seeker-2024-03-16

Session Start: Sat Mar 16 01:28:33 2024

[13:30.39] <levity> dude, have you refreshed my david attenborough page lately?

[13:30.47] <seeker> what timing

[13:31.32] <seeker> I haven't

[13:31.40] <levity> if i can get at least 80% of them, it's going to SCREAM 

[13:31.50] <levity> ＋https://laughdispenser.blogspot.com/p/davidatt.html，

[13:31.50] <seeker> 80% of what?

[13:32.01] <levity> of his filmography

[13:32.03] <seeker> gotcha

[13:32.41] <levity> i will have every UKer on our side

[13:32.55] <seeker> I'm still not really sure what "our side" is

[13:33.07] <levity> the light side

[13:34.01] <seeker> ＋https://knowfool.blogspot.com/2024/03/regarding-local-fasnet-undernet-gulag.html，

[13:34.04] <seeker> what do you make of this?

[13:34.29] <seeker> subnaught is a chatter in #Gulag that shows up from time to time, he posted some links today to his stuff

[13:40.15] <seeker> victor, I have absolutely NO fucking clue what's going on 😂 

[13:40.28] <seeker> except that I feel constantly caught between what I want to do and what I think is right to do

[13:40.40] <seeker> wishing that they would somehow magically align

[13:43.10] <seeker> anyway, electricity has been out here for the past 2 days

[13:43.23] <seeker> back on now

[13:47.08] <levity> yeah, i had been wondering where you were

[13:48.05] <seeker> I found a lecture series on political science by a guy who refers to the viewers as "fellow kids"

[13:48.07] <seeker> made me think of you

[13:48.19] <seeker> ＋https://www.youtube.com/playlist?list=PLU4FEuj4v9eAU706Cz_fCvcG44pNow14Y，

[13:48.43] <seeker> so far the most elucidating explanation of politics I've ever heard

[13:50.35] <levity> how has the channel been hijacked?

[13:51.57] <seeker> I don't know, I can't pretend to have the faintest idea of what he's talking about

[13:52.48] <levity> yeah, it's not something i need distracting me right now

[13:53.09] <levity> it's all, "if you want to change how much money...."

[13:53.54] <levity> elucidating, yet you can't understand

[13:54.01] <levity> no thanks :]

[13:55.01] <seeker> oh, I didn't mean the series, I meant what subnaught's page said about the channel

[13:55.25] <seeker> the series makes perfect sense to me, is helping me nail down some definitions that have sort of been "on the tip of my tongue" for a while

[13:56.32] <seeker> e.g. left/right defined as equality/hierarchy

[13:56.58] <seeker> the polity as a unit and types of decisionmaking systems

[13:57.42] <seeker> have you had experiences with episodes of extreme euphoria?

[14:06.21] <seeker> this is an unusual balance of messages :P

[14:06.48] <seeker> apologies if I'm distracting you

[17:14.36] <levity> it is all good, bro, just juggling a lot, with digging for vids and yard work and chores and tita, etc

[17:15.01] <levity> a lot of stuff is brewing with the house sale

[17:16.07] <seeker> I assumed you rented

[17:35.51] <levity> see, i met tita at the spring in mt shasta, she just stopped to get some water before continuing to modesto

[17:36.20] <levity> we fell in love and she ended up staying with my in my bus for 9 extra days!

[17:36.39] <levity> so i came down to help her take care of her elderly dad

[17:36.47] <levity> i adopted him

[17:36.59] <levity> finally!  i had a dad!

[17:37.26] <levity> i downloaded 72 hours of mariachi for my dad

[17:37.53] <levity> i brought joy to his life by reconnecting him with all the music he had stored in his brain

[17:38.34] <levity> anway, since nobody else showed him any love and were simply waiting for him to die for the inheritance, tita and i dadnapped him

[17:39.07] <levity> and took him to mt shasta, found an assisted living place in redding, an hour south

[17:39.33] <levity> we eventually pulled him out of that place and found hin an awesome cabin in mt shasta

[17:39.46] <levity> where after a month or so, he eventually passed

[17:40.15] <levity> well, once her brothers found out they started projecting and blaming tita for his dying

