4:37pm We are watching Laura's Tetista video from 2016. What did you want to say, dear?
Tita: I have some impressions and thoughts about this. I already watched this like several years ago.
Victor: I have never seen it, but I am damn proud of Laura. I am sure that attempt to scream through the television was very relieving for her. Great self-obtained therapy not altogether different from my methods.
Tita: It's blatantly slanderous. Not nearly as slanderous as yours, but I only had bits and pieces of your story up until now. Through mostly you, and then your mom on the phone. Your life's story, what shaped you. Since I met you I noticed you had a lot of deep wounds. A lot of repressed-issues.
Victor either wasn't aware of it and didn't give it importance, but as I got to know his mom I started connecting dots. Victor thought he was beyond it, or that it wasn't that big of a deal, but now after five year's worth of conversation with his mom, hearing her stories...
Victor: I had locked it all away.
Tita: Yes, Victor locked away these issues. Sometimes it is easier not to deal with them and move forward and have a life. That's my bent with every person I meet, as I have explained. One of my things is that when you have relationship issues they usually stem from your mom and dad issues. Anything that happened before you were five or so. Really anything in your childhood up to adolescence.
All of those things form us, what happens, whether people were fighting, all these things, our patterns and our relationship styles and how we communicate and how we resolve differences usually we model what we see, or what we don't see You either choose to perpetuate a pattern or you choose to heal it and improve on it, break free of it.
Victor's story was My Dad Abandoned Us. Last year I received confirmation that actually, he was expelled! Mamada emotionally, legally and psychically removed him from your house and your lives. She even financed his ticket to ride.
What a major diss that is to a marriage. Not only do I want to divorce you because I don't like you anymore or you are not providing, but I(through the church) am going to erase our union by having it annulled! That almost seems worse to me!
Victor: She found a loophole.
Tita: Yup, she found a good attorney, she found a loophole. When the real issue, according to her was that Frank was all me, me, me. Maybe Frank has bipolar disorder. She said that he did. My dad had bipolar disorder.
My dad was not a normal dad, by any means and neither was Victor's, but my mom LOVED my dad, unconditionally. My mom didn't have any easy time at the beginning after the honeymoon phase wore off, but she stuck to her commitment out of LOVE. Because she loved dad.
Lo and behold, even though it was tough for many years when he was traveling back and forth, he would always be gone six months out of the year, at the time there were better employment opportunities in the states, he would work for six months and then go back to Mexico.
Imagine being alone for half of the year. A woman with kids, with babies. Most women wouldn't put up with that or couldn't stand that because that's a lot of work! She had to be the father while the father was gone.
::Victor taking dabs and coughing::
Tita: I don't like talking when you are coughing.
Victor: Ha! I don't believe there is such thing as a time when you don't enjoy talking. Your lips are always flapping. Stop lying to me. You stopped talking just because I coughed? Why haven't you kept going? I am not coughing anymore."
Tita: So, watching this video here, ugh I lost my train of thought completely because of your interruption.
Victor: Do you see how that feels now?
Tita: Anyway, going back to this video, if the story that was built by Mamada that the kids believed is that your dad left. That's what we just saw. I am seeing a man leaving with a suitcase and not coming back. And what word did she use? A machista!
Maybe the real reason Mamada didn't want him around is that not only was he depressed and had mental illness that she didn't care to address or try to mitigate or have him address, maybe he was sick, maybe he didn't like where he was living. How hard is that to understand? If you don't love the place where you are at, your environment and your community, the city versus a rural place, how hard is it to maybe see, "Oh shoot, why did we come here?
Oh, that's right, because I wanted to. "Maybe it was my choice to be here, but maybe not for my husband and I care about him even if only because he is the father to my kids. I may not like how he is being lazy or spending time on the hammock doing math and not helping with caregiving or whatever, maybe I should give him help, or maybe we need to go back to where we were. Maybe we should go back to Puerto Rico where my family is and they can help me raise the kids if Franklin isn't willing."
Victor: Yes, there were so many options they were too lazy to eliminate.
Tita: Well, we don't know the full story, but what I hear now in her memories as a 70+ year old woman is, "He was a bad father. He was all me-me-me. He relied on my father's wealth."
