RE: are you sure?
victor gruber
Sat 3/12/2011 3:16 AM
Franklin,
Ever since my accidents Ada had wanted me to apply for disability. I had always been against it due to my past stance on money. When I gave up my mission and returned home towards the end of 2009, I finally agreed to. She didn't go out of her way to secure that money for me. I rode the bus to the social security office myself and applied. I was very surprised I got approved. Well, I got denied for SSDI(Social Security Disabiliy Insurance), but approved for SSI(Supplemental Security Income), which is less. SSDI is financed by work history and taxes an invidual pays from each paycheck. SSI is financed through general revenues, a government fund. My measly four hundred dollars would stop after I was out of the country for 30 days, but if in that month I can secure employment and feel at peace there, I would stay longer. I would very much like to start a new life.
I now see that I must conform to our sick society. The main reason I have not seeked employment here is because I very much doubt I could find a job without having been on a payroll since 2002, not to mention the current economy. And also, I have no interests anymore.
I have been forced to swallow my pride, Franklin. I will be subservient when I visit and respect you. I'm starting from scratch. Please be gentle. You say you can locate an apartment I would pay for. How exactly would I pay for it? How would I buy food? I have about four hundred in the bank right now and will have to wait until next month to get four hundred more. That should be enough for my round trip plane ticket, but not much left over. I ask you again, please call the embassy and find out exactly what my entry requirements are.
The main reason I have not gained employment here is because I seriously doubt anyone would hire me seeing as I haven't been on a payroll since 2002. I wouldn't even be able to remember the correct dates of my past employments for an application. Not to mention the current economy. Would there be entry level work for me in Panama you could find me as soon as I got there so I could afford rent and food? General labor, or cleaning houses or something? I expect there would be an application process with work history requirements. Am I expected to be dishonest about my past to people I talk to in Boquete? I'm sure I'll be asked what I did or if I went to school. Would I bring shame to you? It would take a while for me to transition back into speaking Spanish. It seems have you reconsidered my visit. That's why I asked if you were sure. I was truly looking forward to the change in scenery.
Sincerely,
- Victor
From: botanicofranklingruber@hotmail.com
To: rightprotect@hotmail.com
Subject: are you sure?
Date: Fri, 11 Mar 2011 16:03:44 +0000
Victor, your fortunate your mother went out of her way to get you the 440 per month, it provides you a cushion so you will not starve to death while that check keeps coming. Its also the opportunity to meditate, have enough peace to do that on your own value system and what you decide in it needs changing.
I am not a millionaire now to be giving out millions but now clearly the potential is at hand, it all depends on how much peace I have here in order to consolidate the efforts of the last 30 years. Of the basic formula for wrinkles and skin cancer I can produce with 300 dollars about 120,000 in three days as the herbs are FREE. Its the formula that counts. And to make the formula work it takes my experience. Its like when a good chef gives another good chef his best formula, even then he can´t make the formula exactly as the first chef, there is the personal touch and experience in cooking that is differrent. Herbalism is more an art than a Science. It adapts to the needs of its clients not its clients conforming to standardized medicine.
I wish I could say, hey Victor here let me share any knowledge you might feel useful to help support yourself in the future but I can´t I can only offer of what I have.....an easy fast way of making bug repellents that also eliminates their itch, allergy and poison. Take it as a vehicle to increase your income until you consolidate other worthy goals in life. Bugs bug people in every country of the World, its like an economic pass port and excuse to socialize, excuse me young lady I see your legs are all eaten up by sandflies, does it itch and bother you? Please have a free sample and apply it and watch as magic in 5 minutes all itch, pain and allergic reaction vanishes! At the moment they feel the relief they don´t stop to ask you whether you are SANE or Crazy....they just know your differrent because you did something unique for them that no one ever did before. To make this stuff you buy a galon of any brand cooking oil but first boil the herbs in water for about one hour then add the oil, igual amounts of each. The mixture will begin to boil until in about 5 hours all the water has evaporated and the plant essence is impregnated in the oil. Then you strain the oil to eliminate the leave pieces, and bingo your through. You just made a batch of concentrate, now you dilute it with more cooking oil, 80 percent cooking oil to 20 percent of concentrate and you pack it in two ounce plastic bottles. Now wonder the World in any direction you want, you will always find people sensitive to bug bites. Besides this stuff disinfects the bites to avoid disease or kill parasites on the spot like malaria from recent bites.
