Confidence in looking forward to a new life.
Botanico Gruber Gruber Chiari
Tue 3/15/2011 7:50 PM
Victor,
you sound like you really want to work....is this correct? I have
plenty of work for anyone that wants to work but do you? Several people
bounced off of me that where in destitute situations and now have the
momentum going financially. At he tuesday market I have the absolutely
best position of my table, pretty long, that costs me only 5 dollars,
there I have two sales pesons, one made 45 dollars for 3 hours work and
he other 65, last tuesday he made 85 for 3 hours work! If you made 60
dollars for only 3 hours work weekly thats an xtra 240 dollars a month,
almost twice what your rent would be down here. It only takes 3 hours
of training to learn to sell my products. You in the past have accussed
me of wanting to exploit you as a sales person of mine, not at all, I
can offer you only of what I have. Would you rather continue to tend
house and wash dishes than to learn MARKETING? Any person that develops
sales skills always finds work because everything has to be sold, even
if they had their own business, its good practice for when you have
one. I am getting old, have beat the streets at one time 12 hours a
day to take home only 10 dollars. Before where I got 3 dollars for a
bottle of regular jungl oil now I am getting 10 but discontinuing it
because I can make 35 for just one ounce of Wrinkle Cream that is also
frequently healing skin cancer.If
you do not accept my offer, I understand. You have a perfect set up, a
pension, a home you might some day inherit, and who wants to come down
to Panama at his expense and WORK? Once you get down here you might
look back and say " yes, grass wass greener over there." Matter of fact
if you came you would not really have to work at all unless you did it
for the learning experience since a single person can live here
comfortably on 415 dollars a month practicing shrudness in controlling
his expenses.If ya really
want to come here don´t sit on your behind feeling sorry for yourself,
get the facts from your travel agency on requirements to visit Panama
and get your person here. Time is ticking away, you can be trapped in
he US as you say, here at least you have a window to the World. The
time may come when one can buy a 5,000 dollar car for 500....I will be
saving for that eventuality. If I spend what little I am now saving
will not be able to survive with my current family or be of much help to
you either at the greater criical moments ahead. Work on building your
initiative, feeling sorry for your self is not going to resolve
anything! When things get tought the tought get moving! Be tough!
Frank
From: rightprotect@hotmail.comTo: botanicofranklingruber@hotmail.comSubject: RE: Confidence in looking forward to a new life.Date: Mon, 14 Mar 2011 23:14:50 -0500Frank, What do you mean see if I can get a loan where I hock my pension? I think I have an eviction on my credit record anyway. I want to work my ass of, I'm just doubtful anyone would hire me, plus I lack skills.
From: botanicofranklingruber@hotmail.comTo: rightprotect@hotmail.comSubject: RE: Confidence in looking forward to a new life.Date: Mon, 14 Mar 2011 16:04:40 +0000Victor, i listened to the link you sent me about two thirds through it. From the American community here, about 1,000 strong, been getting the drift of the shape of things to come in America a long time now. Your concerned about bailing out in time? Thats fine, I sensed there was something wrong with the US 30 years ago and came back to learn some thing basic that I could trade for food and other needed items when the time came....natural medicine. Generally prices will rise and rise and when the bubble busts, everything will be cheap but no one will have money to buy then, thats the way it typically goes. So what do you do....you save and save and save, stash it away and learn to survive off the land then come back and buy a practically new car for 500 dollars or anything else you need. Your procrastinating on your trip here. See if you can get a loan where you hock all of your pension that won´t be worth much soon to obtain say 20,000 dollars. Come here and buy some land to raise some food, it will be much in demand in the future. If you don´t do that, well save and get your but here then WORK YOUR ASS OFF for a six month period, save, while you decide what your next step will be. I already have a contengency plan. My rent in a near by town where I keep an alternate room is only 35 dollars. Here in Boquete I pay 150, its viable so long as the tourists keep coming.Of Fungus and skin infection medication I can make about 50 thousand worth in less han a week. I can store it and sell it in DRINKING STRAWS, ends sealed with silicon plastic. You cut it at the end and squeeze it like a tube. It would sell for 1 dollar or less if need be or exchange for food as everyone working the earth gets fungus and skin infections. One goes house to house with a food basket on one´s back and trades. The equivalent of 5 such straws one ounce I sell now for 20 dollars at the BCP Boquete Farmers market on Tuesdays. Hope you are able to participate in one of these markets. So long as you are close to mother nature and know how to obtain milk from her you can survive any economic crises anywhere. So long as you come here with a survival mentality of WORK I can help you, guide you until your on your own in Latin America or the Third World. Its after heating steel then plunging it in cold water that it gets Strong! Too much prosperity for too long is harmful to past, present and future generations, they are robbed of the opportunity of testing themselves against the currents of life. Fear can drive you to prepare to better survive or commit suicide, everyone has to decide for themselves. Those who suvive can become better examples and SEEDS for new generations. Life is a test. Those who pass it go on to higher and better things. Frank
From: rightprotect@hotmail.comTo: botanicofranklingruber@hotmail.comSubject: RE: Confidence in looking forward to a new life.Date: Mon, 14 Mar 2011 02:54:33 -0500http://www.stansberryresearch.com/pro/1011PSISBBVD/PPSIM310/PR I'll write more tomorrow, but listen to this link.
From: botanicofranklingruber@hotmail.comTo: rightprotect@hotmail.comSubject: Confidence in looking forward to a new life.Date: Sun, 13 Mar 2011 21:31:01 +0000You have been bright to put other people down, like your father in the past and you say you are sick of your mother. You have to be brave to insult them, now be brave to face the future, you can, your smart enough. In life everything works in cycles, up yesterday down today, etc, you just be patient and work day by day towards your goals, one coming to Panama, is reachable. You will take responsability for coming here and leaving if you do, I will only be your guide and help you to the degree I see your making an effort to help yourself so grap the phone and ask the ticket office what Panama expects of tourists, the travel agencies have all the infomation, not me. I don´t want you telling me later that I did not tell you this or that, its up to you to investigate. I can help you if you let me once your here. The thousands of US tourists coming here every year manage to find out the details of travel here back in the states. What I can help you with within my field of competency is HERPIES SIMPLEX OR SOASTER. Herpies is a virus that eats the excrement of bacteria and it activates when one has been sweating a lot and not bathing plus with low body defenses. When there is no excrement, toxins, of bacteria available it goes dorment, then most of the time its not contagious. Its contagious when the blisters bust and spread on to another person. Chamomile, Llanten(plantago mayor), rosemary, boil the equivalent of 10 tea bags of each to half a quart of water for 15 minutes, most can be bought in the supermarket or botanical pharmacies, in the yellow pages you can find out who carries them in San Antonio. Strain the water then add an equal amount of vegetable cooking oil. Let it boil at a low simmer for several hours until all the water is gone. Allow the remaining oil to cool. Apply this concentrate on the herpies and rub it in 3 times a day. The itch will disapper in a few minutes and in three days the blisters will start drying up, continue to apply 3 or 4 more days and the breakout is totally under control. Replace the oil every six months as medicinal plants in general lose about 50 percent of their effectivity in six months. If it works on you which it will, this fomula, two ounces of it you can make 20 bucks back in the states or anywhere, it works real well, even cured a lady of herpies in her mouth with this fomula some time in the past....genital herpies. The total cost of making half a quart, 30 ounces, 15 two ounce plastic bottles, at 20 dollars each, is about 5 dollars and you make 300.00 Not bad, easy, ideal for the intellectually inclined. To make a wide spectrum oil, simply place on one sheet of paper all the virtues that those three plants have, you will find that together they heal about 100 differrent medical conditions. For 20 dollars a medicine that does that on the skin, wow! Just take your time and do things right....if the world doesnt blow up we will see each other in a month or two, by then my own critical stuff should be well in place and I will have more time and patience for you. Take care of yourself, you will make a differrence in this world, it needs you too, Franklin Hope you go out of your way to find those herbs, healing is work, its part of getting your stuff together. Learn all about Panama before you travel here.