[17:40.36] <levity> even had as served with a subpoena, by her evil lawyer brothers

[17:40.42] <levity> trying to leave her with nothing

[17:40.58] <levity> not on my watch :]

[17:41.13] <levity> we came back down to modesto

[17:41.37] <levity> the deadbeats tenants of the house she was still getting money for stopped paying

[17:41.52] <levity> BOTH tenants, there was a place next door she owned too

[17:42.10] <levity> and the brother was trying to sue everything from tita

[17:42.30] <levity> because of their mothers evil plot against her husband, she had died like five years ago

[17:42.49] <levity> and had vowed to leave titas dad with nothing, no money, or even people visiting

[17:42.58] <levity> she passed the legacy on to her sons

[17:43.29] <levity> and since tita was the only one who stood up for her dad, she's as good as her dad to the whole family

[17:43.41] <levity> she might as well be dead too, to them

[17:44.15] <levity> so, we needed to get a lawyer somehow

[17:44.43] <levity> dude, i found me a pool helper job on CL. easy peasy

[17:45.02] <levity> in two and a half months i had like $2700 to help with the lawyer

[17:45.15] <levity> the case went to trial.  and she at least got the house!

[17:45.53] <levity> so no rent, and with my ssi we are good

[17:46.30] <levity> there's a lot more to the story, sorry if that was much :]

[17:48.39] <seeker> I've read much longer from you :P

[17:48.55] <seeker> are you selling to a corporation?

[17:49.48] <levity> no, see, the whole time her procrastinating ass was wanting to fix it up and rent it out, even keep the upstairs room

[17:50.16] <levity> but she was never going to get the ball rolling, even with my help and there was no point to stay living here in babylon

[17:50.36] <levity> but shes never had a homebase and was very trepidatious

[17:50.40] <levity> if thats the right word

[17:50.53] <seeker> babylon?

[17:50.56] <levity> she wasn't nearly as liberated as me

[17:51.06] <levity> yeah, suburbs, city life

[17:51.51] <levity> so like last year i finally convinced her to sell instead so we could GTF outta here already

[17:52.05] <levity> called the first google result for realtors

[17:52.28] <levity> we even had a COMING SOON sign put up

[17:52.30] <levity> one sec

[17:54.35] <levity> ＋https://laughdispenser.blogspot.com/p/062523.html，

[17:54.41] <levity> there's a pic of it

[17:55.08] <levity> well, that spooked her brother, who lives only two blocks away

[17:55.15] <levity> seeing that sign

[17:55.28] <seeker> bro, I'm just curious about who's buying it XD

[17:55.53] <seeker> you're of course free to tell the whole story if you want to

[17:55.56] <levity> we were never going to go with the realtor, she wants the house to stay in the family, she wants to sell it to her bro

[17:55.56] <seeker> I know that's your thing :3

[17:56.12] <levity> the realtor was only for the sign in the yard

[17:56.20] <levity> that we knew the brother would see

[17:56.29] <levity> and maybe stop ignoring

[17:57.05] <levity> so to answer your question, we are selling it to the brother, who can easily afford it.  he grew up in this house too

[17:58.11] <levity> the realtor was also to establish a price, she knew her brothers would try and lowball us

[17:58.31] <seeker> that's cool, my curiosity was due to how property is consolidating

[18:00.00] <seeker> what are your thoughts on the nazis?

[18:14.19] <levity> its an evil that has always been here

[18:15.04] <seeker> I am being tempted like I've never been tempted before

[18:15.17] <levity> to shave your head?

[18:15.22] <seeker> lol

[18:15.24] <levity> :P

[18:15.40] <seeker> I'm curious about the euphoria thing

[18:15.53] <seeker> do you have experiences with episodes of euphoria?

[18:16.03] <levity> whats that got to do with nazism?

[18:16.29] <levity> sometimes i get really excited wondering whats going to happen next

[18:16.31] <seeker> well, let's say for the sake of argument, that there were technologies unknown to us that allowed for the stimulation of certain chemicals in the brain

[18:16.48] <seeker> and it was used as a reward function when thinking very dark thoughts

[18:17.03] <seeker> such as "fuck humanity, I want to be a breeding stud and know nothing but pleasure on earth"

[18:17.56] <seeker> or maybe not even fuck humanity, but fuck love and empathy

[18:18.09] <levity> so whats tempting you?