I would say that to learn how to do this product well is the principal reason, inheritance, I can share with you now. Its what I have in hand that will work for you the rest of your life. Any amount of money I can give you you will spend and it will be gone but this herb grows wild and its always reproducing itself, sort of as money does grow on trees. Eventually when I see the Wrinkle Cream there will be something there for you and your sisters, how much I can´t say yet, but if I die tomorrow there will not be anything so learn how to make money now with the bug bite remedy.
Due to your swift changes in character, I can`t mix you in with my current family, you would destroy the peace of my current family. You are setting your own limits and you can expand them as well depending on how you continue to renew yourself in an adaptive way. We all have differrent value systems, who is to say who is right about this or that? The important thing is to RESPECT each other if we are to expect good things from one another. I do not expect you to love me and neither do I expect you to respect me as a son that grew up with his father, I only expect you to respect me as a fellow human being, if there is that we have a relationship if not we don´t, its up to you to continue to chose what you can receive from me.
The most I can do for you now should you come down is locate an apartment for you that you will pay for. Take you to the BCP meeting so you learn about selling and earn a weeks wages in 3 hours! I can´t mix you with my current family and I do not cook, so at least at first you will not mingle with them although I will introduce you to your brothers, you will have to pay for your own food which you would have to cook or eat out. We could meet a couple times a week in a restaurant and have coffee together.
Because of your explosive personality this is all I can offer now. I was willing to give more.....now its still up to you if you want any relationship with me, to recoup what you have lost and gain some more. That will require humble respectful behavior on your part, if its there we have a relationship, if its not stick where you are at....can´t make it any clearer.
Do wish you the best, whether you come or stay. If you come you can be certain I am not going to pamper you, I will give in proportion to your own initiatives of what you do for yourself. If you where 8 years old it would be a differrent manner, but men we must treat as men. Franklin
From: rightprotect@hotmail.com
To: botanicofranklingruber@hotmail.com
Subject: RE: are you sure?
Date: Thu, 10 Mar 2011 13:59:45 -0600
Yes, I would accept the money. I have no earthly idea what I'd do with so much money though. I don't even know what to do with my $440 a month I get from my crazy check. Possessions don't mean much to me anymore. Buy a plane ticket to Panama, maybe. My life is at a standstill. I am confused with all this information I get from the internet, I don't know what to believe anymore.
I've just had this feeling in my gut since I was small that things weren't right in the world and I thought I had stumbled onto a way to make a difference, which I did on a very miniscule level. It didn't catch on like I thought it would have. In the back of my mind I assumed my success would just fall into place by itself, as long as I remained free.
I know I'm being a big pussy and that so many other people have it so much worse off than me and are able to be happy. Ignorance truly is bliss and knowing(or thinking you know) is plain hell. Close to the persons I love the most? I don't know who that is. I am frankly sick of Ada and her complaining nature. Was she that complaintive before? I have absolutely no friends, because everyone who knew me before thinks I'm crazy. A lot of times I feel like I lost my soul in my accidents. I just got used to life being easy, I guess. I feel like I was living a lie now. Calling myself a self-published journalist just for recording every detail of my wanderings and typing them up.
From: botanicofranklingruber@hotmail.com
To: rightprotect@hotmail.com
Subject: are you sure?
Date: Thu, 10 Mar 2011 15:00:52 +0000
We live in a world of illusions because we are always making decisions with differrent degrees of incomplete information.
Given your overreactive nature, It would be nice for us to meet however maybe not live together. If you like Panama for a break, a change of environment, it may have some kind of useful purpose. I can help you settle down here for a while or permanently, its your decison.
Now if you and I cannot change the world at this late stage of affairs, whats wrong with a positive attitude within the current state of affairs? Bitter emotions is not good for us, be happy, we all can if we make it a goal and not be so judgemental with every one and everything.
And if the World is going to hell, be close to the persons you love the most.....its certainly not me, but your welcome to visit.
Email communication lends itself to so much misunderstanding, it is a tool that hinders often communication as we are not meeting the real persons but just reacting to words that can be taken in so many differrent ways. Catch ya later, Frank
PS Please answer me this question. You hate money and millions. If some one off the street came up to you and said hey Victor, I know you do not like to work for money but I like you, here take this million dollars....would you accept it and what would you do with it?
