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Sunday June 23, 2024

12:50pm Sunday, the 23rd. I haven't been logging lately because I've been so busy on my blog. Well, I did in my daylee thawts.

Tita: "This is from Until Today for June 23rd.

"I am willing to forgive myself for believing I could offer something to others before I have offered it to myself." If you have been working on forgiving someone for something and you still feel the anger consider this. You probably want revenge! Forgiveness will not bring the relief you seek when you really want payback.

Forgiveness only works when it is offered with compassion. When you experience the trauma of betrayal, abandonment or rejection, the normal response is anger. Your anger is directed first, at your offender.

Your next logical target is God, who allowed the trauma to happen.

For this, you are in need of forgiveness. You need forgiveness for holding onto thoughts and emotions that have caused you so much pain and anguish. You need forgiveness for believing you need to stay mad and seek revenge, because God has not. You need forgiveness for believing that by forgiving the other person you are somehow "letting them off the hook."

The truth is, by not forgiving them you have kept yourself hooked. When forgiveness has not worked for you, try compassion. Have compassion for yourself for feeling wounded. Have compassion because you have been unable to let go. Compassion is the ability to feel sorrow coupled with the deep desire to alleviate pain.

When your desire to feel better is greater than your anger you will have opened the door to compassionate forgiveness.

Until today, you may have been seeking revenge. Just for today, ask yourself is the need for revenge greater than my desire to feel better? If it is you are not ready to be healed. If it is not, call forth compassion and forgive yourself for choosing anger over forgiveness. Today I an devoted to experiencing and expressing a spirit of compassion in myself and for myself."

3:41pm We are taking off. First we were going to go to New Melones State Park..

Tita: New Melones,

Victor: New Melones State Park, but it's a tad far, so we are going to go to a different state park. Where are we going now?

Tita: Dos Rios State Park. West Modesto, twenty minutes away.

Victor: I will let you know what happens. I will blog it up.

5:50pm Today is still the 23rd. First we went to this LAME ASS Dos Rios "park." They are wasting money having staff there. It's just a little stretch of river with no access at all and they have covered picnic tables, big whoop.

There was like one other car there and they made you park far away. I said fuck this, but was sure to sticker it here and there. Then we drove off to go look for some other place by Angel's Camp. Tita had packed a picnic lunch, but our day had been kind of thrown in the air. So we stopped at this scenic overlook pull off and ate. When we first pulled up I saw some stoner looking dude and his girl. I quickly got out of the car in hopes he would read my shirt, but they just got in their car and left. I was sure to put stickers all over the place, of course.

Anyway, we are just sitting here and Tita just mentioned we are in Calaveras County. I am pretty sure this place has something to do with Mark Twain. I will look it up. Before we left I loaded up a tape dispenser with 100+ stickers. All loaded.

7:36pm We are in the town of Sonora right now. I stickered a leaf when I got out of the car, I forgot where exactly.

. I am putting my stickers left and and right in this town. In front of some art place here on Main Street someone had left a bible stood up for someone to have. I was sure to put a FUCKRELIGION.BLOG sticker on it! Ha! I bet soooo many people will get a chuckle when they see that! HAHA! I was sure to take a picture.

Reminds me of when I was on he greyhound back in 062803 before I evolved into pictures and this:

" 5:53am Oh my god. I was just sitting here on the bus nodding off. We were just coming into Albuquerque. I got the strangest impulse to look out the window and my eyes focused on this billboard on the other side of the highway. It was advertising some camera or something. The caption said, "Take pictures or no one will believe you." Holy shit. I have been ordered."

I am really excited because we went through that Mark Twain town. I totally blogged Main Street.