ExtasyRosexox

  ExtasyRosexox:  how did your day go Victor
 GO TO HELL PUTO:  better, i walked up to the gas station and bought some cigarettes..
 GO TO HELL PUTO:  i did some thinking too..
 GO TO HELL PUTO:  how was yours?
 ExtasyRosexox:  yeah what about
 ExtasyRosexox:  it was ok
 GO TO HELL PUTO:  im thinking im not gonna go through with it, i was just thinking with the wrong head again..
 GO TO HELL PUTO:  im gonna keep holding out for a girlfriend..
 ExtasyRosexox:  go through with what
 
 GO TO HELL PUTO:  itll be worth it..
 ExtasyRosexox:  oh that
 ExtasyRosexox:  good for you
 GO TO HELL PUTO:  :]
 ExtasyRosexox:  your a nice guy and you deserve a good girl
 GO TO HELL PUTO:  thank you
 GO TO HELL PUTO:  as do you
 GO TO HELL PUTO:  but guy, of course..
 ExtasyRosexox:  no not me
 ExtasyRosexox:  i've had my share of mistakes
 GO TO HELL PUTO:  we all have..
 GO TO HELL PUTO:  learn from them and move on
 ExtasyRosexox:  stuff i just can't ever change
 GO TO HELL PUTO:  leave them in the past, where they belong..
 GO TO HELL PUTO:  its never too late to become what you mightve been
 ExtasyRosexox:  what if the past is still recent and it still hurts
 GO TO HELL PUTO:  there are appropriate occasions for ignorance, that is one of them..
 GO TO HELL PUTO:  just try not to think about it..
 GO TO HELL PUTO:  ignore it
 GO TO HELL PUTO:  worrying is like paying interest on a debt you may never owe..
 ExtasyRosexox:  I wish I could be like you and wait on the good things to come along but i just don't feel deserving of those things
 GO TO HELL PUTO:  thats not mine..i cant take credit for such a truthful quote
 GO TO HELL PUTO:  who cares if you deserve them or not, if they come, enjoy them like you do deserve them
 GO TO HELL PUTO:  they wouldnt come at all, if you didnt deserve them at least a little
 ExtasyRosexox:  certain things have turned into a cold hearted bitch, I am a very sweet person, don't get me wrong. But when it comes to a man caring about me I back away  
 GO TO HELL PUTO:  its when you lose all hope, that you really stop living..
 ExtasyRosexox:  i have lots of friends and I trust them, but I don't want them to see me as meek emotional mess.
 ExtasyRosexox:  i feel like if I could confide in someone i wouldn't have to carry this burden  
 ExtasyRosexox:  i think shrinks are dumbasses and they have problems of thier own as do everyone else
 GO TO HELL PUTO:  shrinks are high-paid brainwashers..
 GO TO HELL PUTO:  how can they think they know how to fix everyones problems, when no two are the same?
 ExtasyRosexox:  exactly
 GO TO HELL PUTO:  my mom got a masters in pyschotherapy...
 GO TO HELL PUTO:  yet she teaches special ed at a high school
 GO TO HELL PUTO:  what a waste huh
 ExtasyRosexox:  really
 ExtasyRosexox:  sorry if I said anything offensive but its how i feel
 GO TO HELL PUTO:  mary
 GO TO HELL PUTO:  i will listen
 GO TO HELL PUTO:  you said nothing to offend me..
 GO TO HELL PUTO:  actually, if you want a real hard challenge..try and offend me..
 ExtasyRosexox:  whos mary
 ExtasyRosexox:  not me
 GO TO HELL PUTO:  ack
 GO TO HELL PUTO:  my bad..
 GO TO HELL PUTO:  two head-injuries..
 GO TO HELL PUTO:  (universal excuse)
 ExtasyRosexox:  ok
 ExtasyRosexox:  well
 ExtasyRosexox:  In the last I'd say it been a year. I had a bad breakup, promiscuity, rape.
 ExtasyRosexox:  I've had a bad year
 GO TO HELL PUTO:  whoa, im so sorry
 GO TO HELL PUTO:  i dont see how guys can rape..
 ExtasyRosexox:  its ok
 GO TO HELL PUTO:  i mean, if i ever get that horny, i can always put it into manual..
 ExtasyRosexox:  this guy had no probloem
 GO TO HELL PUTO:  how can anyone enjoy themselves when the other isnt?
 ExtasyRosexox:  my boyfriend left me when he lost his job, we never argued or anything. He felt less than a man. He said he didn't deserve me. He was on probation for something he did when he was a teen. He provoked probation, got thrown in jail. I was hurt. He'd write but it wasn't the same as having hime there. I used sex as a way to null my pain and when i realized that wasn't the path i wanted to take, I tried to turn things around. I just dated a few guys. I started holding back on even kissing on the first date.
 ExtasyRosexox:  i went out with a guy that worked as a guard in the juvenile detention center. he said he forgot something at his house and i went in what was suppose to be a few minutes and he pulled a gun on me. I fought but he shoved the barrel under my chin and I went limp.
 ExtasyRosexox:  i had to be obediant because I wanted to live.
 GO TO HELL PUTO:  oh my gawd
 GO TO HELL PUTO:  thats just terrible
 GO TO HELL PUTO:  but
 GO TO HELL PUTO:  its over with..
 GO TO HELL PUTO:  case closed..
 GO TO HELL PUTO:  its in the past...leave it there
 ExtasyRosexox:  it makes mke not trust men
 GO TO HELL PUTO:  you should be more worried about today and tomorrow..
 GO TO HELL PUTO:  im not surprised, but you cant generalize all men for what one did
 GO TO HELL PUTO:  when everyone is different..
 ExtasyRosexox:  i feel like such a coward because i didn't turn him in
 ExtasyRosexox:  but i was afraid
 GO TO HELL PUTO:  well, did you learn anything from that?
 GO TO HELL PUTO:  would you be better prepared if it were to happen again?
 GO TO HELL PUTO:  dont see it as a fuckup, see it as a learning experience..
 GO TO HELL PUTO:  we all make mistakes in our lives..
 ExtasyRosexox:  stay away from prison staff
 GO TO HELL PUTO:  mistakes are part of the dues one pays for a full life..
 GO TO HELL PUTO:  another quote thats not mine
 ExtasyRosexox:  right
 ExtasyRosexox:  man I haven't told anybody
 ExtasyRosexox:  it feels weird
 GO TO HELL PUTO:  you can trust me rose..
 GO TO HELL PUTO:  dont you feel a little better now?
 ExtasyRosexox:  For some reason I feel like I can
 ExtasyRosexox:  yes i do
 GO TO HELL PUTO:  we all need to vent sometime..
 ExtasyRosexox:  a quote of yours?
 GO TO HELL PUTO:  no, just a fact of life..
 GO TO HELL PUTO:  rose, will you excuse me while i go indulge in my addiction and smoke a cigarette?
 ExtasyRosexox:  0of course, maybe i'll do the same
 GO TO HELL PUTO:  come on, everyones doing it..
 GO TO HELL PUTO:  dont you wanna be cool???
 GO TO HELL PUTO:  :P
 ExtasyRosexox:  follow the leader
 GO TO HELL PUTO:  lol
 GO TO HELL PUTO:  brbin10min