From: botanicofranklingruber@hotmail.com
To: rightprotect@hotmail.com
Subject: RE: are you sure?
Date: Thu, 10 Mar 2011 14:45:21 +0000
Victor, I did not say Panama is a safe haven, and if your really sincere about your negative attitude towards money, open up a market area anywhere in the world where you can exchange a pound of any food for a pound of any other food as the stomuch does not know much the differrence. Here I am trapped in the reality of the world as you are also in a similar circumstance. Getting as close to nature as possible is the way to mitigate some of the effects of being either a hammer or a nail.
If your going to come here its not to philosophize or argue, its to try to survive the shape of things to come. Frank
From: rightprotect@hotmail.com
To: botanicofranklingruber@hotmail.com
Subject: RE: are you sure?
Date: Wed, 9 Mar 2011 22:50:48 -0600
Frank,
You say things like "the rest of your life" and "watching ww3 from our hammocks in the mountain." What, do you think Panama is immune to the coming globalization? Look how Americanized it's become. You even use the American dollar. I assure you it is not immune. Google "Panama and the new world order." Every single war that has been staged in the world is done for a purpose. To reduce population. Remember Noriega? The massive brainwashing that has been inflicted on humanity reaches around the globe.
I take back saying my mission was delusional. You are delusional for thinking Panama is a safe haven. I still think money is evil. And yet you still pine for the day you're a millionaire. I'm sure the technology exists to cure a myriad of diseases, but it's only for the elite. They want all the poor people dead. I still think it's human nature to be generous and humanity has been tricked into thinking it's the opposite. And I also still believe marijuana makes people peaceful. That's why it's illegal and alcohol isn't, after all. Peace doesn't make money. And alcohol stops people from listening. All the chaos that goes on in this world is quite intentional. I quit my mission because I lost hope, not because I think I was wrong. I quit my mission because I learned more than ever, that I was right.
But what I was doing is not enough to wake up the masses and make a true difference, the internet is part of their plan too. It was been compromised. Plus, when I came back I saw planned disasters were still happening. For instance, the Haiti earthquake and the oil spill in the gulf. They say they capped it, but that well is still spewing oil this very minute, killing the Gulf of Mexico.
When such blatant evil is abound in this world, why isn't everyone as stressed out as me? Lots of people are going to die soon. There's plans to hand Panama over to the Chinese. Soon, everyone that doesn't serve a purpose to this new world order is going to be exterminated. Governments have a file on each citizen. Mine is jam packed full of world peace through marijuana, sealing my death warrant. The last thing they want is aware citizens that can think for themselves.
I don't even socialize here. What makes you think I'll be able to over there, in another language even. This all leaves me in a precarious situation. How can I regain hope when nothing has changed? When people are still brainwashed to believe lies? I would rather live free or die. Hehe, that almost rhymed.
Sincerely,
- Victor
From: botanicofranklingruber@hotmail.com
To: rightprotect@hotmail.com
Subject: RE: are you sure?
Date: Wed, 9 Mar 2011 21:25:17 +0000
What is Boquete like....its definitely not like San Antonio, Texas. Anywhere you are in Boquete your only ten minutes away from the center square of town where most people and business congregate, walking distance from the center at most is two hours. So your social life if you want it and your friends are compact. Its sort of a peaceful fair environment with a lots of people selling arts and crafts the weekends and just talking in the park surrounded by flowers. Nearby a beautiful river to contemplate that goes right down the middle of the town. 3 Miles away if you love nature are the jungles and jungle adventures. If you do want to work, once I help you get your Panamanian credentials, you can teach english to local people, there is a lot of demand for that or teach spanish to americans retiring here, or become a talkative tourist guide to the local attractions, or just enjoy loafing! A single person can get a place here with at least one room for 100 dollars per month. Meals on the street, restaurants, go from 1.75 to 2.50, complete meals. Just come and enjoy the area, recharge up your life batteries before deciding what other activities y might interest you. Nature photography has a great potential here,,,,the discovery of new insects, etc. There are other interesting places in Panama but Boquete is the MECCA FOR INTERNATIONAL TOURISTS. The weather is neither hot nor cold, rather cool most of the year. Its a nice place to start loving yourself again!