From: rightprotect@hotmail.comTo: botanicofranklingruber@hotmail.comSubject: RE: Confidence in looking forward to a new life.Date: Sun, 13 Mar 2011 15:16:18 -0500Frank, Not fearing the future is easier said than done. It seems to visit I'm going need about a thousand dollars, maybe more, which will take some time for me to accumulate. I have a difficult time deciding things and sticking to them. I keep changing my mind about everything. I guess I was so used to life being simple and me having a purpose in it, be it as unrealistic as it was. I was deluded thinking I would be able to educate the masses. I feel really stupid now because due to my obsession I wasn't learning anything else. I don't even trust the internet anymore and it doesn't entertain me, just wastes my time. I remember back when I came home in 2009 itching all over and assuming I had scabies. I told myself I was just coming home to deal with the itching and then I would go back out on my mission again. Since I didn't have anything to do or friends to hang out with(well, besides the smoking pals I had up the street), I just vegetated on the computer at home not doing anything but taking showers with sulfur soap, playing my game, killing time for my itching to stop, waiting to start up my mission again. Well, I made the mistake of reading up on all the conspiracy stuff on the web and told myself it can't all be lies. It made me feel like all my "efforts" were in vain because TPTB have such a firm grip on society. I finally realized that the internet is just another media outlet which the powers that be have compromised and are using to confuse and scare people. The success of my mission depended on the web. I saw it as a sign that we were evolving. I thought it could be used to liberate humanity. What a dream. Then to top it off I received all this confirmation when I was traveling. But alas, I shut my site down and fell into this deep dark depression that still haunts me. Marijuana has become my kryptonite. Being as depressed as I am I cannot even enjoy smoking anymore. It's as if I'm a 33 year old teenageer. Everyone else in my family has grown up and is climbing the ladder and I'm sad at my mother's house wasting my life away wishing I was dead. Frankly, now I'm scared to go to Panama. I have lost my identity, as well as any work ethic. I thought life would be easy and now I'm too chicken to face it. I feel like I would be going from bad to worse if I was to travel to another country to visit my long absent father and his new family. Ugh, I hate money. Maybe if I would have had a father figure growing up to teach me how to be like everybody else, to show me slavery, maybe I wouldn't feel so hopeless.
From: botanicofranklingruber@hotmail.comTo: rightprotect@hotmail.comSubject: Confidence in looking forward to a new life.Date: Sat, 12 Mar 2011 19:27:38 +0000Victor, the words ARE YOU SURE, change that on t he subject line. I am sure about everything I do whether it turns out well or bad, doubt leads to confusion. Set out with a clear mind and conviction of heart or dont set out at all. When you do not have a set trail to follow have the confidence to make your own. Here I am just going to be a guide for you, your success or failure is yours.Dont fear the future just walk with confidence. Keep your eyes and ears open, mouth closed as much as possible so you learn more than you teach, time for teaching comes later. My work with you as your guide is free if you want to follow. You just have to get yourself here to Boquete, thats all, we will brain storm it together once your here. You need to arrive here with at least 500 dollars in cash or don{t travel. Budget I50 for a small one room apartment, 200 for food you will cook yourself and occationally eating out, that leaves you 150 to keep in savings. Try and bring a good but no neccessarily expensive camera, your cel phone and if possible a laptop....for your entertainment. For 80 dollars you hook up to the satellite and have access to internet from anywhere arround here, 40 dollars a month after the first month.If you want me to secure your apartment before you arrive send via western union 150 dollars. Also you can define what food items you want me to buy and it will be loaded with food when you arrive. We will have 30 days to find out whether you want to stay or not. After 30 days if I have done my part well you can remain with or without me...you should be making money in 30 days working easily. If in you heart you want to stay, we hire a lawyer and process you Panamanian citizenship, bring your birthcertificate. With it where it states I am your biological father, an extension is possible to your stay while your citizenship is processed, does no taek but maybe 3 months and do not think its that exspensive, have a lawyer that i think I can trust, have known him for 20 years.When you arrive I shall present you with a work plan, either with me or with yourself or for some one else. The important thing is for you to go to the BCP weekly gringo meeting, there you will get to know many people who know me and are also my clients plus many visiting tourists from differrent parts of the World. Your biggest liability seems to be that you feel bigger and better than the people you talk to but yet can{t do much for yourself. Great intelligence is not of much value if you cant put it into practice usefully. So here is what I suggest and I hope you do follow me on this. Obtain a copy of Dale Carnegue....probably misspelled his name but the pronounciation is correct, the book HOW TO WIN FRIENDS AND INFLUENCE PEOPLE. Next, if possible, find t he text by AMERICAN SCHOOL OF CORRESPONDENCE, Psychology For Life Today an updated version. I can only share with you from my experience, that is all I have to go by....if you will take it! These two classics will balance your mind so you can insert youself into this mad world, socially and economically. You at least started life with a highschool education, I was 17 when I was thrown out of the 8th grade after repeating it 3 times. I spent my time in the jungles watching the animals and skipped school frequently, The Jungle was a University in is own right and I returned to it.If your up to it, I am planning DEEP JUNGLE EXPLORATION SOON. A retired forest ranger, 34 years of roaming the depths of the near by mountains, has invited me to go futher in. He tells me of the time he got lost when he was 21 years old. He was hunting for tapir and every time he got close enough to shoot the tapir would go into water and then through more denth jungle. He finally shot the tapir and obtained some food but by then he was truly lost. He had crossed the continental divide without being aware and followed the creeks thinking it would lead out to the pacific side when in fact he was headed towards the atlantic. On his 4th day an old jaguar started trailing him....every so often he would growl. The jaguar closed in on him during the night. He was already exhausted and just sat at the foot of a tree waiting. Then he heard the click of a leaf breaking and turned on his search light and shot the Jaguar in mid air. Hit with 16 gage buck shot the jaguar clung his claws and teeth to a tree and died. The next morning one of several search parties made heard their shootguns and he answered. When they finally found him...fellow indians from his tribe...he was mute and could not even talk. Benjamin is now 67 and loaded with interesting tales of his adventures. This is the kind of nature tours I like into the unknown, unexplored jungle areas of Panama.I am organzing an expedition to go through the same area where Benjamin go lost and plant those hidden mountain Valleys with food especially along the creeks. Why....when chaos comes to the lowlands, and some highlands areas, fear will not allow the lootters to go into dense jungle. Only if one does ones homework in advance can one survive these jungles to return to populate the world if there is one left. You can sit home and watch TV whiel I do this if you prefer. Or come along for the adventure. Snakes, well, never mind them, although they are more dangerous than Jaguars as they provide no advance warning. I also manufacture viper snake antidotes.While your following me just pretend your in some kind of Army. Only differrence is that your not committed by a contract and can leave any time you wish if you do not make the grade...the world is out there, only the tough as well as the intelligent can fallow me. I went into the wilderness and from nature scratched out a livelihood. In South America anywhere I go there are sick people and in their immediate environment the plants to heal them, medicinal plants are my passport. In this part of the world, the curanderos are the ones that don{t have to work much for a living yet they do need to know their stuff. But this is just my passion, I also have a passion for forecasting the stock market, etc, that soon shall be another source of income for me. As my dad used to say to my mom when she would complain about my school grades, DIANA LEAVE FRANK ALONE HE IS A LATE BLOOMMER. So are you just have patience with yourself. Frank
