RE: The Valuable Things of Life!
Botanico Gruber Gruber Chiari
Victor, at least answer my emails....time is short. Frank
From: rightprotect@hotmail.comTo: botanicofranklingruber@hotmail.comSubject: RE: The Valuable Things of Life!Date: Mon, 21 Mar 2011 08:07:08 -0500Hi Frank, I feel like my whole "scabies" episode was a curse. I never had scabies. Thinking I had scabies was a total mindfuck though. That, and finding out more about how screwed up the world is which totally negated my past efforts and has made me sure I am on our satanic government's bad side, along with every Christian out there(www.satansgovernment.com). The US is headed for a totalitarian future. We are about to lose all of our pseudo-freedoms. Bye bye constitution. I believe they are using the internet and it's "freedom" to leak themselves out because their plan is finally coming to fruition. The wars and deception just don't stop. Yesterday I sold my mountain bike on craiglist for $300. That puts my account at about $600. Next month I will have a little over a thousand. I'm not sure how much I would need to travel to Panama. I don't watch TV at all. It's all part of the media programming that I refuse to go along with. Sadly, even the internet is. Sorry so short, can't seem to think of anything else to say. I want to leave Ada's so badly, I just have nowhere else to go. Even if I came to Panama, I'm wondering if things would be any better for me. People in Panama are still brainwashed with money and you have a whole other family to support. I have been running and working out lately too. Is there a gym in Boquete?
From: botanicofranklingruber@hotmail.comTo: rightprotect@hotmail.comSubject: The Valuable Things of Life!Date: Sun, 20 Mar 2011 00:17:45 +0000Hello Victor, you said everything is dainted with profit and wrong. There is still room in this world to find a place where you can exchange goods for service, without seeking profit, from where your at it may be impossible yet if you search you shall find that place. I think that your diary is a vary valuable document that will give you review to examin yourself for your personal growth so you can be all the good you can be, to make a differrence. There was a young boy whose name was Auduban, he lived in a time when every body was shooting at birds, well he taught much of the world to love and respect and leave birds free....in his honer the Audobon Society was later born, his purpose became realized!You seem to be convinced that you are worthless because you cannot continue in your ego trip, and now that its gone your worthless.....could not be furthest from the truth, as a young adult now you have experience to review and define your life and goal better. How is it that you where in a better state of mind when you arrived with scabies at your mothers house? Now you have the confort, hot water too, good food....all the tv and computer time....a pension check and your more unhappy than when you where on the streets, yes even the time to get your head together and instead of doing so you want to kill yourself. There are mexicans out there risking their lives to cross the order for a chance at what you are taking for granted....No doubt for a while you felt relief to have a home to come back to, now your bored to death. Maybe what you need is something to challenge your intelligence and wits in life. Quite frankly I never liked San Antonio as a place to live and to some degree understand you. Your concerned about the world going to hell, well people don't wait for the world to end to expire, they do it naturlly or by accident all the time, for centuries. What counts is how happy you can make yourself every day of your existence. There are places where you can obtain National Geographic Magazines, past issues for .50 cents. Try and find some and travel the world vicariously until you come upon a spot, could be in the US as well that gives you satisfaction, rethink all the places you have been, whch did you like the most? Frank
From: rightprotect@hotmail.comTo: botanicofranklingruber@hotmail.comSubject: RE: The Valuable Things of Life!Date: Sat, 19 Mar 2011 16:12:30 -0500I've come to realize that maybe in my adventures I was just seeking validation for a purpose I thought I had. I use to say my mission was the world's healthiest ego trip. I thought living a book(documenting every detail of my life on a tape recorder and typing them up) was the same thing as writing a book. After being so high on myself for so long, then realizing all my "work" was in vain, that's like a fatal blow to me. I did learn some things in my travels. I learned that it truly is human nature to be good and I confirmed my hunch that humanity was on its way to doom. I used to find happiness in things, but no longer. I can't find value in anything, because everything is tainted with profit motives and wrong. I feel like, what's the point to anything. Maybe if I would've slaved away like everybody else my whole life and remained ignorant to the truth I uncovered traveling around homeless, maybe if I would've climbed the ladder high and ended up a millionaire, maybe I wouldn't be so certain that I wasn't going to die soon. I just broke it off with my friend from Florida. I thought I should be relieved but I am a little in angst. Now I truly have no friends. I deactivated my facebook too. Farewell, Frank. I'm leaving.