When we have been in a negative environment for so long we absorb it, so also do we cleanse ourselves when we find the area where we are happy! Once I make my first million, join me to travel the World over. If I dont you shall have at least one tool to make your own million. But it does not fall out of the skie like pie...we do have to do something to make it happen but when it coimes to nature related business we are part of helping others receive Gods Love and Life.
LOVE to have you down here Victor! God Bless you, look forward to your visit be it temporarily or permanently! your old man. Frank
From: rightprotect@hotmail.com
To: botanicofranklingruber@hotmail.com
Subject: are you sure?
Date: Tue, 8 Mar 2011 13:00:38 -0600
Franklin,
I'm such a worthless mess. Are you sure you want me over there complicating your life? I see my situation as hopeless. A round trip ticket to Panama is about six hundred dollars and I should be able to afford that very soon. I'm going to sell my mountain bike on craigslist. I might get two hundred or more for it. I only bought it for the dairy farm I was at, but since i gave up on that it just sits there. Please find out exactly what I need to visit. I've read on the web that I need to have a bank account with at least five hundred dollars, which I wouldn't have after buying a round trip ticket.
Ada's economic situation is getting worse, she's retiring and will only get half of what she's making now. Everything, like gasoline is so much more expensive now. They're tightening the noose. I am sick and tired of Ada's indirects and guilt trips. I am starting to resent her for them.
What would life be like for me in Panama? How would I be expected to pull my weight? I can barely hold conversations in English, let alone Spanish. I have no friends here. Sex would be nice, but I have my insecurities about that too. Not to mention in all my wanderings about the country I picked up Herpes which has just compounded my depression.
It seems like everyone is still asleep about the coming doom. It's a new WORLD order they're after. I don't know where we would be safe. Since I don't have any interests in my life, are you expecting for me to just jump into herbalism? Do you plan to be my sensei? What exactly would you expect from me? What if I get hurt? My medicaid won't cover me in Panama. Also, my Spanish isn't very well. It also seems like Panama(as well as the rest of the world) is being Americanized. Oh yeah, there's rumors on the internet about the rapture, judgement day happening on May 21st of this year. What if I still feel like killing myself after spending a month there. I doubt I'd want to return to San Antonio. Maybe I can find me a nice lagoon in the forest there to drown in. Like I said, it would be nice to meet my dad before I offed myself.
Best wishes,
- Victor Antonio
Ever since my accidents Ada had wanted me to apply for disability. I had always been against it due to my past stance on money. When I gave up my mission and returned home towards the end of 2009, I finally agreed to. She didn't go out of her way to secure that money for me. I rode the bus to the social security office myself and applied. I was very surprised I got approved. Well, I got denied for SSDI(Social Security Disabiliy Insurance), but approved for SSI(Supplemental Security Income), which is less. SSDI is financed by work history and taxes an invidual pays from each paycheck. SSI is financed through general revenues, a government fund. My measly four hundred dollars would stop after I was out of the country for 30 days, but if in that month I can secure employment and feel at peace there, I would stay longer. I would very much like to start a new life.
I now see that I must conform to our sick society. The main reason I have not seeked employment here is because I very much doubt I could find a job without having been on a payroll since 2002, not to mention the current economy. And also, I have no interests anymore.
I have been forced to swallow my pride, Franklin. I will be subservient when I visit and respect you. I'm starting from scratch. Please be gentle. You say you can locate an apartment I would pay for. How exactly would I pay for it? How would I buy food? I have about four hundred in the bank right now and will have to wait until next month to get four hundred more. That should be enough for my round trip plane ticket, but not much left over. I ask you again, please call the embassy and find out exactly what my entry requirements are.
The main reason I have not gained employment here is because I seriously doubt anyone would hire me seeing as I haven't been on a payroll since 2002. I wouldn't even be able to remember the correct dates of my past employments for an application. Not to mention the current economy. Would there be entry level work for me in Panama you could find me as soon as I got there so I could afford rent and food? General labor, or cleaning houses or something? I expect there would be an application process with work history requirements. Am I expected to be dishonest about my past to people I talk to in Boquete? I'm sure I'll be asked what I did or if I went to school. Would I bring shame to you? It would take a while for me to transition back into speaking Spanish. It seems have you reconsidered my visit. That's why I asked if you were sure. I was truly looking forward to the change in scenery.
Sincerely,
- Victor
From: botanicofranklingruber@hotmail.com
To: rightprotect@hotmail.com
Subject: are you sure?
