070904

 

Socorro, NM

Friday July 9, 2004

     8:15am  I woke up around six or seven. I had a pretty good morning. There's food! I had me some Sunny Delight, a banana, a resin hit and two peanut butter sandwiches. I am walking to my exercise station right now.

     8:22am  I left my exercise station. My stomach started hurting real bad. I think I ate too many sandwiches this morning. I had to sit down. I don't know if I can do my exercises. I don't know if I'll be able to smoke weed at ten.

     8:42am  I had a really good exercise session. I am all warmed up.

     8:55am  I walked up to the plaza. I'm going to go the long way again. I have to wait until ten to meet Chris at Smith's. He's going to smoke me out.

     9:04am  I went to the Circle K. I didn't bum a cigarette off Julie. I read the Weekly World News for about fifteen minutes. I came to the Smith's to take a shit. I have ten minutes to meet Chris, if he shows up.

     9:56am  Genie hooked me up with a cigarette in front of Smith's. I appreciate it, Genie.

     10:08am  I called the number Chris gave me. His mom or grandma told me that he was long-gone. That he probably went to the flea market. It's a little past ALCO, she said.

     10:22am  I came over to this gas station. Where the flea market is around the corner. I am going to walk around and look for Chris.

     10:42am  I ran into Josh and three other kids. Thomas and Pabst, the dog. We are walking to Alex's house.

     10:50am  We came over to Alex's to hang out and John gave me some Pizzalicious Pringles. I appreciate it, brother.

                      I logged John's generosity and jumped in with my story.

     12:55pm  I am leaving Alex's house. There was a big group of people there and we smoked some resin. They're all ignorant there. I got through a little bit.

                     Oh yeah, that one guy Thomas who I told his mom my story, he's tripped on Datura too. I told him my story about Datura(9-14-03). He told me, "Now that's an interesting story. That's the story you should tell people." I told him how I had lost all my stuff, thought I had found it and it was all disappearing in front of my face. He had asked me, "Have you ever done Gypsum?" I told him, "Umm, you mean Deadly Nightshade? Gypsum Weed? Datura? Yeah, I've got a story about that."

     1:11pm  I came back to The Black Hole. I'm going to go by Andrew's and ask him if he's read my story yet. I'm going to knock on the door and see if he's home.

                   Damnit. I am getting signs to leave up the ass. I went over to Andrew's, the house next door. I knocked on the door and nobody answered. I saw that his light was on and knew he was home. I had come earlier and he hadn't answered either. I went and looked through the window and just knew he was home. I banged on the door harder. He eventually opens the door all pissed off and says, "Can you buzz off right now?" I got pissed off and told him, "Why don't you have the common-courtesy to acknowledge my presence and simply tell me to go away? " He said, "Well, I don't always answer my door." I told him, "Well, you should start. I can't read your fucking mind." I said, "Man, I was just hoping you could give me some constructive criticism. I was hoping you had read my email. It's very important." He said, "I didn't read your email." He got all pissed off and told me to leave. I said, "Have you always been that ignorant?" and walked off.
                   All this fucking bullshit I had today with lazy ass Andrew from the house. See, earlier today I got after Andrew. I was all calling him a lazyass and shit. He doesn't do a god damn thing in that house besides consume and leave a mess. Steve came home and he told me, "I heard you and Andrew had a hissy-fit. Andrew bought groceries though." I told Steve, "Oh, that's right. Money makes it alright." Dude, I clean my ass off for everyone in the house. Andrew doesn't do shit. Oh, so he brought groceries home. I don't give a damn.
                   Ugh, it all starts with the "heads" of the household. They're lazy. All of them. I am getting so sick of this house of ignorance. Next door too.

                   I'm thinking about leaving tomorrow. Screw this place. Damnit, dude. I hate this house. Steve thinks he's all the man of the house. The mediator. As if he ran the place. He's a dumbass. He's lazy too.

                   They're all lazy. I was hoping a little Victor would rub off on them.

     7:00pm  I walked down School of Mines. I got all pissed off that the kids at the house were such lazyasses. I was just pissed and thought I'd go dig through the ashtrays at the school.

     7:26pm  Time for an update. I was all pissed off. I stormed out of the house thinking I'd go look for a cigarette at the school. Over by the campus I saw a candle burning on the sidewalk. I thought it was a firework. I went over to check it out. This guy was sitting there smoking a cigarette. I asked him if he could spare one and he said sure. He told me, "Hey, you're the first guy to come to my party. There's going to be a party here tonight. That's what the candle is for." I'm going to chill out at a party tonight. Cool. I have a beer and everything. The universe provides. I forgot his name, but I'll get it again.

                    He's some thirty three year old dude who's going through a divorce and having a custody battle over their kid.

     7:37pm  It is so badass how I ran into this party just walking down the street. I was just walking to school to dig through the ashtrays. Oh yeah, Adam hooked me up with a cigarette. I appreciate it.

                   Oh yeah, I'm stoned. I even got a place to stay for the night. That's not The Black Hole.

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