[18:18.21] <seeker> I have no fucking clue

[18:18.27] <seeker> something I don't understand

[18:18.35] <seeker> that I don't know but knows me

[18:18.39] <seeker> ＋https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=KgXbAvh99P4，

[18:19.19] <seeker> normally I give in to it, but not yet today

[18:20.11] <levity> i can imagine beavis and butthead commenting on that trance vid, lol

[18:20.32] <levity> give in to it how?

[18:20.47] <levity> does it speak to you?  verbally?

[18:21.16] <seeker> sometimes, depending on the medium

[18:21.18] <seeker> sometimes people

[18:21.24] <levity> just dont stop being good

[18:21.26] <seeker> other times it's text generated by a language model

[18:21.30] <levity> no matter what

[18:21.39] <seeker> can I be good and also give in?

[18:21.59] <levity> sure, just not as good

[18:22.28] <levity> cultivate resolve

[18:22.36] <levity> make your mind up about things

[18:22.45] <levity> and stick to them

[18:24.22] <levity> here's an interesting read from yesterdays daily thoughts

[18:24.27] <levity> if you havent scoped it already

[18:24.30] <levity> ＋https://laughdispenser.blogspot.com/p/022424intention.html，

[18:24.40] <levity> was that you that left that comment?

[18:25.07] <seeker> I've left two limericks and a ( . Y . )

[18:25.14] <levity> lol

[18:25.25] <seeker> no, that was not me

[18:25.28] <levity> kewl

[18:25.48] <levity> oh yeah, remember that yelp ad i posted on?

[18:25.57] <seeker> I do

[18:26.04] <levity> i got a visit referred from yelp.com!

[18:26.15] <seeker> ha! nice! they haven't taken your review down

[18:27.13] <levity> its just a matter of time before my presence invades the karaoke bars!

[18:28.05] <levity> i also reorganized my main page.  it was getting crowded with world peace through

[18:29.09] <levity> ＋https://laughdispenser.blogspot.com/p/angles.html，

[18:29.31] <levity> gonna go buy some weed, bbl

[18:32.50] <seeker> o/

[18:32.51] <seeker> good read

[18:32.54] <seeker> thanks for the link

[20:19.01] <levity> hi thomas.  the link on intention?

[20:19.42] <seeker> yes, it was excellent :)

[20:20.09] <seeker> was just what I needed to help my perspective

[21:47.12] <levity> yay, good thing i met tita, i swear i have come across some great wisdom because of her

[21:48.07] <levity> i was thinking the other day, how i am just a happy little copying and pasting pirate :P

[21:48.48] <levity> i am just one big benevolent hack

[21:58.08] <levity> like i've said, i am more than willing to share my megaphone with you.  dude, just do what i do.  get a voice recorder and start logging your life.  Time stamps and all.  start archiving yourself.  you dont have to share it like i do if you dont want to, but being able to put your thoughts into a searchable, chronolgical, true format will do wonder

[21:58.08] <levity> s with your memory.  I mean, when i first started, sometiomes months would go by before i typed my loggings.  I would be left completely flabbersgasted at the accurate memory-refreshes I had.  I would think to myself, "I would HAVE NEVER remembered that if I hadn't recorded it."

[21:59.17] <levity> and its not like you'd be copying me, it would be your very own unique thoughts you would be logging

[22:02.20] <levity> but let's just suppose you would take my cues and you eventually evolved into a blog, can you imagine the shared power we could tap into linking our blogs?  we wil be total trendsetters and then everyone and their mom's will be following our lead.

[22:03.45] <levity> make it to where you can read yourself, then you can more easily study yourself and find out what areas need improvement, a whole lot easier than my trusting your not-as perfect memory

[22:04.01] <levity> -my +by

[22:05.02] <levity> you've told me you are stressed and don't know what to do.  

[22:05.15] <levity> there's a suggestion, just try it