Part 2
Tita: Anyway, Victor has had blockages that are getting better. He is a totally different person since I met him. I LOVE him even more! And he's becoming more of a grounded human. He is becoming more authentic! Now he is speaking from a better place than from emotions. He is rational more!
Victor: I am really excited, utterly elated at your vast recent contributions. You truly are acting like the master bridge builder you have always been destined to become!
Tita: We are a great team. I am just saying that if I didn't know Victor, if I didn't have the relationship I have with him and I had met him five years ago, versus today, I would definitely say Victor has his ducks way more in a row than ever, because he is more grounded. He has the security of another person. Because that person pointed out these weaknesses.
Victor: You are what I need.
Tita: But I mean, our relationship has changed you, as well. Big time. When was the last time you had five years with somebody uninterrupted? When was the last time you had a man to care for that was loving and sweet like Dad? When was the last time you sacrificed your piece of mind for another woman? A good woman? When was the last time you tested your family the way you have? Again, it wasn't on purpose.
Victor: Or was it? :P
Tita: When was the last time any of your women in your life, I have encouraged you to not masturbate, I have encouraged you to deal with your family dysfunction. When was the last time a woman encouraged you to be creative? To have your own projects apart from her?
Even when I met him I told him we were going to have our own common goals.
Victor's hobby has also merged with my hobbies. It's all good and Victor is in the healing process. That is what is the most beautiful of all of this. He is in a long, extended awakening. He is not taking any pharmaceuticals, he is not in an institute, he is not angry at the world, like he used to be(Yeah, I am much more). Of course, anger will come up as these things get touched, these scars get uncovered. It is beautiful what is happening with Victor.
It's such a beautiful day with sunshine and it is nice to be out.
3:28pm Today is February 2, my birthday! I thought the whole day would be rained out and I wouldn't get to fly my sign and get birthday presents. Alas, the sun came out and we are driving to my corner right now. I will be blessed, watch.
3:48pm Victor: I didn't do too bad on my birthday. On the first lineup I scored twice! These cool Mexican dudes gave me a couple of nuggets and this other Mexican dude gave me a tin of edibles, but he wouldn't accept my blog.
Tita: What were we talking about? Oh yes, Victor, you obviously are a beam of light. You are not necessarily a healer. I have always told Victor how people usually dump the gross stuff on them, the dross. They don't share stories of inspiration. They share dark stories of their drug use in their youth. That is what I have seen, a theme of that.
Victor: Example, please.
Tita: Umm, I don't know if I can think of one. Umm, just judging alone on the women that you have had relationships with.
Victor: Please notice how you failed to a provide me an example that would support your false claim.
Tita: They were women with very dysfunctional backgrounds and mental illness. They had that in common. And criminality. Well, I don't know about all of them.
Victor: And you know even less about any of them, for certain.
Tita: I think half of them, at least were criminals. Even your friends like Jackie, she did a lot of criminal stuff. Like all the movie downloading she did. Your past has been with criminals and people with mental illness. Pretty much, generally.
That doesn't mean that sometimes you didn't meet stellar people, educated people, respectful, good, kind people. Those are the people that fed you at restaurants. Again, most people would feed somebody, anyone that asked, not judging by their looks.
This is for the world. We need to go back to stop judging people based on how they appear. Just them only on HOW THEY ARE! Are they sweet? Are they kind?
Anyway, getting back to the point that Victor is a healer, you could say. What does his nephew Charlie do? Real estate. Victor kind of sees him as a sellout. He kind of is, is he not? Think about it.
You are helping people buy something, but you are still in the buy/sell trade, commerce, #1. #2, all the prices are inflated. It is not a heart-centered field of work. Real estate people are jackals.
Victor: And he has the gall to start talking like an enlightened guru or something. Trying to make me think that doing nothing is better than doing anything.
Tita: But he studied. When people read and study books they feel they have a grasp on it.
Victor: It's not as knowledgeable as learning from experience firsthand.
Tita: Like I say, you are different because Fawn Journeyhawk was right, you are a beam of light for others to follow. You are, that's why you draw the dark stories. That's why you get the broken women. Because you figure you can fix them. Because you would've wanted somebody to fix you.
With these other women, you told me numerous times that nobody else was there for them and you figured you could improve their lives by simply being there. Maybe you should look into why they have nobody else.
Victor: That didn't/doesn't matter to me. I thought/think I was/am special.