From: rightprotect@hotmail.comTo: botanicofranklingruber@hotmail.comSubject: RE: are you sure?Date: Sat, 12 Mar 2011 03:16:08 -0600Franklin, Ever since my accidents Ada had wanted me to apply for disability. I had always been against it due to my past stance on money. When I gave up my mission and returned home towards the end of 2009, I finally agreed to. She didn't go out of her way to secure that money for me. I rode the bus to the social security office myself and applied. I was very surprised I got approved. Well, I got denied for SSDI(Social Security Disabiliy Insurance), but approved for SSI(Supplemental Security Income), which is less. SSDI is financed by work history and taxes an invidual pays from each paycheck. SSI is financed through general revenues, a government fund. My measly four hundred dollars would stop after I was out of the country for 30 days, but if in that month I can secure employment and feel at peace there, I would stay longer. I would very much like to start a new life. I now see that I must conform to our sick society. The main reason I have not seeked employment here is because I very much doubt I could find a job without having been on a payroll since 2002, not to mention the current economy. And also, I have no interests anymore. I have been forced to swallow my pride, Franklin. I will be subservient when I visit and respect you. I'm starting from scratch. Please be gentle. You say you can locate an apartment I would pay for. How exactly would I pay for it? How would I buy food? I have about four hundred in the bank right now and will have to wait until next month to get four hundred more. That should be enough for my round trip plane ticket, but not much left over. I ask you again, please call the embassy and find out exactly what my entry requirements are. The main reason I have not gained employment here is because I seriously doubt anyone would hire me seeing as I haven't been on a payroll since 2002. I wouldn't even be able to remember the correct dates of my past employments for an application. Not to mention the current economy. Would there be entry level work for me in Panama you could find me as soon as I got there so I could afford rent and food? General labor, or cleaning houses or something? I expect there would be an application process with work history requirements. Am I expected to be dishonest about my past to people I talk to in Boquete? I'm sure I'll be asked what I did or if I went to school. Would I bring shame to you? It would take a while for me to transition back into speaking Spanish. It seems have you reconsidered my visit. That's why I asked if you were sure. I was truly looking forward to the change in scenery. Sincerely, - Victor
From: botanicofranklingruber@hotmail.comTo: rightprotect@hotmail.comSubject: are you sure?Date: Fri, 11 Mar 2011 16:03:44 +0000Victor, your fortunate your mother went out of her way to get you the 440 per month, it provides you a cushion so you will not starve to death while that check keeps coming. Its also the opportunity to meditate, have enough peace to do that on your own value system and what you decide in it needs changing. I am not a millionaire now to be giving out millions but now clearly the potential is at hand, it all depends on how much peace I have here in order to consolidate the efforts of the last 30 years. Of the basic formula for wrinkles and skin cancer I can produce with 300 dollars about 120,000 in three days as the herbs are FREE. Its the formula that counts. And to make the formula work it takes my experience. Its like when a good chef gives another good chef his best formula, even then he can´t make the formula exactly as the first chef, there is the personal touch and experience in cooking that is differrent. Herbalism is more an art than a Science. It adapts to the needs of its clients not its clients conforming to standardized medicine. I wish I could say, hey Victor here let me share any knowledge you might feel useful to help support yourself in the future but I can´t I can only offer of what I have.....an easy fast way of making bug repellents that also eliminates their itch, allergy and poison. Take it as a vehicle to increase your income until you consolidate other worthy goals in life. Bugs bug people in every country of the World, its like an economic pass port and excuse to socialize, excuse me young lady I see your legs are all eaten up by sandflies, does it itch and bother you? Please have a free sample and apply it and watch as magic in 5 minutes all itch, pain and allergic reaction vanishes! At the moment they feel the relief they don´t stop to ask you whether you are SANE or Crazy....they just know your differrent because you did something unique for them that no one ever did before. To make this stuff you buy a galon of any brand cooking oil but first boil the herbs in water for about one hour then add the oil, igual amounts of each. The mixture will begin to boil until in about 5 hours all the water has evaporated and the plant essence is impregnated in the oil. Then you strain the oil to eliminate the leave pieces, and bingo your through. You just made a batch of concentrate, now you dilute it with more cooking oil, 80 percent cooking oil to 20 percent of concentrate and you pack it in two ounce plastic bottles. Now wonder the World in any direction you want, you will always find people sensitive to bug bites. Besides this stuff disinfects the bites to avoid disease or kill parasites on the spot like malaria from recent bites.I would say that to learn how to do this product well is the principal reason, inheritance, I can share with you now. Its what I have in hand that will work for you the rest of your life. Any amount of money I can give you you will spend and it will be gone but this herb grows wild and its always reproducing itself, sort of as money does grow on trees. Eventually when I see the Wrinkle Cream there will be something there for you and your sisters, how much I can´t say yet, but if I die tomorrow there will not be anything so learn how to make money now with the bug bite remedy. Due to your swift changes in character, I can`t mix you in with my current family, you would destroy the peace of my current family. You are setting your own limits and you can expand them as well depending on how you continue to renew yourself in an adaptive way. We all have differrent value systems, who is to say who is right about this or that? The important thing is to RESPECT each other if we are to expect good things from one another. I do not expect you to love me and neither do I expect you to respect me as a son that grew up with his father, I only expect you to respect me as a fellow human being, if there is that we have a relationship if not we don´t, its up to you to continue to chose what you can receive from me. The most I can do for you now should you come down is locate an apartment for you that you will pay for. Take you to the BCP meeting so you learn about selling and earn a weeks wages in 3 hours! I can´t mix you with my current family and I do not cook, so at least at first you will not mingle with them although I will introduce you to your brothers, you will have to pay for your own food which you would have to cook or eat out. We could meet a couple times a week in a restaurant and have coffee together. Because of your explosive personality this is all I can offer now. I was willing to give more.....now its still up to you if you want any relationship with me, to recoup what you have lost and gain some more. That will require humble respectful behavior on your part, if its there we have a relationship, if its not stick where you are at....can´t make it any clearer. Do wish you the best, whether you come or stay. If you come you can be certain I am not going to pamper you, I will give in proportion to your own initiatives of what you do for yourself. If you where 8 years old it would be a differrent manner, but men we must treat as men. Franklin
From: rightprotect@hotmail.comTo: botanicofranklingruber@hotmail.comSubject: RE: are you sure?Date: Thu, 10 Mar 2011 13:59:45 -0600 Yes, I would accept the money. I have no earthly idea what I'd do with so much money though. I don't even know what to do with my $440 a month I get from my crazy check. Possessions don't mean much to me anymore. Buy a plane ticket to Panama, maybe. My life is at a standstill. I am confused with all this information I get from the internet, I don't know what to believe anymore. I've just had this feeling in my gut since I was small that things weren't right in the world and I thought I had stumbled onto a way to make a difference, which I did on a very miniscule level. It didn't catch on like I thought it would have. In the back of my mind I assumed my success would just fall into place by itself, as long as I remained free. I know I'm being a big pussy and that so many other people have it so much worse off than me and are able to be happy. Ignorance truly is bliss and knowing(or thinking you know) is plain hell. Close to the persons I love the most? I don't know who that is. I am frankly sick of Ada and her complaining nature. Was she that complaintive before? I have absolutely no friends, because everyone who knew me before thinks I'm crazy. A lot of times I feel like I lost my soul in my accidents. I just got used to life being easy, I guess. I feel like I was living a lie now. Calling myself a self-published journalist just for recording every detail of my wanderings and typing them up.