Date: Fri, 11 Mar 2011 16:03:44 +0000
Victor, your fortunate your mother went out of her way to get you the 440 per month, it provides you a cushion so you will not starve to death while that check keeps coming. Its also the opportunity to meditate, have enough peace to do that on your own value system and what you decide in it needs changing.
I am not a millionaire now to be giving out millions but now clearly the potential is at hand, it all depends on how much peace I have here in order to consolidate the efforts of the last 30 years. Of the basic formula for wrinkles and skin cancer I can produce with 300 dollars about 120,000 in three days as the herbs are FREE. Its the formula that counts. And to make the formula work it takes my experience. Its like when a good chef gives another good chef his best formula, even then he can´t make the formula exactly as the first chef, there is the personal touch and experience in cooking that is differrent. Herbalism is more an art than a Science. It adapts to the needs of its clients not its clients conforming to standardized medicine.
I wish I could say, hey Victor here let me share any knowledge you might feel useful to help support yourself in the future but I can´t I can only offer of what I have.....an easy fast way of making bug repellents that also eliminates their itch, allergy and poison. Take it as a vehicle to increase your income until you consolidate other worthy goals in life. Bugs bug people in every country of the World, its like an economic pass port and excuse to socialize, excuse me young lady I see your legs are all eaten up by sandflies, does it itch and bother you? Please have a free sample and apply it and watch as magic in 5 minutes all itch, pain and allergic reaction vanishes! At the moment they feel the relief they don´t stop to ask you whether you are SANE or Crazy....they just know your differrent because you did something unique for them that no one ever did before. To make this stuff you buy a galon of any brand cooking oil but first boil the herbs in water for about one hour then add the oil, igual amounts of each. The mixture will begin to boil until in about 5 hours all the water has evaporated and the plant essence is impregnated in the oil. Then you strain the oil to eliminate the leave pieces, and bingo your through. You just made a batch of concentrate, now you dilute it with more cooking oil, 80 percent cooking oil to 20 percent of concentrate and you pack it in two ounce plastic bottles. Now wonder the World in any direction you want, you will always find people sensitive to bug bites. Besides this stuff disinfects the bites to avoid disease or kill parasites on the spot like malaria from recent bites.
I would say that to learn how to do this product well is the principal reason, inheritance, I can share with you now. Its what I have in hand that will work for you the rest of your life. Any amount of money I can give you you will spend and it will be gone but this herb grows wild and its always reproducing itself, sort of as money does grow on trees. Eventually when I see the Wrinkle Cream there will be something there for you and your sisters, how much I can´t say yet, but if I die tomorrow there will not be anything so learn how to make money now with the bug bite remedy.
Due to your swift changes in character, I can`t mix you in with my current family, you would destroy the peace of my current family. You are setting your own limits and you can expand them as well depending on how you continue to renew yourself in an adaptive way. We all have differrent value systems, who is to say who is right about this or that? The important thing is to RESPECT each other if we are to expect good things from one another. I do not expect you to love me and neither do I expect you to respect me as a son that grew up with his father, I only expect you to respect me as a fellow human being, if there is that we have a relationship if not we don´t, its up to you to continue to chose what you can receive from me.
The most I can do for you now should you come down is locate an apartment for you that you will pay for. Take you to the BCP meeting so you learn about selling and earn a weeks wages in 3 hours! I can´t mix you with my current family and I do not cook, so at least at first you will not mingle with them although I will introduce you to your brothers, you will have to pay for your own food which you would have to cook or eat out. We could meet a couple times a week in a restaurant and have coffee together.
Because of your explosive personality this is all I can offer now. I was willing to give more.....now its still up to you if you want any relationship with me, to recoup what you have lost and gain some more. That will require humble respectful behavior on your part, if its there we have a relationship, if its not stick where you are at....can´t make it any clearer.
Do wish you the best, whether you come or stay. If you come you can be certain I am not going to pamper you, I will give in proportion to your own initiatives of what you do for yourself. If you where 8 years old it would be a differrent manner, but men we must treat as men. Franklin
From: rightprotect@hotmail.com
To: botanicofranklingruber@hotmail.com
Subject: RE: are you sure?
Date: Thu, 10 Mar 2011 13:59:45 -0600
Yes, I would accept the money. I have no earthly idea what I'd do with so much money though. I don't even know what to do with my $440 a month I get from my crazy check. Possessions don't mean much to me anymore. Buy a plane ticket to Panama, maybe. My life is at a standstill. I am confused with all this information I get from the internet, I don't know what to believe anymore.