She told me the story that he didn't even go to get foodstamps. I am sitting here thinking, see, she talks on and on about how intelligent she was and how she was at the top of her class at a private university. And she had family already in San Antonio. She said that when they arrived in San Antonio they had people who not only found her an apartment, but also a job. This why she chose San Antonio. She had a soft landing.
Again, if you think about it, not only talking about Victor's family, a man and a woman. They were in their early thirties. They were then young, bonafide adults. They had Victor and Laura at 29. They weren't stupid(lol). They didn't have a child out of wedlock.
The first love, the first relationship tends to be doomed because you are attached for fun and the exploration of sex, for living outside of the house for the first time, having your own place so you could do what you wanted to when you wanted to and not have mom and dad around.
That's what first love is. Most people have that with the wrong person. Those reasons don't sustain most people into adulthood. You can't really know each other. You are both still babies at 18.
They were in college when they got together. They already had a leg up. You would think they were a little more mature. Most people want to get married after they graduate from college. They got married as young adults.
She had Diana at 26. That's a good age to have kids. That's a mature person. Then they had Victor at 29. By the time they got divorced, Mamada is 32. They're young adults, they are now in middle age. She chose where to go.
In an email Franklin says, "That was my big mistake. It was her idea to go there. If we had gone to Florida instead I would've had a job there." For example only.
Florida, I can gather from all the conversations I have with people on this planet, that's Florida is humid and it's in the tropics. Since Franklin was raised in an area that is hot and humid he probably wanted to be in a place with similar terrain as his home. Similar wide open spaces where you can go and get lost and explore, that makes sense to me.
He was not a city dweller. As I have learned from Victor San Antonio is polluted AF. It is very contaminated. Why would someone who has sensitive lungs the way it seemed like Franklin had, how could he be happy there? Second, how could he feel motivated after being sick with fumes of a big huge industrial city, why would he be happy there? Maybe that's what was the problem. Again, was that even explored or discussed before they discussed divorce? I don't know.
In a different vein, going off on a different direction, now let's talk about Laura's video. In her mind, in her story that she repeats to the community in this video...
Victor: This is important enough to interject, sorry. The only reason I resurrected my defaming, asshole-ripping chapter in my blog, and revealing exposé on my father was only because I called Laura to talk to her about it and she badmouthed him.
Tita: She dissuaded Victor. There's a recording somewhere of her saying that Frank isn't worth even talking to. It's in a text somewhere, this past year she was all, "Give up on him, he's not worth your energy, nothing. Don't even try and talk to him."
Even though I can see through emails Victor has shown me that Franklin was there for Laura when she was having all kinds of issues and received zero support from Ada. Back in 2009, I don't know when it was. There was a time where he was supportive of her. He was helping her with advice and even money. That was at least one time that I know of that dad showed up for her, even all far away on another landmass.
#2 was covid. On Facebook she wrote candidly about her dad. She wrote many positive things about how her dad was there offering tips or natural cures when she got tricked into thinking she got covid.
Gushingly enthusiastically and loving she was talking up her dad, showing off her new brother Patrick. "Doesn't he look like Carlos?" She was gushing not about the Gruber curse, but the Gruber gift. Even her new daughter has similar issues as Franklin, fixating one one game or won't touch of hug anyone, won't hardly eat, in another words getting sucked into a hobby which in her case was RoboLux, I think, some videogame.
Doesn't that sound like behavior Victor has sometimes? Wasn't Franklin like that? Again, with some people we have to allow for neurodivergence. That's what she touts about her daughter. She's proud and excited that her daughter is neuro-divergent, with a beautiful brain. That kind of compassion can't go to Victor? Or Franklin?
Maybe the neurodivergent brain came from father and father didn't have an understanding wife that saw how it was really a gift instead of a curse. Instead of facilitating his gifts she banished him from her children's life. What a bad mother to not care to fertilize Frank's genius because if he doesn't wat to work, maybe A, because he has health issues, maybe B because he misses being in wide open spaces, rural landscapes and there's Ada saying she wants to move to the city because she has buddies here. All of these things didn't get considered or got ignored.