From: botanicofranklingruber@hotmail.comTo: rightprotect@hotmail.comSubject: The Valuable Things of Life!Date: Sat, 19 Mar 2011 15:16:18 +0000Victor, our goals are set from what we VALUE IN LIFE! Surely in all your adventures you have found VALUE in some person, some idea, some object...you have found some things, ideas or people you LIKE! There may have been some visual scenes you liked and wish you had a camera at the moment for freezing time. Recently some one sent me an email of a hunter who had just taken an automatic picture of himself with one foot on the deer in the wilderness, looking so proud of his kill holding the rifle in his hand. When the photograph was processed he noticed that the sudden flash had saved his life. Behind him about to grab his ass was this huge MOUNTAIN LION! You spend a lot of time in internet.....think about the idea of searching for UNIQUE INTERESTING FREE PHOTOGRAPHS that can be placed in simple inexpensive frames. Your collection could then travel the World with you exhibiting it where ever you go, bazaars, fairs, parks, etc. They could be so fascinating they would become a means to meet interesting people. Also since you are against money, any one who wanted to buy you simply would deny that but state that you might trade for something you need then hand them a list of things your willing to trade for. You would be promoting the idea....THE HELL WITH MONEY wherever you went! Isn´t that one of the things that piss you off about this civilization, ....many of the pictures could portray the new vision of a world you believe in. Your conversations with people would be as seeds that some one else will water and a money less world could eventually evolve. Each community would have a trading center. The marijuana to peace idea. Marijuana was not the goal, it was the vehicle to arrive at promoting the ideal, the goal of PEACE! Why abondon your goal, PEACE IN THE WORLD is probably the most noble goal anyone could have. Just change vehicles...photographs or any other useful means of communicating the IDEA. A great wise man once said that it was better to light one candle than to curse the darkness. Ligh your candle again Victor, believe in yourself and your mission of promoting PEACE. There are millions of people out there that will hear you. Promoting Peace is the most useful way of lovin ourselves and God. In our struggles in life we all fall, faulter, its human nature. When we fall we should muster the courage to get back up each time we fall. Eventually sooner or later we stand strong and move forward elegantly to achieve our goals. The two qualities we need to get back on our feet is FAITH, BIG FAITH in our mission and PATIENCE! You are a young man who just went through the first half of his life gaining experience. Now you can better meditate on that experience to fine tune your goal and reach it. I pray that you find a female partner that does not want to have children as I imagine you don´t. There is one out there that is your soul mate. Pray to God that she be placed in your path while you are promoting peace, on a Godly Mission. The distance that separates us makes us live like in two dimensions, like if I where dead and my spirit managed to use internet to get this last message to you....that you LIVE and be happy even if many arround you are unhappy. Teach yourself to be happy in any circumstance so you may teach others to be happy anywhere as well. The peace is within no without, its the distractions outside that draw our attention away from our peace. Once its strong inside we can share it with others outside. God Bless and Keep you Victor, Your Dad Franklin
From: rightprotect@hotmail.comTo: botanicofranklingruber@hotmail.comSubject: RE: The Valuable Things of Life!Date: Mon, 21 Mar 2011 08:07:08 -0500Hi Frank, I feel like my whole "scabies" episode was a curse. I never had scabies. Thinking I had scabies was a total mindfuck though. That, and finding out more about how screwed up the world is which totally negated my past efforts and has made me sure I am on our satanic government's bad side, along with every Christian out there(www.satansgovernment.com). The US is headed for a totalitarian future. We are about to lose all of our pseudo-freedoms. Bye bye constitution. I believe they are using the internet and it's "freedom" to leak themselves out because their plan is finally coming to fruition. The wars and deception just don't stop. Yesterday I sold my mountain bike on craiglist for $300. That puts my account at about $600. Next month I will have a little over a thousand. I'm not sure how much I would need to travel to Panama. I don't watch TV at all. It's all part of the media programming that I refuse to go along with. Sadly, even the internet is. Sorry so short, can't seem to think of anything else to say. I want to leave Ada's so badly, I just have nowhere else to go. Even if I came to Panama, I'm wondering if things would be any better for me. People in Panama are still brainwashed with money and you have a whole other family to support. I have been running and working out lately too. Is there a gym in Boquete?