I've just had this feeling in my gut since I was small that things weren't right in the world and I thought I had stumbled onto a way to make a difference, which I did on a very miniscule level. It didn't catch on like I thought it would have. In the back of my mind I assumed my success would just fall into place by itself, as long as I remained free.
I know I'm being a big pussy and that so many other people have it so much worse off than me and are able to be happy. Ignorance truly is bliss and knowing(or thinking you know) is plain hell. Close to the persons I love the most? I don't know who that is. I am frankly sick of Ada and her complaining nature. Was she that complaintive before? I have absolutely no friends, because everyone who knew me before thinks I'm crazy. A lot of times I feel like I lost my soul in my accidents. I just got used to life being easy, I guess. I feel like I was living a lie now. Calling myself a self-published journalist just for recording every detail of my wanderings and typing them up.
From: botanicofranklingruber@hotmail.com
To: rightprotect@hotmail.com
Subject: are you sure?
Date: Thu, 10 Mar 2011 15:00:52 +0000
We live in a world of illusions because we are always making decisions with differrent degrees of incomplete information.
Given your overreactive nature, It would be nice for us to meet however maybe not live together. If you like Panama for a break, a change of environment, it may have some kind of useful purpose. I can help you settle down here for a while or permanently, its your decison.
Now if you and I cannot change the world at this late stage of affairs, whats wrong with a positive attitude within the current state of affairs? Bitter emotions is not good for us, be happy, we all can if we make it a goal and not be so judgemental with every one and everything.
And if the World is going to hell, be close to the persons you love the most.....its certainly not me, but your welcome to visit.
Email communication lends itself to so much misunderstanding, it is a tool that hinders often communication as we are not meeting the real persons but just reacting to words that can be taken in so many differrent ways. Catch ya later, Frank
PS Please answer me this question. You hate money and millions. If some one off the street came up to you and said hey Victor, I know you do not like to work for money but I like you, here take this million dollars....would you accept it and what would you do with it?
From: botanicofranklingruber@hotmail.com
To: rightprotect@hotmail.com
Subject: RE: are you sure?
Date: Thu, 10 Mar 2011 14:45:21 +0000
Victor, I did not say Panama is a safe haven, and if your really sincere about your negative attitude towards money, open up a market area anywhere in the world where you can exchange a pound of any food for a pound of any other food as the stomuch does not know much the differrence. Here I am trapped in the reality of the world as you are also in a similar circumstance. Getting as close to nature as possible is the way to mitigate some of the effects of being either a hammer or a nail.
If your going to come here its not to philosophize or argue, its to try to survive the shape of things to come. Frank
From: rightprotect@hotmail.com
To: botanicofranklingruber@hotmail.com
Subject: RE: are you sure?
Date: Wed, 9 Mar 2011 22:50:48 -0600
Frank,
You say things like "the rest of your life" and "watching ww3 from our hammocks in the mountain." What, do you think Panama is immune to the coming globalization? Look how Americanized it's become. You even use the American dollar. I assure you it is not immune. Google "Panama and the new world order." Every single war that has been staged in the world is done for a purpose. To reduce population. Remember Noriega? The massive brainwashing that has been inflicted on humanity reaches around the globe.
I take back saying my mission was delusional. You are delusional for thinking Panama is a safe haven. I still think money is evil. And yet you still pine for the day you're a millionaire. I'm sure the technology exists to cure a myriad of diseases, but it's only for the elite. They want all the poor people dead. I still think it's human nature to be generous and humanity has been tricked into thinking it's the opposite. And I also still believe marijuana makes people peaceful. That's why it's illegal and alcohol isn't, after all. Peace doesn't make money. And alcohol stops people from listening. All the chaos that goes on in this world is quite intentional. I quit my mission because I lost hope, not because I think I was wrong. I quit my mission because I learned more than ever, that I was right.
But what I was doing is not enough to wake up the masses and make a true difference, the internet is part of their plan too. It was been compromised. Plus, when I came back I saw planned disasters were still happening. For instance, the Haiti earthquake and the oil spill in the gulf. They say they capped it, but that well is still spewing oil this very minute, killing the Gulf of Mexico.