From: botanicofranklingruber@hotmail.comTo: rightprotect@hotmail.comSubject: are you sure?Date: Thu, 10 Mar 2011 15:00:52 +0000We live in a world of illusions because we are always making decisions with differrent degrees of incomplete information. Given your overreactive nature, It would be nice for us to meet however maybe not live together. If you like Panama for a break, a change of environment, it may have some kind of useful purpose. I can help you settle down here for a while or permanently, its your decison. Now if you and I cannot change the world at this late stage of affairs, whats wrong with a positive attitude within the current state of affairs? Bitter emotions is not good for us, be happy, we all can if we make it a goal and not be so judgemental with every one and everything.And if the World is going to hell, be close to the persons you love the most.....its certainly not me, but your welcome to visit.Email communication lends itself to so much misunderstanding, it is a tool that hinders often communication as we are not meeting the real persons but just reacting to words that can be taken in so many differrent ways. Catch ya later, FrankPS Please answer me this question. You hate money and millions. If some one off the street came up to you and said hey Victor, I know you do not like to work for money but I like you, here take this million dollars....would you accept it and what would you do with it?
From: botanicofranklingruber@hotmail.comTo: rightprotect@hotmail.comSubject: RE: are you sure?Date: Thu, 10 Mar 2011 14:45:21 +0000Victor, I did not say Panama is a safe haven, and if your really sincere about your negative attitude towards money, open up a market area anywhere in the world where you can exchange a pound of any food for a pound of any other food as the stomuch does not know much the differrence. Here I am trapped in the reality of the world as you are also in a similar circumstance. Getting as close to nature as possible is the way to mitigate some of the effects of being either a hammer or a nail.If your going to come here its not to philosophize or argue, its to try to survive the shape of things to come. Frank
From: rightprotect@hotmail.comTo: botanicofranklingruber@hotmail.comSubject: RE: are you sure?Date: Wed, 9 Mar 2011 22:50:48 -0600Frank, You say things like "the rest of your life" and "watching ww3 from our hammocks in the mountain." What, do you think Panama is immune to the coming globalization? Look how Americanized it's become. You even use the American dollar. I assure you it is not immune. Google "Panama and the new world order." Every single war that has been staged in the world is done for a purpose. To reduce population. Remember Noriega? The massive brainwashing that has been inflicted on humanity reaches around the globe. I take back saying my mission was delusional. You are delusional for thinking Panama is a safe haven. I still think money is evil. And yet you still pine for the day you're a millionaire. I'm sure the technology exists to cure a myriad of diseases, but it's only for the elite. They want all the poor people dead. I still think it's human nature to be generous and humanity has been tricked into thinking it's the opposite. And I also still believe marijuana makes people peaceful. That's why it's illegal and alcohol isn't, after all. Peace doesn't make money. And alcohol stops people from listening. All the chaos that goes on in this world is quite intentional. I quit my mission because I lost hope, not because I think I was wrong. I quit my mission because I learned more than ever, that I was right. But what I was doing is not enough to wake up the masses and make a true difference, the internet is part of their plan too. It was been compromised. Plus, when I came back I saw planned disasters were still happening. For instance, the Haiti earthquake and the oil spill in the gulf. They say they capped it, but that well is still spewing oil this very minute, killing the Gulf of Mexico. When such blatant evil is abound in this world, why isn't everyone as stressed out as me? Lots of people are going to die soon. There's plans to hand Panama over to the Chinese. Soon, everyone that doesn't serve a purpose to this new world order is going to be exterminated. Governments have a file on each citizen. Mine is jam packed full of world peace through marijuana, sealing my death warrant. The last thing they want is aware citizens that can think for themselves. I don't even socialize here. What makes you think I'll be able to over there, in another language even. This all leaves me in a precarious situation. How can I regain hope when nothing has changed? When people are still brainwashed to believe lies? I would rather live free or die. Hehe, that almost rhymed. Sincerely, - Victor
From: botanicofranklingruber@hotmail.comTo: rightprotect@hotmail.comSubject: RE: are you sure?Date: Wed, 9 Mar 2011 21:25:17 +0000What is Boquete like....its definitely not like San Antonio, Texas. Anywhere you are in Boquete your only ten minutes away from the center square of town where most people and business congregate, walking distance from the center at most is two hours. So your social life if you want it and your friends are compact. Its sort of a peaceful fair environment with a lots of people selling arts and crafts the weekends and just talking in the park surrounded by flowers. Nearby a beautiful river to contemplate that goes right down the middle of the town. 3 Miles away if you love nature are the jungles and jungle adventures. If you do want to work, once I help you get your Panamanian credentials, you can teach english to local people, there is a lot of demand for that or teach spanish to americans retiring here, or become a talkative tourist guide to the local attractions, or just enjoy loafing! A single person can get a place here with at least one room for 100 dollars per month. Meals on the street, restaurants, go from 1.75 to 2.50, complete meals. Just come and enjoy the area, recharge up your life batteries before deciding what other activities y might interest you. Nature photography has a great potential here,,,,the discovery of new insects, etc. There are other interesting places in Panama but Boquete is the MECCA FOR INTERNATIONAL TOURISTS. The weather is neither hot nor cold, rather cool most of the year. Its a nice place to start loving yourself again!When we have been in a negative environment for so long we absorb it, so also do we cleanse ourselves when we find the area where we are happy! Once I make my first million, join me to travel the World over. If I dont you shall have at least one tool to make your own million. But it does not fall out of the skie like pie...we do have to do something to make it happen but when it coimes to nature related business we are part of helping others receive Gods Love and Life.LOVE to have you down here Victor! God Bless you, look forward to your visit be it temporarily or permanently! your old man. Frank
From: rightprotect@hotmail.comTo: botanicofranklingruber@hotmail.comSubject: are you sure?Date: Tue, 8 Mar 2011 13:00:38 -0600Franklin, I'm such a worthless mess. Are you sure you want me over there complicating your life? I see my situation as hopeless. A round trip ticket to Panama is about six hundred dollars and I should be able to afford that very soon. I'm going to sell my mountain bike on craigslist. I might get two hundred or more for it. I only bought it for the dairy farm I was at, but since i gave up on that it just sits there. Please find out exactly what I need to visit. I've read on the web that I need to have a bank account with at least five hundred dollars, which I wouldn't have after buying a round trip ticket. Ada's economic situation is getting worse, she's retiring and will only get half of what she's making now. Everything, like gasoline is so much more expensive now. They're tightening the noose. I am sick and tired of Ada's indirects and guilt trips. I am starting to resent her for them. What would life be like for me in Panama? How would I be expected to pull my weight? I can barely hold conversations in English, let alone Spanish. I have no friends here. Sex would be nice, but I have my insecurities about that too. Not to mention in all my wanderings about the country I picked up Herpes which has just compounded my depression. It seems like everyone is still asleep about the coming doom. It's a new WORLD order they're after. I don't know where we would be safe. Since I don't have any interests in my life, are you expecting for me to just jump into herbalism? Do you plan to be my sensei? What exactly would you expect from me? What if I get hurt? My medicaid won't cover me in Panama. Also, my Spanish isn't very well. It also seems like Panama(as well as the rest of the world) is being Americanized. Oh yeah, there's rumors on the internet about the rapture, judgement day happening on May 21st of this year. What if I still feel like killing myself after spending a month there. I doubt I'd want to return to San Antonio. Maybe I can find me a nice lagoon in the forest there to drown in. Like I said, it would be nice to meet my dad before I offed myself. Best wishes, - Victor Antonio
From: rightprotect@hotmail.comTo: botanicofranklingruber@hotmail.comSubject: RE: Confidence in looking forward to a new life.Date: Mon, 14 Mar 2011 23:14:50 -0500Frank, What do you mean see if I can get a loan where I hock my pension? I think I have an eviction on my credit record anyway. I want to work my ass of, I'm just doubtful anyone would hire me, plus I lack skills.