Going on with this thing about Laura. In two occasions in her life the support and loving care of her dad. I read her mention that she didn't have, or there were bad boundaries with mom, that mom didn't support her during covid and neither did Diana who is a thousand miles away, who felt she had the right to diss Laura for taking mom out in the community, which meant she had to go to doctor's appointments and that she had to go get stuff to keep her head sane because she decided to do organic gardening in mom's backyard. To sell plants, to make money, to get out of the house. She wasn't happy living with Ada.
That's weird too, why would she go live with her mom if she hates her. And B, oh, it was beacuse she was in an apartment that had black mold. Again, you grin and bear it. If you have nowhere else to go why burden your elderly mother you hate by living with her?
As I found out from Charlie, we couldn't go over there and live with her either. That's not a good idea because what did Charlie say, "Ada is eccentric and she has her ways. She's old, it would be overwhelming to have all this family over."
Umm, isn't it similarly overwhelming, wasn't it, didn't we hear from Victor's mother that she did not enjoy Laura and her daughter and the dogs and the cat that peed and pooped and she had a buy a new bed.
That is very overwhelming, but Laura did it! Why would she do that? Do you see the dysfunction there? Grin it, bear it or women's shelter. Or call CPS, I don't know. In other words, she did burden mom. That was a mistake.
Will she own up to that? During that time Laura had more love and support from dad, which I am sure mom resented her for.
Laura's pattern is oh, I have black mold and I can find another apartment, but I just rather go to mom's. I know we don't like each other, but rent is free.
Actually, I think she paid five hundred bucks for two months or so. The point being that she created friction because she couldn't latch. She's a lactation consultant and she went back to latch on mom, in her forties.
Maybe that was wrong. Maybe she's not fully an adult. Something, but it didn't help her relationship with Ada. During that time who's love and care did she have? Father's. She was emailing and consulting, getting holistic advice from dad.
Does she now? Did they rebuild their relationship? It sounds like no, because as of last year, two years post covid, she's bitching. She is saying that he is horrible. She used him, did she not? You could see it that way. She used him for love and care and support and guidance when she had covid. At least two times that I know about, hold on, I am not finished, at least two times she has gone to dad, so for her to say that he sucks, that he's nobody diminishing the fact that he had been there only when she needed him.
Typical woman! I need something, I need help, I need money, I am stressed out, so now I'll go to dad. Not anytime else. And then "I don't care about him, I don't need him anymore." I mean, that sucks!
If I were to be Victor's dad, and there is more about that I can get into, but doesn't that suck? To only hear from your kids when they are down and out and need you. Once the regain their health, ahh, I don't need you anymore. That sounds like a real Mamada-move.
Victor: HAHAHA!
Tita: That sounds like a fucked up, bitchy, needing, using, manipulative move like soooo many other women! I am a woman and I would never do that to anyone. I have to even consider that. I don't condone it from any woman, okay?
Getting back to this video. In this year you hear Laura, forty plus year old saying, "Dad left us and didn't come back."
THE TRUTH IS THAT MOM KICKED HIM OUT!
MOM ANNULLED HE WEDDING MAKING YOU KIDS BASTARDS!
And, sold the only transportation she had to enable his departure and ruin her kids' lives in doing so. She was looking good at the time, showing Frank, "Not only do I not need you and I am divorcing you but I am paying your way back to your mom's in Panama."
Laura used the term machista. So did Franklin not appreciate the housework? Saying chauvinistic jokes? Belittling Ada as a woman? That's what machista sounds like to me.
Like did he expect her to raise the kids without him? I don't know, he might be a machista, but I doubt it. And even if he was he should be given all the chances he needs for the sake of his children.
It was evil of her to send him off and it was weak and spineless and integrity-destroying for him not to fight more for his offspring.
Ada successfully castrated Franklin and she delighted in every second of it, just like a bruja. But it's possible he was a machista. Anything is, but that's just Laura's biased opinion. She said it on the internet to the whole world, so in her mind the machista dad left.