When such blatant evil is abound in this world, why isn't everyone as stressed out as me? Lots of people are going to die soon. There's plans to hand Panama over to the Chinese. Soon, everyone that doesn't serve a purpose to this new world order is going to be exterminated. Governments have a file on each citizen. Mine is jam packed full of world peace through marijuana, sealing my death warrant. The last thing they want is aware citizens that can think for themselves.
I don't even socialize here. What makes you think I'll be able to over there, in another language even. This all leaves me in a precarious situation. How can I regain hope when nothing has changed? When people are still brainwashed to believe lies? I would rather live free or die. Hehe, that almost rhymed.
Sincerely,
- Victor
From: botanicofranklingruber@hotmail.com
To: rightprotect@hotmail.com
Subject: RE: are you sure?
Date: Wed, 9 Mar 2011 21:25:17 +0000
What is Boquete like....its definitely not like San Antonio, Texas. Anywhere you are in Boquete your only ten minutes away from the center square of town where most people and business congregate, walking distance from the center at most is two hours. So your social life if you want it and your friends are compact. Its sort of a peaceful fair environment with a lots of people selling arts and crafts the weekends and just talking in the park surrounded by flowers. Nearby a beautiful river to contemplate that goes right down the middle of the town. 3 Miles away if you love nature are the jungles and jungle adventures. If you do want to work, once I help you get your Panamanian credentials, you can teach english to local people, there is a lot of demand for that or teach spanish to americans retiring here, or become a talkative tourist guide to the local attractions, or just enjoy loafing! A single person can get a place here with at least one room for 100 dollars per month. Meals on the street, restaurants, go from 1.75 to 2.50, complete meals. Just come and enjoy the area, recharge up your life batteries before deciding what other activities y might interest you. Nature photography has a great potential here,,,,the discovery of new insects, etc. There are other interesting places in Panama but Boquete is the MECCA FOR INTERNATIONAL TOURISTS. The weather is neither hot nor cold, rather cool most of the year. Its a nice place to start loving yourself again!
When we have been in a negative environment for so long we absorb it, so also do we cleanse ourselves when we find the area where we are happy! Once I make my first million, join me to travel the World over. If I dont you shall have at least one tool to make your own million. But it does not fall out of the skie like pie...we do have to do something to make it happen but when it coimes to nature related business we are part of helping others receive Gods Love and Life.
LOVE to have you down here Victor! God Bless you, look forward to your visit be it temporarily or permanently! your old man. Frank
From: rightprotect@hotmail.com
To: botanicofranklingruber@hotmail.com
Subject: are you sure?
Date: Tue, 8 Mar 2011 13:00:38 -0600
Franklin,
I'm such a worthless mess. Are you sure you want me over there complicating your life? I see my situation as hopeless. A round trip ticket to Panama is about six hundred dollars and I should be able to afford that very soon. I'm going to sell my mountain bike on craigslist. I might get two hundred or more for it. I only bought it for the dairy farm I was at, but since i gave up on that it just sits there. Please find out exactly what I need to visit. I've read on the web that I need to have a bank account with at least five hundred dollars, which I wouldn't have after buying a round trip ticket.
Ada's economic situation is getting worse, she's retiring and will only get half of what she's making now. Everything, like gasoline is so much more expensive now. They're tightening the noose. I am sick and tired of Ada's indirects and guilt trips. I am starting to resent her for them.
What would life be like for me in Panama? How would I be expected to pull my weight? I can barely hold conversations in English, let alone Spanish. I have no friends here. Sex would be nice, but I have my insecurities about that too. Not to mention in all my wanderings about the country I picked up Herpes which has just compounded my depression.
It seems like everyone is still asleep about the coming doom. It's a new WORLD order they're after. I don't know where we would be safe. Since I don't have any interests in my life, are you expecting for me to just jump into herbalism? Do you plan to be my sensei? What exactly would you expect from me? What if I get hurt? My medicaid won't cover me in Panama. Also, my Spanish isn't very well. It also seems like Panama(as well as the rest of the world) is being Americanized. Oh yeah, there's rumors on the internet about the rapture, judgement day happening on May 21st of this year. What if I still feel like killing myself after spending a month there. I doubt I'd want to return to San Antonio. Maybe I can find me a nice lagoon in the forest there to drown in. Like I said, it would be nice to meet my dad before I offed myself.
Best wishes,
- Victor Antonio
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