From: botanicofranklingruber@hotmail.comTo: rightprotect@hotmail.comSubject: RE: Confidence in looking forward to a new life.Date: Mon, 14 Mar 2011 16:04:40 +0000Victor, i listened to the link you sent me about two thirds through it. From the American community here, about 1,000 strong, been getting the drift of the shape of things to come in America a long time now. Your concerned about bailing out in time? Thats fine, I sensed there was something wrong with the US 30 years ago and came back to learn some thing basic that I could trade for food and other needed items when the time came....natural medicine. Generally prices will rise and rise and when the bubble busts, everything will be cheap but no one will have money to buy then, thats the way it typically goes. So what do you do....you save and save and save, stash it away and learn to survive off the land then come back and buy a practically new car for 500 dollars or anything else you need. Your procrastinating on your trip here. See if you can get a loan where you hock all of your pension that won´t be worth much soon to obtain say 20,000 dollars. Come here and buy some land to raise some food, it will be much in demand in the future. If you don´t do that, well save and get your but here then WORK YOUR ASS OFF for a six month period, save, while you decide what your next step will be. I already have a contengency plan. My rent in a near by town where I keep an alternate room is only 35 dollars. Here in Boquete I pay 150, its viable so long as the tourists keep coming.Of Fungus and skin infection medication I can make about 50 thousand worth in less han a week. I can store it and sell it in DRINKING STRAWS, ends sealed with silicon plastic. You cut it at the end and squeeze it like a tube. It would sell for 1 dollar or less if need be or exchange for food as everyone working the earth gets fungus and skin infections. One goes house to house with a food basket on one´s back and trades. The equivalent of 5 such straws one ounce I sell now for 20 dollars at the BCP Boquete Farmers market on Tuesdays. Hope you are able to participate in one of these markets. So long as you are close to mother nature and know how to obtain milk from her you can survive any economic crises anywhere. So long as you come here with a survival mentality of WORK I can help you, guide you until your on your own in Latin America or the Third World. Its after heating steel then plunging it in cold water that it gets Strong! Too much prosperity for too long is harmful to past, present and future generations, they are robbed of the opportunity of testing themselves against the currents of life. Fear can drive you to prepare to better survive or commit suicide, everyone has to decide for themselves. Those who suvive can become better examples and SEEDS for new generations. Life is a test. Those who pass it go on to higher and better things. Frank
From: rightprotect@hotmail.comTo: botanicofranklingruber@hotmail.comSubject: RE: Confidence in looking forward to a new life.Date: Mon, 14 Mar 2011 02:54:33 -0500http://www.stansberryresearch.com/pro/1011PSISBBVD/PPSIM310/PR I'll write more tomorrow, but listen to this link.
From: botanicofranklingruber@hotmail.comTo: rightprotect@hotmail.comSubject: Confidence in looking forward to a new life.Date: Sun, 13 Mar 2011 21:31:01 +0000You have been bright to put other people down, like your father in the past and you say you are sick of your mother. You have to be brave to insult them, now be brave to face the future, you can, your smart enough. In life everything works in cycles, up yesterday down today, etc, you just be patient and work day by day towards your goals, one coming to Panama, is reachable. You will take responsability for coming here and leaving if you do, I will only be your guide and help you to the degree I see your making an effort to help yourself so grap the phone and ask the ticket office what Panama expects of tourists, the travel agencies have all the infomation, not me. I don´t want you telling me later that I did not tell you this or that, its up to you to investigate. I can help you if you let me once your here. The thousands of US tourists coming here every year manage to find out the details of travel here back in the states. What I can help you with within my field of competency is HERPIES SIMPLEX OR SOASTER. Herpies is a virus that eats the excrement of bacteria and it activates when one has been sweating a lot and not bathing plus with low body defenses. When there is no excrement, toxins, of bacteria available it goes dorment, then most of the time its not contagious. Its contagious when the blisters bust and spread on to another person. Chamomile, Llanten(plantago mayor), rosemary, boil the equivalent of 10 tea bags of each to half a quart of water for 15 minutes, most can be bought in the supermarket or botanical pharmacies, in the yellow pages you can find out who carries them in San Antonio. Strain the water then add an equal amount of vegetable cooking oil. Let it boil at a low simmer for several hours until all the water is gone. Allow the remaining oil to cool. Apply this concentrate on the herpies and rub it in 3 times a day. The itch will disapper in a few minutes and in three days the blisters will start drying up, continue to apply 3 or 4 more days and the breakout is totally under control. Replace the oil every six months as medicinal plants in general lose about 50 percent of their effectivity in six months. If it works on you which it will, this fomula, two ounces of it you can make 20 bucks back in the states or anywhere, it works real well, even cured a lady of herpies in her mouth with this fomula some time in the past....genital herpies. The total cost of making half a quart, 30 ounces, 15 two ounce plastic bottles, at 20 dollars each, is about 5 dollars and you make 300.00 Not bad, easy, ideal for the intellectually inclined. To make a wide spectrum oil, simply place on one sheet of paper all the virtues that those three plants have, you will find that together they heal about 100 differrent medical conditions. For 20 dollars a medicine that does that on the skin, wow! Just take your time and do things right....if the world doesnt blow up we will see each other in a month or two, by then my own critical stuff should be well in place and I will have more time and patience for you. Take care of yourself, you will make a differrence in this world, it needs you too, Franklin Hope you go out of your way to find those herbs, healing is work, its part of getting your stuff together. Learn all about Panama before you travel here.
