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Arcata, CA

Sunday November 16, 2003

     11:02am  Man, I am going to miss Kati so much . . . but I really gotta go. We made love this morning again. Man, she's just the coolest girl in the world. I even told her, "Man, I wish somebody else was saving the world so I could stay here." I gotta go, though.

     12:15pm  I am leaving Kati's apartment. My dear Kati had to go at noon. She works 1-5 at The Raven House today. Yesterday I was home playing videogames when Cassandra came home. She didn't get mad. I'm one to be trusted there. I'm going to walk into town and get me a cigarette somewhere.

                     Oh yeah, I forgot to tell you. Today I feel so free. I am not wearing any of my bags into town. Just my walking stick and water bottle. I'm going back there tonight. I'm thinking maybe Monday, tomorrow, I might be leaving. I told Kati I'd stay with her one more night. Man, we're all sick in love with each other.

                      I just got to the railroad tracks. I think these are the tracks you can walk that lead out to the skatepark. I'm going to walk to the skatepark. Shit, it's raining. Forget it.

     12:39pm  I walked in front of Los Bagels and Allan was nice enough to give me a cigarette. I appreciate it, brother.

     12:42pm  I'm in the plaza.

     1:00pm  I had bummed a cigarette off of that guy Allen. I walked to the plaza and was smoking at the sidewalk in front of the bars. Out of nowhere, this guy outside asks me, "Why are you wearing camouflage pants?" I told him it was because they kept my legs warm." He said, "Oh well, I have some pants." "I like these," I told him. "Why camouflage, though?" he asked. I said, "Because these are the ones that were given to me. They fell in my lap when I went to Weed, NM." He asked me, "What are you doing, man?" I told him, "I will tell you exactly what I am doing . . . if you'll listen to me."
                   I tried, but he wouldn't. He kept whining about how he had gotten shot when he was in the military. He was telling me no one was going to give a shit about me. He even went as far as to tell me that if I wanted to help people I should die.

                   I stopped and talked to Sean by the donut shop. He told me Randi and Cocapelli were looking for me earlier. Hmm, I wonder what for.

                   I'm walking to Safeway because Kati gave me two dollars so I could buy me some gloves.

     2:10pm  Man, I'm bored. There ain't nothing to do. I'm thinking about walking out to the barn to see if anyone's out there. Hey, I can go put up my shrine again.

     2:24pm  I'm walking to the barn. Hehe, I miss saying that.

     2:31pm  As I was walking through the field I could see people walking around in the barn. Hmm, who's still there? I finally got to the barn and said, "Man, I can't believe people are still here." Hey! It's Randi and Cocapelli! Sean had told me they were looking for me earlier. That's so cool I found them at the barn.

                   Oh yeah! The reason Randi and Cocapelli were looking for me is because they put my shrine back up! That was basically my motive for coming out to the barn. To put my shrine back up. They beat me to it, though. Man, I gotta take pictures.

                   This is all Ranger Bob's fault. Prick.

                   Tough guy, big man, do what you can. Whatever you destroy, we'll create it again.

     3:56pm  I'm going back into town. I got bored at the barn.

                   Oh yeah, earlier when I bought the gloves at Safeway, I only had two bucks on me and the gloves were $2.13. Debbie, the nice cashier covered me. She hooked me up.

                    I'm standing here waiting to get spare change for a donut. This van pulled up and this lady asked me if I knew where a headshop was. I told them where one was and the lady handed me some change. It was cool at first until I noticed it was Canadian money. Argh. Hehe, I had given them the wrong directions, unknowingly, but now that I realized it, I'm glad. Blame Canada!! I am just kidding.

     5:15pm  This dude just gave me an American Spirit. I couldn't understand his name on the recording. I appreciate it, brother.

     5:25pm  Casey just hooked me up with some change for a donut. I appreciate it, brother.

     5:32pm  I finally scored me a donut and I'm walking to Kati's. Even though Food Not Bombs just showed up. Ahh, I just wanted me a donut.

     5:50pm  I got to the gas station by Kati's apartment. I changed my mind about asking the cashier for a cigarette. I think I've asked him before and he doesn't smoke. I'm going to walk over to Kati's now. I'm almost there.

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