Wrongo! Those are not the facts. A fact-checker like me and with all the knowledge I have of mom and very little of dad's, it seems dad was forced out, was not listened to and his feelings were not considered at all. He was not understood. Ada saw the easy way out as getting a divorce and you leave, instead of saying, "Can you maybe hang out here? We will go on welfare, because I still want my children to have you around. Even if you're a bad dad sometimes, it's better than no dad." Do you see?
Victor: I want to interject here and say that Mamada cemented, paved Franklin over...and TITA IS THE JACKHAMMER! Okay, that's it. :]
Tita: I understand that every person wants their child to think well of them. That has to be balanced with I created this person with another person. To malign the other half that produced you is evil!
Victor: She thought she had buried him.
Tita: She buried him in her mind, by maligning him and not saying anything good about him to her kids..
Victor: SHE STOLE OUR FATHER FROM US!
Tita: Yes, had she been more of an adult, more of a good mother and thought of her kids first, I think it might've been a brighter story for all three kids. That's what it sounds like to me. Again, Franklin could've also been a late bloomer. Everything she said could've been true...but you stick it out for the kids!
Back in the caveman days, imagine her in a cave alone without a husband. Did she not consider that? Maybe because her friends and coworker were probably after hearing how big a demon Frank was, maybe they were telling her stuff like, "Leave him, you will find another one soon. You are so loving and beautiful! Leave him now while you are still young and you can snare another one. A better one that has money."
Why do we think this? Because she did!
Tita: She was all cracking her knuckles with pride for snagging a lawyer. She thought she was set for life. She even mentioned that a lawyer they met with was handsome. Maybe she really was thinking, "Ooh, I don't need Franklin," and she cast her pity spell on the lawyer who found her...
Victor: Ass-fuck HOLEY Loophole. :P Luis Augusto Moreno Sr. got caught in her web. I have fond memories of my step-grandma Bidi, I think her name was Brijida.
I want to introduce you to my step ladder.
I never knew my real ladder. :P
Tita: Luis became her next victim. Did she work while she was married with Luisito?
Victor: I think so. I don't remember.
Tita: More than likely she became a trophy wife. If she wasn't she should've, she's got a master's and is well educated. Did she see it as a ticket to enjoying life and enjoying an attorney's money? I don't know.
Her ego was inflated because she was(paste tense) pretty, says Victor. She was still young and still had physical beauty and she used that to snag husband number two. She probably thought, "Oh, now that I have a rich lawyer husband he can pay for everything instead of my dad he'll pay for the housekeeper because I can't even do that on my own. I rather not do it myself, I am too good to clean my own house. Do you see how that might've worked?
Victor: Yeah, anything is possible.
Tita: In her community bagging a lawyer was probably a feather in her cap to her. She probably thought she'd never be able to do any better. I don't know, but what I am getting at is that she did not focus on her kids. She started off a new family right away with a different man, and even that didn't work.
So, Laura has used dad when she has need him, but when she doesn't he is re-discarded. That's what I see. Diana has never needed him, she wants it to appear. Diana has so much love and adoration from mom that I can see why she doesn't need him. I understand exactly why Diana has commitment issues and can't commit to a man who loves her. I guess she'll never have children, understandably so.
Victor told me from day one how emotionally-immature Diana was. That she may have money, she may have achieved a high level of success at her job, but does she have lasting LOVE in her life? No, because she knows she is damaged goods. Why? BECAUSE MOM DID NOT PROVIDE FOR DAD! She is not going to trust any man because she feels her dad betrayed her.
Her dad did not betray her, HER MOM ACTUALLY DID! By kicking out the man who help birth them instead of working it out!
They all have differnt issues, right? Anyway, we are philosophizing, thinking. The video helped a lot, seeing it again. Because that's not how it happened!
If I had seen this video and I didn't know anything about Laura and just saw her as a speaker I would see Frank and think, "Shit, what an asshole!"
That's not the fact! He did not just pick up and leave. He was kicked out by Mamada. Her video should've been, "My mom kicked out my dad because he was an asshole and self centered." That would be more truthful.
Victor: We could probably extort money from Laura if we threaten to make this public, lol!
Tita: HAHAHAHA!
Victor: ::EVIL SNORTLE:: MUHAHAHAHA!