From: botanicofranklingruber@hotmail.comTo: rightprotect@hotmail.comSubject: The Valuable Things of Life!Date: Sun, 20 Mar 2011 00:17:45 +0000Hello Victor, you said everything is dainted with profit and wrong. There is still room in this world to find a place where you can exchange goods for service, without seeking profit, from where your at it may be impossible yet if you search you shall find that place. I think that your diary is a vary valuable document that will give you review to examin yourself for your personal growth so you can be all the good you can be, to make a differrence. There was a young boy whose name was Auduban, he lived in a time when every body was shooting at birds, well he taught much of the world to love and respect and leave birds free....in his honer the Audobon Society was later born, his purpose became realized!You seem to be convinced that you are worthless because you cannot continue in your ego trip, and now that its gone your worthless.....could not be furthest from the truth, as a young adult now you have experience to review and define your life and goal better. How is it that you where in a better state of mind when you arrived with scabies at your mothers house? Now you have the confort, hot water too, good food....all the tv and computer time....a pension check and your more unhappy than when you where on the streets, yes even the time to get your head together and instead of doing so you want to kill yourself. There are mexicans out there risking their lives to cross the order for a chance at what you are taking for granted....No doubt for a while you felt relief to have a home to come back to, now your bored to death. Maybe what you need is something to challenge your intelligence and wits in life. Quite frankly I never liked San Antonio as a place to live and to some degree understand you. Your concerned about the world going to hell, well people don't wait for the world to end to expire, they do it naturlly or by accident all the time, for centuries. What counts is how happy you can make yourself every day of your existence. There are places where you can obtain National Geographic Magazines, past issues for .50 cents. Try and find some and travel the world vicariously until you come upon a spot, could be in the US as well that gives you satisfaction, rethink all the places you have been, whch did you like the most? Frank
From: rightprotect@hotmail.comTo: botanicofranklingruber@hotmail.comSubject: RE: The Valuable Things of Life!Date: Sat, 19 Mar 2011 16:12:30 -0500I've come to realize that maybe in my adventures I was just seeking validation for a purpose I thought I had. I use to say my mission was the world's healthiest ego trip. I thought living a book(documenting every detail of my life on a tape recorder and typing them up) was the same thing as writing a book. After being so high on myself for so long, then realizing all my "work" was in vain, that's like a fatal blow to me. I did learn some things in my travels. I learned that it truly is human nature to be good and I confirmed my hunch that humanity was on its way to doom. I used to find happiness in things, but no longer. I can't find value in anything, because everything is tainted with profit motives and wrong. I feel like, what's the point to anything. Maybe if I would've slaved away like everybody else my whole life and remained ignorant to the truth I uncovered traveling around homeless, maybe if I would've climbed the ladder high and ended up a millionaire, maybe I wouldn't be so certain that I wasn't going to die soon. I just broke it off with my friend from Florida. I thought I should be relieved but I am a little in angst. Now I truly have no friends. I deactivated my facebook too. Farewell, Frank. I'm leaving.
From: botanicofranklingruber@hotmail.comTo: rightprotect@hotmail.comSubject: The Valuable Things of Life!Date: Sat, 19 Mar 2011 15:16:18 +0000Victor, our goals are set from what we VALUE IN LIFE! Surely in all your adventures you have found VALUE in some person, some idea, some object...you have found some things, ideas or people you LIKE! There may have been some visual scenes you liked and wish you had a camera at the moment for freezing time. Recently some one sent me an email of a hunter who had just taken an automatic picture of himself with one foot on the deer in the wilderness, looking so proud of his kill holding the rifle in his hand. When the photograph was processed he noticed that the sudden flash had saved his life. Behind him about to grab his ass was this huge MOUNTAIN LION! You spend a lot of time in internet.....think about the idea of searching for UNIQUE INTERESTING FREE PHOTOGRAPHS that can be placed in simple inexpensive frames. Your collection could then travel the World with you exhibiting it where ever you go, bazaars, fairs, parks, etc. They could be so fascinating they would become a means to meet interesting people. Also since you are against money, any one who wanted to buy you simply would deny that but state that you might trade for something you need then hand them a list of things your willing to trade for. You would be promoting the idea....THE HELL WITH MONEY wherever you went! Isn´t that one of the things that piss you off about this civilization, ....many of the pictures could portray the new vision of a world you believe in. Your conversations with people would be as seeds that some one else will water and a money less world could eventually evolve. Each community would have a trading center. The marijuana to peace idea. Marijuana was not the goal, it was the vehicle to arrive at promoting the ideal, the goal of PEACE! Why abondon your goal, PEACE IN THE WORLD is probably the most noble goal anyone could have. Just change vehicles...photographs or any other useful means of communicating the IDEA. A great wise man once said that it was better to light one candle than to curse the darkness. Ligh your candle again Victor, believe in yourself and your mission of promoting PEACE. There are millions of people out there that will hear you. Promoting Peace is the most useful way of lovin ourselves and God. In our struggles in life we all fall, faulter, its human nature. When we fall we should muster the courage to get back up each time we fall. Eventually sooner or later we stand strong and move forward elegantly to achieve our goals. The two qualities we need to get back on our feet is FAITH, BIG FAITH in our mission and PATIENCE! You are a young man who just went through the first half of his life gaining experience. Now you can better meditate on that experience to fine tune your goal and reach it. I pray that you find a female partner that does not want to have children as I imagine you don´t. There is one out there that is your soul mate. Pray to God that she be placed in your path while you are promoting peace, on a Godly Mission. The distance that separates us makes us live like in two dimensions, like if I where dead and my spirit managed to use internet to get this last message to you....that you LIVE and be happy even if many arround you are unhappy. Teach yourself to be happy in any circumstance so you may teach others to be happy anywhere as well. The peace is within no without, its the distractions outside that draw our attention away from our peace. Once its strong inside we can share it with others outside. God Bless and Keep you Victor, Your Dad Franklin
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