leave em
 DlE lGNORANCE:  i dont know if ive told you this before but
 DlE lGNORANCE:  if i was really able to pull off this whole world peace plan of mine
 DlE lGNORANCE:  wouldnt that make me the happiest man in the world?
 YesIStillHateYou:  yes
 DlE lGNORANCE:  not to mention, the most successful?
 DlE lGNORANCE:  all without any money
 DlE lGNORANCE:  ill have this big permanent shit-faced grin for a long time
 DlE lGNORANCE:  :]
 YesIStillHateYou:  lol
 DlE lGNORANCE:  we should stop giving foreign aide to other countries..
 DlE lGNORANCE:  and instead give evolution-aide
 DlE lGNORANCE:  to EVERYBODY
 DlE lGNORANCE:  we have the majority of the resources...and people are happy here
 DlE lGNORANCE:  happy people are generous people
 YesIStillHateYou:  they arent really happy
 DlE lGNORANCE:  not as happy as they could be, of course
 DlE lGNORANCE:  but i plan to change that..
 DlE lGNORANCE:  :]
 YesIStillHateYou:  you can try
 DlE lGNORANCE:  i sure can