Tita: It would be way more truthful if she had told the truth and conveyed that mom kicked out dad because he was not a supportive and loving husband. That would've been way more truthful. But again, we can't blame mom because she has painted herself so innocent by throwing all the resonsibility on Frank.
Laura may never see it that way, may never want to, but in the end this is our perspective that we have every right to have. They matter because we are affected by it. We see exactly how this has played out in Victor's life. Even how these things have played out in our relationship. Victor has a hard time resolving conflicts.(Victor: I do?) because he never was taught how! His mom just found it easier to find a bullshit pretext to making him leave.
Victor: I had to teach myself.
Tita: Victor has had some patterns play out in his relationships and when they come up in our relationship I have to tell him, reassure him that I am not like his mom. I am not going to deceive you. You can trust me. When I said good times and in bad, I meant it. That's how they relate to our relationship, you know? It's important to us to figure out where these issues come from, so that we don't have a dysfunctional relationship like his parents had, so he doesn't repeat the pattern like Laura does.
Victor: My-Tita, due to your recent grand contributions you are making you have now become a PERMANENT part of this mission. My long dreamed-for co-conspirator! You're going to help me convince the masses I speak the truth!
I expect you now that you are more on board with me to respect our mission more. Together I want us to continually focus on this one thing, just keep doing exactly what you are right now. As much as we practically can. It is just the most important thing right now.
Tita: Can you sum up our mission? What are our mission objectives? What is our mission and how do we get there?
Victor: World peace through PHREEDOM! WORLD PEACE THROUGH TITA!
Don't you see, baby? You are the Keymaster, you are the Virtual Bridge! You are stepping into your power finally! At long last you are finally realizing the very real potential this project of mine has. The astronomical advances we are about to experience as a gigantic collective. I am glad you are finally realizing how much more you can be helping the human collective by plugging your quality noggin' into my blog.
IT DOESN'T MATTER WHAT THE FUCK THE SHAPE OF THE WORLD IS, WE ARE ONE!
That's why I am not altogether opposed to Flat Earth and all these varying perspectives we are being fed. It's all great practice in seeing the world AS IT IS NOT!
THAT'S THE FIRST STEP IN MAKING A WORLD WE WOULD RATHER LIVE IN THAN THE PRESENT SHITHOLE WE DO LIVE IN RIGHT NOW!
IMAGINATION AND CURIOSITY ARE KEY COMPONENTS TO CHANGING THINGS FOR THE BETTER AND NOT WORSE!
THERE IS NOTHING LIKE A DREAM TO CREATE THE FUTURE!
SO LET'S STOP LIVING THIS UNNECESSARY NIGHTMARE ALREADY!
Tita: So how what does unraveling of your family's patterns have to do with world peace? Do you think....
Victor: Don't you see, baby? I GIVE A TRUE EXAMPLE OF SOMETHING THAT IS GOING ON ALL OVER THE WORLD!
I AM NOT A SPECIAL CASE!
I AM ONE OF BILLIONS!
I HAVE HAD A WALK IN THE PARK COMPARED TO WHAT OTHER KIDS ARE GOING THROUGH RIGHT THIS SECOND!
I AM SURE OTHER PEOPLE HAVE WAY MORE INTERESTING LIVES THAN I DO!
IF THEY WERE TO ADOPT MY ELEMENTARY AND SIMPLE AND FREE METHOD.
IT'S NOT EVEN MY METHOD!
IT IS SIMPLE, EASY TO COMPREHEND AND EMULATE LOGIC!
I WANT EVERYONE ELSE LOOKING FOR THE SHORTCUT TO EVERYTHING!
IT ALL STARTS WITH YOUR KEYBOARD SHORTCUTS!
FUCK MICE!
There's a better way to do everything, find it!
I feel as if I have found the ultimate way to do it that anyone else can do too. All you need to do be is literate and know how to use a word processor! That's it!
We can use our computers as extensions of our minds!
Keep track of everything so you don't have to remember shit so you open up your mind to new possibilities!
If you document and save everything then you don't have to waste room in your brain and new, better ideas will fit!
FREE YOUR MIND AND THE REST WILLL FOLLLOW!
EVERYBODY NEEDS TO LOW-LEVEL FORMAT THEIR BRAINS AND START ANEW!