Tita: Every man wants to save a woman. That's also kind of primal. To say I want to be the one to step in and fix your issues. I think all men want to do that. Ya te digo, honey, I don't want to talk too much. I told Victor today that I am going to type what I write. So he doesn't waste his time in editing. I have my Chromebook now anyway. I also want to journal.
I was reading my palm reading that I had from my birthday where I treated myself to a $35 internet palm reader that was recommended to me by some psychic lady on Facebook.
In that reading, and I am bringing this up now because your dad mentioned that in one of his messages that he sent me on WhatsApp, he had told me to check out palmistry. He told me that there was a palmistry doctor who could accurately diagnose medical conditions just from reading a palm. He could tell you where your illness was like that.
We are at the end of Kali Yuga or Iron Age and we are entering a golden age again! WE ARE ALIVE TO SEE THE GREAT CYCLE REPEAT!
Since you have been so busy lately I haven't been able to share it with you, but there is some good stuff happening, honey. We are at the end of the Kali Yuga! This is it! That's why everyone is talking about this. It's not going to be World War 3! It's not anything to fear! It's going to be a golden age!
Victor: Therefore, IT SHOULD MATTER THAN I MENTION NAMES! I think we need to mention real names for my blog to have the intended effect.
Tita: Maybe, but that puts us in the 3D world. Even printing something puts it in the 3D world. I think how you do it, how you used to do it, orally, and maybe internet, I am not sure..
Victor: What? The internet is fucking key!
Tita: Well, there might be something better than internet coming. That's what I am thinking.
Victor: Well, I am not going to wait for it. I am going to go whole-hog. Names and all! I will let the truth be known! Everyone call their lawyers! Class-action against a balanced world. CASE CLOSED BEFORE IT EVEN STARTS!
TOTAL PARDON!
THE TRUTH SHALL SET US FREE!
Don't you see, baby? WE ARE IMMUNE! ANY LITGATION WILL CONFIRM MY EXISTANCE EN MASSE!
Tita: It's not about the legal ramifications. It's about do I want the dirty laundry aired for the world to know?
Victor: Don't you see how your loss of privacy is worth it!?
Tita: We will see. When the times comes...
Victor: You mean when I decide, right?
Tita: We are not there yet.
Victor: Umm, today is my birthday. Today I am going to unleash my TITA chapters. Like on the 28th I had a badass day that I want to post already. I have will have such an epic update to make.
Tita: I was just thinking why didn't your dad respond to that email I sent him? The one I sent him about the new masculine directive, or whatever?
Victor: My first guess is that he is too lazy to read it all.
Tita: It wasn't that super long. He has sent me things that are longer. Even his texts are long.
Victor: With him it's follow what I say not what I've done.
Tita: He does seem to have a forceful....
Victor: He's a narcissist.
Tita: He seems to have am I-want-it-this-way, this-is-how-it's-going-to-be attitude. Do you remember anything about him from when you were a baby?
Victor: Just that time when he gave me a sip of beer and I spit it out.
Tita: Did he have a drinking problem ever?
Victor: I don't know. I have no other memories of him.
Tita: I wonder if that's something maybe your mom didn't want you to know.
Victor: Oh yeah, that makes perfect sense, NOT! Actually, who knows what evil treachery my mom is capable of.
Tita: I still think you should keep her close.
Victor: I have decided not to talk to her for a whole year.
Tita: That's a long time, babe.
Victor: It's nowhere near as long as she made us ignore our father.
Tita: HAHAHAHA! But shouldn't she know how you feel?
Victor: She's going to know exactly how I feel when she reads my blog!
Tita: LOL! She's going to be shocked!
Victor: That is the point!
Tita: Do you have a letter to her? Maybe that would be helpful. "Mom, read this first."
Victor: Nope, I won't need one. She could never read it for all I care, as long as people she knows do! :P
Tita: I am going to write her one and send it to her. I want to get it off my chest.
Victor: Yeah, right, I'll be waiting forever. Pease forward me a copy, lol!
Tita: I know, you have given me all these projects. My homework is piling up, lol.
Victor: You slacker.
Tita: I have been slacking and I haven't been feeling well.
Victor: Oh yeah, and we're going to watch Revenge of the Nerds tonight! I haven't seen that in ages!
Like the year it came out I saw it. It's going to be cool.
Tita: We haven't watched a movie in a long time.
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