iwillonlyloveyouwhen

 From :    
"Ada Torres" <torres141@hotmail.com>  
    
To :    
writeprotect@hotmail.com  
   
Subject :    
Mi Victor,  
   
Date :    
Tue, 16 Jul 2002 14:13:20 -0500  

  
Mi Victor,

    I don't even know why I'm writing this in English.  Maybe if I put it in English it will make more sense to you.  I need to put my motherly feelings aside and talk to you very objectively. 

    We (everyone who cares about you) are all suffering for all you are doing right now.  You very well know that if you are doing it for a cause that according to you is a noble mission, you are being extremely selfish at enjoying something when you know it's affecting others adversely: emotionally, reputation wise...etc. and infringing the law. 

    Take for example Chasity; you spent precious moments at her side and she gave you more than a 100%.  You say that you love her with all your heart, yet you are destroying many things in her.  I know she's doing everything possible in irder to get ahead with a life that she deserves, and here you are using her again and again.  

    The phone number you gave at the U-Haul was hers...they are calling her over and over. Yesterday they left a message that the vehicle has been reported as stolen; therefore, expect at any time to be stopped, arrested and booked.   

    Today, they called from the bank because apparently you have overdrawn the bank account and because it's a joint one, they are making her responsible.  She called me to let you know that.  If you fail to respond for that money, her credit will be tarnished.  

    I have to be responsible now and start paying my family $550.00 that you promised to start paying at the end of this month.  If I ever need more help from them, do you think I'll have the nerve to ask?  You assume that they are loaded...even if they are it is their money, not ours.  It was also the huge amount of money that they sent to support our family after your two accidents, but you never called to say thank you.

    I can see a big discrepancy between what you preach and what you are presently doing.  You say that cars are death machines, that you are perfectly happy walking everywhere and advocate mass transportation, but you decided to basically steal a vehicle from a private company to go from one place to another. 

    Is it that you already changed your mind about the harm that gasoline is doing to the atmosphere and decided not to walk anymore?  It sounds very paradoxical to me. When you are put in jail you know that they will come here and question me.  

    Do I need to go through all this?  Why couldn't you put your life in order by working, saving money to do your own thing and not drag all of us into this?  Laura had to go through the embarrassment of having to answer to everybody about you being harmless (they thought you were sending a virus or something harmful and were ready to file complaints) to prevent people from reporting you for spamming?  (She sent a mass e-mail to her family, friends, students, clients, and bosses informing her new phone number and you took advantage of it to expose your ideas without consulting it with her.)

    Victor, your rights end where other people's rights start.  I anticipate a negative reaction toward me but it won't be anything new.  You have taken me for granted over and over, and I feel that many other people take priority over me.  I've learned to live with it.  

    However, I have the need to write all this before you get in deeper trouble.  If you are caught in another state, most probably you will be incarcerated over there...no family/friends to be with and by you.  I cannot help you financially, especially with cost of lawyers or even traveling to see you.  I'm not about to sacrifice the little I have built and maybe lose my job to be running to bail you out.  You have more positive options; even if it's a temporary one and not what you want because it will have to be under my conditions, there's a roof, food, and a bed for you in our house.  

    Perhaps you need to hit rock bottom before you realize that you are in dire need of help and support from sources that you refuse now.  You don't listen or validate what I say but perhaps you can reach out to people who you respect and care more and get the emotional help you need.  

    Please Vic-Vic, don't keep that path of self destruction.  Return that U-Haul and afford the consequences...they will be less if you do it now.   Your life is in danger...people might mistake you for what you are not and harm you.  Come back to SA, accept that you are not well emotionally, seek professional help, and then, when you are really ready for moving up, then go.

    All I have left to say is that I pray for you and I ask that God that you claim not to believe in, to keep you in the palm of His hands.

Que Dios te bendiga siempre,

Mamá