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San Antonio, TX

Wednesday March 23, 2005

     8:14am  I just woke up. Man, I'm sore.

     6:27pm  My mom pisses me off. See, yesterday when Ashlee called, I told her I was starting a garden. She asked me what I was going to grow and I told her, "Oh, the usual. Veggies and herbs." My mom heard me say herbs and after I got off the phone with Ashlee my mom says, "Oh, I caught that. About growing herbs. I thought that was funny. There will never be marijuana growing in my backyard." I laughed and told her, "Mom, I already have a plant growing. Do you want to look at it? It's beautiful." She said, "Oh no, that can't stay there!" I told her, "Alright, I'll replant it." She just kept going on and on. She screamed, "I can't believe you did that, blah, blah, blah! That's so disrespectful, blah, blah, blah!" I yelled at her, "Argh, it's life, mom! You want me to cut it down the same way you tried murdering the mimosa tree?? You are being disrespectful yourself." She all said, "Oh, I'm going to call a gardener. I'm going to have all these people come over and do all these things to the yard." I told her, "I don't give a damn, mom. Do it already. You and your empty threats. Actions speak louder than words. What the hell are you waiting for?" Argh, she's all about money! That is the only way she knows how to solve her problems. She's evil! She works for Satan! She kept saying, "Well, I have the money to do this and that." I got pissed off. I yelled at her, "You don't want to lose your maid, right mom?" She started griping some more, "It's so childish of you to say that." I told her, "That's what you refer to me as to your friends, remember? I've heard you talking on the phone. You know the minute I leave this house will be a mess." She actually tells me, "Oh no, I can pay someone else to clean it up for me." I told her, "Why don't you clean it up yourself, lazy ass. You're the only one who makes the mess."

                   Then she started yelling, "Well, stop asking me for money then." I yelled back, "Well stop giving it to me when I do." Don't try to turn this shit around on me. I don't make you do shit, mom. You choose to give me money when I ask for it. Don't get mad at me for what you decide to do.

                   Enraged, I told her, "You are going to hell if you don't change your ways, mom. You're a sinner."

     9:57pm  I'm going to bed finally. My mom is all holding a grudge. We got in a big argument tonight. She's all trying to ignore me and shit. Ugh, she pisses me off. She shouldn't resent her own son for being happier than her. For not needing all the bullshit that she does. That's damn evil. I told her to her face, "You're a sinner." She was all telling me, "Oh, I got enough money to do this. I'm making so much more money now." I asked her, "Then why the hell are still so damn miserable? Haven't you learned money cannot buy happiness?"

Next day..