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O'Brien, OR

Sunday September 26, 2004

     7:00am  I just woke up in the bus. I'm cold.

     8:00am  I walked around outside. Oh yeah, I came back to the bus and I ate some more peanut butter.

     11:50am  I'm sitting here in the bus. I talked to Fawn this morning. I wanted to give her my presentation, you know. I had asked her to ask the spirits for a "progress report" on me. I wanted to get some feedback. She told me that I was doing just fine and just to keep doing what I think is right. She told me not to worry, that I had a lot of protection. That made me feel a lot better.

                      I just love it here.

                      About the Illuminati and my jarring Seattle experience. Most of that is Lena's perspective. It's not real to me. I have absolutely no business worrying about that. I won't. I'm just going to keep going.

                      Oh yeah, Cindy pinched me a hit in the morning. I like this bus. I love my "quarters."

     11:55am  Oh yeah, I forgot to mention this morning Fawn came up to me and said, "Victor, are you ready to go in the healing lodge?" Already? I went over there and smoked a cigarette and told her my story. She recited her stuff and put me down. I didn't fall asleep though. I eventually got hungry and wandered out of the lodge. I thought, "This isn't working." I want to see if she'll try it again. Maybe tonight when I'm tired and more likely to fall asleep.

                     Oh yeah, Barry said he's going to lend me his boots. He wears size twelves too. I'll get to go hike in the mountain.

                      I had asked Fawn, "How vital is my role?" She told me, "Vital enough for you to be obsessed with it."

     2:22pm  I haven't done much. I'm just sitting here in my bus again. I ate some more peanut butter. It's weird. I keep seeing the word Rogue everywhere.

     5:28pm  I just got out of the healing lodge. I did fall asleep this time. I hope I was healed. Please spirits, give me strength.

     5:32pm  I've decided I'm going to walk to the four corners and tell my stories. It's like three miles away.

     8:40pm  It was so weird. I started walking Lone Mountain Road towards four corners. I see this black figure walking in front of me. With my pace and walking stick I caught up to him in about half a mile. I said hello and it was a kid! A seventeen year old. We walked all the way to the store, which was closed and I told him my story on the bench outside. We smoked some weed. He had a little trim too. He's some kid from O'Brien. He lives here. He's going to his friends house. He told me he would spread my word good.
                   Oh, and while we're sitting there he pulled out his glass bowl and a cop drives by! The cop comes over and asks us if we have ID's. He said they were looking for someone who just caused a car wreck. I told Officer Schneider my story! I couldn't get to the marijuana part. He had to go. He gave me a weird look when I said, "Get marijuana legalized." He didn't interrupt one time and seemed to agree with most I said.

                   Haha, and we had some weed on us!

     10:11pm  I walked all the way back to Shadow's and I'm going to bed in my bus. There's a mattress back here in the back of the bus. I smoked some weed. I hope I have some good dreams. Spiritual dreams, hopefully. Who am I kidding? I haven't dreamed since 96. I'm living a dream.

Next day..