From: rightprotect@hotmail.comTo: botanicofranklingruber@hotmail.comSubject: RE: Confidence in looking forward to a new life.Date: Sun, 13 Mar 2011 15:16:18 -0500Frank, Not fearing the future is easier said than done. It seems to visit I'm going need about a thousand dollars, maybe more, which will take some time for me to accumulate. I have a difficult time deciding things and sticking to them. I keep changing my mind about everything. I guess I was so used to life being simple and me having a purpose in it, be it as unrealistic as it was. I was deluded thinking I would be able to educate the masses. I feel really stupid now because due to my obsession I wasn't learning anything else. I don't even trust the internet anymore and it doesn't entertain me, just wastes my time. I remember back when I came home in 2009 itching all over and assuming I had scabies. I told myself I was just coming home to deal with the itching and then I would go back out on my mission again. Since I didn't have anything to do or friends to hang out with(well, besides the smoking pals I had up the street), I just vegetated on the computer at home not doing anything but taking showers with sulfur soap, playing my game, killing time for my itching to stop, waiting to start up my mission again. Well, I made the mistake of reading up on all the conspiracy stuff on the web and told myself it can't all be lies. It made me feel like all my "efforts" were in vain because TPTB have such a firm grip on society. I finally realized that the internet is just another media outlet which the powers that be have compromised and are using to confuse and scare people. The success of my mission depended on the web. I saw it as a sign that we were evolving. I thought it could be used to liberate humanity. What a dream. Then to top it off I received all this confirmation when I was traveling. But alas, I shut my site down and fell into this deep dark depression that still haunts me. Marijuana has become my kryptonite. Being as depressed as I am I cannot even enjoy smoking anymore. It's as if I'm a 33 year old teenageer. Everyone else in my family has grown up and is climbing the ladder and I'm sad at my mother's house wasting my life away wishing I was dead. Frankly, now I'm scared to go to Panama. I have lost my identity, as well as any work ethic. I thought life would be easy and now I'm too chicken to face it. I feel like I would be going from bad to worse if I was to travel to another country to visit my long absent father and his new family. Ugh, I hate money. Maybe if I would have had a father figure growing up to teach me how to be like everybody else, to show me slavery, maybe I wouldn't feel so hopeless.
From: botanicofranklingruber@hotmail.comTo: rightprotect@hotmail.comSubject: Confidence in looking forward to a new life.Date: Sat, 12 Mar 2011 19:27:38 +0000Victor, the words ARE YOU SURE, change that on t he subject line. I am sure about everything I do whether it turns out well or bad, doubt leads to confusion. Set out with a clear mind and conviction of heart or dont set out at all. When you do not have a set trail to follow have the confidence to make your own. Here I am just going to be a guide for you, your success or failure is yours.Dont fear the future just walk with confidence. Keep your eyes and ears open, mouth closed as much as possible so you learn more than you teach, time for teaching comes later. My work with you as your guide is free if you want to follow. You just have to get yourself here to Boquete, thats all, we will brain storm it together once your here. You need to arrive here with at least 500 dollars in cash or don{t travel. Budget I50 for a small one room apartment, 200 for food you will cook yourself and occationally eating out, that leaves you 150 to keep in savings. Try and bring a good but no neccessarily expensive camera, your cel phone and if possible a laptop....for your entertainment. For 80 dollars you hook up to the satellite and have access to internet from anywhere arround here, 40 dollars a month after the first month.If you want me to secure your apartment before you arrive send via western union 150 dollars. Also you can define what food items you want me to buy and it will be loaded with food when you arrive. We will have 30 days to find out whether you want to stay or not. After 30 days if I have done my part well you can remain with or without me...you should be making money in 30 days working easily. If in you heart you want to stay, we hire a lawyer and process you Panamanian citizenship, bring your birthcertificate. With it where it states I am your biological father, an extension is possible to your stay while your citizenship is processed, does no taek but maybe 3 months and do not think its that exspensive, have a lawyer that i think I can trust, have known him for 20 years.When you arrive I shall present you with a work plan, either with me or with yourself or for some one else. The important thing is for you to go to the BCP weekly gringo meeting, there you will get to know many people who know me and are also my clients plus many visiting tourists from differrent parts of the World. Your biggest liability seems to be that you feel bigger and better than the people you talk to but yet can{t do much for yourself. Great intelligence is not of much value if you cant put it into practice usefully. So here is what I suggest and I hope you do follow me on this. Obtain a copy of Dale Carnegue....probably misspelled his name but the pronounciation is correct, the book HOW TO WIN FRIENDS AND INFLUENCE PEOPLE. Next, if possible, find t he text by AMERICAN SCHOOL OF CORRESPONDENCE, Psychology For Life Today an updated version. I can only share with you from my experience, that is all I have to go by....if you will take it! These two classics will balance your mind so you can insert youself into this mad world, socially and economically. You at least started life with a highschool education, I was 17 when I was thrown out of the 8th grade after repeating it 3 times. I spent my time in the jungles watching the animals and skipped school frequently, The Jungle was a University in is own right and I returned to it.If your up to it, I am planning DEEP JUNGLE EXPLORATION SOON. A retired forest ranger, 34 years of roaming the depths of the near by mountains, has invited me to go futher in. He tells me of the time he got lost when he was 21 years old. He was hunting for tapir and every time he got close enough to shoot the tapir would go into water and then through more denth jungle. He finally shot the tapir and obtained some food but by then he was truly lost. He had crossed the continental divide without being aware and followed the creeks thinking it would lead out to the pacific side when in fact he was headed towards the atlantic. On his 4th day an old jaguar started trailing him....every so often he would growl. The jaguar closed in on him during the night. He was already exhausted and just sat at the foot of a tree waiting. Then he heard the click of a leaf breaking and turned on his search light and shot the Jaguar in mid air. Hit with 16 gage buck shot the jaguar clung his claws and teeth to a tree and died. The next morning one of several search parties made heard their shootguns and he answered. When they finally found him...fellow indians from his tribe...he was mute and could not even talk. Benjamin is now 67 and loaded with interesting tales of his adventures. This is the kind of nature tours I like into the unknown, unexplored jungle areas of Panama.I am organzing an expedition to go through the same area where Benjamin go lost and plant those hidden mountain Valleys with food especially along the creeks. Why....when chaos comes to the lowlands, and some highlands areas, fear will not allow the lootters to go into dense jungle. Only if one does ones homework in advance can one survive these jungles to return to populate the world if there is one left. You can sit home and watch TV whiel I do this if you prefer. Or come along for the adventure. Snakes, well, never mind them, although they are more dangerous than Jaguars as they provide no advance warning. I also manufacture viper snake antidotes.While your following me just pretend your in some kind of Army. Only differrence is that your not committed by a contract and can leave any time you wish if you do not make the grade...the world is out there, only the tough as well as the intelligent can fallow me. I went into the wilderness and from nature scratched out a livelihood. In South America anywhere I go there are sick people and in their immediate environment the plants to heal them, medicinal plants are my passport. In this part of the world, the curanderos are the ones that don{t have to work much for a living yet they do need to know their stuff. But this is just my passion, I also have a passion for forecasting the stock market, etc, that soon shall be another source of income for me. As my dad used to say to my mom when she would complain about my school grades, DIANA LEAVE FRANK ALONE HE IS A LATE BLOOMMER. So are you just have patience with yourself. Frank