Tita: Okay, how am I a bridge to this mission? To get everybody to record their lives?
Victor: Due to this 360 degree plot-twist with Franklin, his chapter on my blog won't only be the most interesting chapter, but hopefully the funniest and most shocking as well.
If I am going to be able to convince people to find humor in EVERY SINGLE THING in their lives, even the offensive stuff, whoever can begin to see the funny edge in everything and laugh, instead of getting offended at harmless words and different opinions, it all just seems like a great divine comedy to me.
If you can't see how you coming into my life and eventually showing me the truth about my family and my thief of a mother(which I always suspected a little), and see how these recent additions are only going to make my true documentary even more interesting, because now people will want to confirm my lofty claims about you, and will be able to read your exact words and hopefully realize exactly how special and meaningful us coming together really is for the future of everybody, then I am better off dead!
Raw, uncensored Grade-A content! This is the future! The children are the future!
Like I told Frank, me and you, we are piloting the ark. With my dad as well. The Gruber and Vera clans are one! ¡Que viva Latino-America! Have I answered your question at all?
Tita: Yeah, you are getting closer. Do you think that, in other words. This isn't just a chapter. You want people to read about your dysfunction so they can learn from it and learn that maybe when you have this certain type of situation where there is a divorce and one person is named and the other person looks like an angel, is that what's going to help your mission? Is that what's going to help this chapter?
Victor: Ultimately, I just want to serve as an example, to show people they can easily do what I have done, even better even. I truly don't feel like I am specially-gifted. I feel that because I reject society so much, how I have rejected its false, demonic teachings, and I left everything up to chance and just believed in my security, because of that I learned. I went to the real school, the true college where they teach only truth. The same school every single person was enrolled in the second they were born, but were forced to forget about because it's too much trouble to ever be uncomfortable.
But no, morons rather go to college and eat from the same shit-trough which greatly retards their education instead of making them smarter. Schooling is voluntary self-sabotage!
Through my blog I want to show people how they can spit that shit out whenever they want! And go be happy instead! Why be sad? Go get stoned and LOVE life again! Have a ball!
MARIJUANA IS HERE FOR US TO USE! WE ARE BORN TO PROCESS IT! IT IS THE KEY TO OPENING OUR MINDS!(at least if it's dank).
MARIJUANA IS OUR NATURAL-PACIFIER!
STOP BITCHING AND CRYING AND PUT THE SHIT IN YOUR MOUTH AND SUCK IT DOWN!
Tita: I have been able to figure out people's patterns without marijuana. I don't know if everyone needs it.
Victor: It's not that I want everyone smoking weed all day, I just want them to try it if they never have, that's all. Toke on a trial basis. Forget about the demonization of this harmless flower and give weed a chance already!
EVERYBODY ELSE IS DOING IT!
DON'T YOU WANNA BE COOL?? :P
LIGHT THE MATCH!
You won't get high your first time. It takes a little practice. Just keep trying until you get reconnected to nature and then you can see for yourself how helpful this divine gift from LOVE is TO EVERY SINGLE PERSON IN OUR WORLD!
WE WERE ALL BORN TO SMOKE WEED!
IT IS OUR BIRTHRIGHT!
JUST LIKE EVERYTHING ELSE THAT SUSTAINS LIFE LIKE FOOD AND SHELTER!
IT HAS ALL BEEN STOLEN FROM US!
WEED IS OUR SALVATION!
IT IS THE BIGGEST KEY!
IT IS WHAT HAS SHOWN ME THE LIGHT AND LOVE ALL AROUND ME!
It all started when I was 16. The same year I lost my virginity to Mileena Knight in the woods behind my mom's. I smoked some weed and it taught me a lot. It taught me how to view life as it was.
Then I figured out how to get free food by just asking for it. In San Antonio I was taught so many lessons.
Even realizing how I look just like San Antonio, that's when my role was made obvious. I realized how interesting my life had become by following my ideals. Then I went to Easter Seals and was told I should get a tape recorder.
The rest is history.
I became Victor the Transcribor!
I have been playing this role ever since 2002.
Even when I thought I had quit I was still playing the game because I had my memory intact.
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