From: rightprotect@hotmail.comTo: botanicofranklingruber@hotmail.comSubject: RE: are you sure?Date: Sat, 12 Mar 2011 03:16:08 -0600Franklin, Ever since my accidents Ada had wanted me to apply for disability. I had always been against it due to my past stance on money. When I gave up my mission and returned home towards the end of 2009, I finally agreed to. She didn't go out of her way to secure that money for me. I rode the bus to the social security office myself and applied. I was very surprised I got approved. Well, I got denied for SSDI(Social Security Disabiliy Insurance), but approved for SSI(Supplemental Security Income), which is less. SSDI is financed by work history and taxes an invidual pays from each paycheck. SSI is financed through general revenues, a government fund. My measly four hundred dollars would stop after I was out of the country for 30 days, but if in that month I can secure employment and feel at peace there, I would stay longer. I would very much like to start a new life. I now see that I must conform to our sick society. The main reason I have not seeked employment here is because I very much doubt I could find a job without having been on a payroll since 2002, not to mention the current economy. And also, I have no interests anymore. I have been forced to swallow my pride, Franklin. I will be subservient when I visit and respect you. I'm starting from scratch. Please be gentle. You say you can locate an apartment I would pay for. How exactly would I pay for it? How would I buy food? I have about four hundred in the bank right now and will have to wait until next month to get four hundred more. That should be enough for my round trip plane ticket, but not much left over. I ask you again, please call the embassy and find out exactly what my entry requirements are. The main reason I have not gained employment here is because I seriously doubt anyone would hire me seeing as I haven't been on a payroll since 2002. I wouldn't even be able to remember the correct dates of my past employments for an application. Not to mention the current economy. Would there be entry level work for me in Panama you could find me as soon as I got there so I could afford rent and food? General labor, or cleaning houses or something? I expect there would be an application process with work history requirements. Am I expected to be dishonest about my past to people I talk to in Boquete? I'm sure I'll be asked what I did or if I went to school. Would I bring shame to you? It would take a while for me to transition back into speaking Spanish. It seems have you reconsidered my visit. That's why I asked if you were sure. I was truly looking forward to the change in scenery. Sincerely, - Victor
From: botanicofranklingruber@hotmail.comTo: rightprotect@hotmail.comSubject: are you sure?Date: Fri, 11 Mar 2011 16:03:44 +0000Victor, your fortunate your mother went out of her way to get you the 440 per month, it provides you a cushion so you will not starve to death while that check keeps coming. Its also the opportunity to meditate, have enough peace to do that on your own value system and what you decide in it needs changing. I am not a millionaire now to be giving out millions but now clearly the potential is at hand, it all depends on how much peace I have here in order to consolidate the efforts of the last 30 years. Of the basic formula for wrinkles and skin cancer I can produce with 300 dollars about 120,000 in three days as the herbs are FREE. Its the formula that counts. And to make the formula work it takes my experience. Its like when a good chef gives another good chef his best formula, even then he can´t make the formula exactly as the first chef, there is the personal touch and experience in cooking that is differrent. Herbalism is more an art than a Science. It adapts to the needs of its clients not its clients conforming to standardized medicine. I wish I could say, hey Victor here let me share any knowledge you might feel useful to help support yourself in the future but I can´t I can only offer of what I have.....an easy fast way of making bug repellents that also eliminates their itch, allergy and poison. Take it as a vehicle to increase your income until you consolidate other worthy goals in life. Bugs bug people in every country of the World, its like an economic pass port and excuse to socialize, excuse me young lady I see your legs are all eaten up by sandflies, does it itch and bother you? Please have a free sample and apply it and watch as magic in 5 minutes all itch, pain and allergic reaction vanishes! At the moment they feel the relief they don´t stop to ask you whether you are SANE or Crazy....they just know your differrent because you did something unique for them that no one ever did before. To make this stuff you buy a galon of any brand cooking oil but first boil the herbs in water for about one hour then add the oil, igual amounts of each. The mixture will begin to boil until in about 5 hours all the water has evaporated and the plant essence is impregnated in the oil. Then you strain the oil to eliminate the leave pieces, and bingo your through. You just made a batch of concentrate, now you dilute it with more cooking oil, 80 percent cooking oil to 20 percent of concentrate and you pack it in two ounce plastic bottles. Now wonder the World in any direction you want, you will always find people sensitive to bug bites. Besides this stuff disinfects the bites to avoid disease or kill parasites on the spot like malaria from recent bites.I would say that to learn how to do this product well is the principal reason, inheritance, I can share with you now. Its what I have in hand that will work for you the rest of your life. Any amount of money I can give you you will spend and it will be gone but this herb grows wild and its always reproducing itself, sort of as money does grow on trees. Eventually when I see the Wrinkle Cream there will be something there for you and your sisters, how much I can´t say yet, but if I die tomorrow there will not be anything so learn how to make money now with the bug bite remedy. Due to your swift changes in character, I can`t mix you in with my current family, you would destroy the peace of my current family. You are setting your own limits and you can expand them as well depending on how you continue to renew yourself in an adaptive way. We all have differrent value systems, who is to say who is right about this or that? The important thing is to RESPECT each other if we are to expect good things from one another. I do not expect you to love me and neither do I expect you to respect me as a son that grew up with his father, I only expect you to respect me as a fellow human being, if there is that we have a relationship if not we don´t, its up to you to continue to chose what you can receive from me. The most I can do for you now should you come down is locate an apartment for you that you will pay for. Take you to the BCP meeting so you learn about selling and earn a weeks wages in 3 hours! I can´t mix you with my current family and I do not cook, so at least at first you will not mingle with them although I will introduce you to your brothers, you will have to pay for your own food which you would have to cook or eat out. We could meet a couple times a week in a restaurant and have coffee together. Because of your explosive personality this is all I can offer now. I was willing to give more.....now its still up to you if you want any relationship with me, to recoup what you have lost and gain some more. That will require humble respectful behavior on your part, if its there we have a relationship, if its not stick where you are at....can´t make it any clearer. Do wish you the best, whether you come or stay. If you come you can be certain I am not going to pamper you, I will give in proportion to your own initiatives of what you do for yourself. If you where 8 years old it would be a differrent manner, but men we must treat as men. Franklin
From: rightprotect@hotmail.comTo: botanicofranklingruber@hotmail.comSubject: RE: are you sure?Date: Thu, 10 Mar 2011 13:59:45 -0600 Yes, I would accept the money. I have no earthly idea what I'd do with so much money though. I don't even know what to do with my $440 a month I get from my crazy check. Possessions don't mean much to me anymore. Buy a plane ticket to Panama, maybe. My life is at a standstill. I am confused with all this information I get from the internet, I don't know what to believe anymore. I've just had this feeling in my gut since I was small that things weren't right in the world and I thought I had stumbled onto a way to make a difference, which I did on a very miniscule level. It didn't catch on like I thought it would have. In the back of my mind I assumed my success would just fall into place by itself, as long as I remained free. I know I'm being a big pussy and that so many other people have it so much worse off than me and are able to be happy. Ignorance truly is bliss and knowing(or thinking you know) is plain hell. Close to the persons I love the most? I don't know who that is. I am frankly sick of Ada and her complaining nature. Was she that complaintive before? I have absolutely no friends, because everyone who knew me before thinks I'm crazy. A lot of times I feel like I lost my soul in my accidents. I just got used to life being easy, I guess. I feel like I was living a lie now. Calling myself a self-published journalist just for recording every detail of my wanderings and typing them up.
From: botanicofranklingruber@hotmail.comTo: rightprotect@hotmail.comSubject: are you sure?Date: Thu, 10 Mar 2011 15:00:52 +0000We live in a world of illusions because we are always making decisions with differrent degrees of incomplete information. Given your overreactive nature, It would be nice for us to meet however maybe not live together. If you like Panama for a break, a change of environment, it may have some kind of useful purpose. I can help you settle down here for a while or permanently, its your decison. Now if you and I cannot change the world at this late stage of affairs, whats wrong with a positive attitude within the current state of affairs? Bitter emotions is not good for us, be happy, we all can if we make it a goal and not be so judgemental with every one and everything.And if the World is going to hell, be close to the persons you love the most.....its certainly not me, but your welcome to visit.Email communication lends itself to so much misunderstanding, it is a tool that hinders often communication as we are not meeting the real persons but just reacting to words that can be taken in so many differrent ways. Catch ya later, FrankPS Please answer me this question. You hate money and millions. If some one off the street came up to you and said hey Victor, I know you do not like to work for money but I like you, here take this million dollars....would you accept it and what would you do with it?
From: botanicofranklingruber@hotmail.comTo: rightprotect@hotmail.comSubject: RE: are you sure?Date: Thu, 10 Mar 2011 14:45:21 +0000Victor, I did not say Panama is a safe haven, and if your really sincere about your negative attitude towards money, open up a market area anywhere in the world where you can exchange a pound of any food for a pound of any other food as the stomuch does not know much the differrence. Here I am trapped in the reality of the world as you are also in a similar circumstance. Getting as close to nature as possible is the way to mitigate some of the effects of being either a hammer or a nail.If your going to come here its not to philosophize or argue, its to try to survive the shape of things to come. Frank
From: rightprotect@hotmail.comTo: botanicofranklingruber@hotmail.comSubject: RE: are you sure?Date: Wed, 9 Mar 2011 22:50:48 -0600Frank, You say things like "the rest of your life" and "watching ww3 from our hammocks in the mountain." What, do you think Panama is immune to the coming globalization? Look how Americanized it's become. You even use the American dollar. I assure you it is not immune. Google "Panama and the new world order." Every single war that has been staged in the world is done for a purpose. To reduce population. Remember Noriega? The massive brainwashing that has been inflicted on humanity reaches around the globe. I take back saying my mission was delusional. You are delusional for thinking Panama is a safe haven. I still think money is evil. And yet you still pine for the day you're a millionaire. I'm sure the technology exists to cure a myriad of diseases, but it's only for the elite. They want all the poor people dead. I still think it's human nature to be generous and humanity has been tricked into thinking it's the opposite. And I also still believe marijuana makes people peaceful. That's why it's illegal and alcohol isn't, after all. Peace doesn't make money. And alcohol stops people from listening. All the chaos that goes on in this world is quite intentional. I quit my mission because I lost hope, not because I think I was wrong. I quit my mission because I learned more than ever, that I was right. But what I was doing is not enough to wake up the masses and make a true difference, the internet is part of their plan too. It was been compromised. Plus, when I came back I saw planned disasters were still happening. For instance, the Haiti earthquake and the oil spill in the gulf. They say they capped it, but that well is still spewing oil this very minute, killing the Gulf of Mexico. When such blatant evil is abound in this world, why isn't everyone as stressed out as me? Lots of people are going to die soon. There's plans to hand Panama over to the Chinese. Soon, everyone that doesn't serve a purpose to this new world order is going to be exterminated. Governments have a file on each citizen. Mine is jam packed full of world peace through marijuana, sealing my death warrant. The last thing they want is aware citizens that can think for themselves. I don't even socialize here. What makes you think I'll be able to over there, in another language even. This all leaves me in a precarious situation. How can I regain hope when nothing has changed? When people are still brainwashed to believe lies? I would rather live free or die. Hehe, that almost rhymed. Sincerely, - Victor
From: botanicofranklingruber@hotmail.comTo: rightprotect@hotmail.comSubject: RE: are you sure?Date: Wed, 9 Mar 2011 21:25:17 +0000What is Boquete like....its definitely not like San Antonio, Texas. Anywhere you are in Boquete your only ten minutes away from the center square of town where most people and business congregate, walking distance from the center at most is two hours. So your social life if you want it and your friends are compact. Its sort of a peaceful fair environment with a lots of people selling arts and crafts the weekends and just talking in the park surrounded by flowers. Nearby a beautiful river to contemplate that goes right down the middle of the town. 3 Miles away if you love nature are the jungles and jungle adventures. If you do want to work, once I help you get your Panamanian credentials, you can teach english to local people, there is a lot of demand for that or teach spanish to americans retiring here, or become a talkative tourist guide to the local attractions, or just enjoy loafing! A single person can get a place here with at least one room for 100 dollars per month. Meals on the street, restaurants, go from 1.75 to 2.50, complete meals. Just come and enjoy the area, recharge up your life batteries before deciding what other activities y might interest you. Nature photography has a great potential here,,,,the discovery of new insects, etc. There are other interesting places in Panama but Boquete is the MECCA FOR INTERNATIONAL TOURISTS. The weather is neither hot nor cold, rather cool most of the year. Its a nice place to start loving yourself again!When we have been in a negative environment for so long we absorb it, so also do we cleanse ourselves when we find the area where we are happy! Once I make my first million, join me to travel the World over. If I dont you shall have at least one tool to make your own million. But it does not fall out of the skie like pie...we do have to do something to make it happen but when it coimes to nature related business we are part of helping others receive Gods Love and Life.LOVE to have you down here Victor! God Bless you, look forward to your visit be it temporarily or permanently! your old man. Frank
From: rightprotect@hotmail.comTo: botanicofranklingruber@hotmail.comSubject: are you sure?Date: Tue, 8 Mar 2011 13:00:38 -0600Franklin, I'm such a worthless mess. Are you sure you want me over there complicating your life? I see my situation as hopeless. A round trip ticket to Panama is about six hundred dollars and I should be able to afford that very soon. I'm going to sell my mountain bike on craigslist. I might get two hundred or more for it. I only bought it for the dairy farm I was at, but since i gave up on that it just sits there. Please find out exactly what I need to visit. I've read on the web that I need to have a bank account with at least five hundred dollars, which I wouldn't have after buying a round trip ticket. Ada's economic situation is getting worse, she's retiring and will only get half of what she's making now. Everything, like gasoline is so much more expensive now. They're tightening the noose. I am sick and tired of Ada's indirects and guilt trips. I am starting to resent her for them. What would life be like for me in Panama? How would I be expected to pull my weight? I can barely hold conversations in English, let alone Spanish. I have no friends here. Sex would be nice, but I have my insecurities about that too. Not to mention in all my wanderings about the country I picked up Herpes which has just compounded my depression. It seems like everyone is still asleep about the coming doom. It's a new WORLD order they're after. I don't know where we would be safe. Since I don't have any interests in my life, are you expecting for me to just jump into herbalism? Do you plan to be my sensei? What exactly would you expect from me? What if I get hurt? My medicaid won't cover me in Panama. Also, my Spanish isn't very well. It also seems like Panama(as well as the rest of the world) is being Americanized. Oh yeah, there's rumors on the internet about the rapture, judgement day happening on May 21st of this year. What if I still feel like killing myself after spending a month there. I doubt I'd want to return to San Antonio. Maybe I can find me a nice lagoon in the forest there to drown in. Like I said, it would be nice to meet my dad before I offed myself. Best wishes, - Victor Antonio
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