I give up. My dream to wake up the world is not going to work. My efforts have been in vain.: .

Cleaned it up 9-28

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MY BLOG STARTED OUT AS A POSITIVE JOKE BLOG, BUT MY DARKSIDE, THAT MY "WIFE" DUG UP(WHICH I ALWAYS DENIED HAVING) EXPOSED ITSELF AND RUINED ME. I AM SORRY TO ALL OF THE PEOPLE I MALIGNED. I THOUGHT SHOCK-VALUE WAS CALLED FOR AND MY CHILDISH FREE SPIRIT TOOK IT TO THE EXTREME. I HAVE A LOT OF UNVENTED SUPPRESSED ANGER. I HAVE REMOVED MOST OF MY BLOG AND ALL THE DEFAMATORY PAGES. I HAVE MADE VERY GRAVE MISTAKES BY BEING SO OPEN. I MIGHT DELETE THIS BLOG ALTOGETHER SOON.

To my family and my wife's family, forgive me and accept my apology for maligning you. I truly didn't know what I was doing and was just letting things happen.

8-9-24 update: I have once again lost hope and don't wish to remain in our backwards physical existence. I really believed I could make a substantial difference, but it turns out I was wrong. It turns out I can't reverse the brainwashing, no matter how hard I try. I am not special enough to make it happen, like I thought I was for so long.

IF I CANNOT LIVE IN A BALANCED WORLD, I RATHER NOT LIVE AT ALL. I WILL NO LONGER BE MAKING UPDATES TO MY BLOG. I AM QUITE SURPRISED IT HAS LASTED THIS LONG. I AM CHECKING OUT SOON. GOING TO DO A DEPRESSING DETOX, NO WEED, CIGS OR BLOG. MY LIFE SUCKS NOW. MAYBE I'LL HELP MORE BEING DEAD.

AT THE VERY LEAST YOU CAN LAUGH AT ME :[

8-13-24 I thought I could fix stupid. I thought my detailed life could serve as evidence, but sadly, most people have major Stockholm Syndrome and love being slaves to money and ruining the world for future generations. Whereas I, would rather live free or die now. I thought I could show everybody a better way, but people are content living in fear and being slaves(by deliberate design). It's going to take a lot more than me to liberate humanity, and that's been a hard pill for me swallow after being shown so many confirming signs in my life.

I know I said I will no longer be updating my blog, but at least I will write up a resignation-page soon.

Put the following in past-tense. I think most of us are screwed now.

FUCK IMPERIALISM!.

I not only meant what I say, but I believed that it is tremendously important IT SHOULD be said, and that it is(was) my duty in life to say it.

9-3-24: I am so sorry. I have committed the ultimate, unforgivable sin. In all my obsessive documenting and openness to the world I have betrayed the trust of everyone I care about. I have permanently aired my "dirty laundry" to the world wrongly assuming people would see the value in it. In my attempts to make the world laugh I have brought great shame to myself and my family, who I still believe live the wrong way and it seems always will.

My deluded, self-important, brain-damaged self figured I had to be open and transparent to gain the world's trust and show the world exactly how dumb it is, but not enough people care, or even believe their minds are being controlled. I have found that there is such a thing as being too open. I have committed virtual suicide and no longer look forward to the rest of my life.

I along with my partner Tita have secluded ourselves from the rest of the world we don't want to be a part of, the evil system of servitude that has been in control of humanity since it's inception.

I thought I could be the ultimate "whistle-blower." It was a grandiose dream that has now become a nightmare for me.

I can't believe I thought I could just pick up where I left off twenty years ago and still succeed. Of course the safeguards would be stronger now. The dark side has been planning this for eons. It was total wishful-thinking that I could still make a profound difference.

Now I see that I have dug my own grave. I have fallen in my own trap. I still smoke cigarettes and weed like a chimney, just like our owners want me to and it's only a matter of time before I pay for it. I stopped walking and have been sucked back into Babylon. I don't walk my walk anymore. It was dumb of me to think I could still lead by example. I feel totally worthless now.

It's not that I think I was am wrong with my ideals. I still believe it is human nature to be good and that money and god is a hoax in place to keep us from finding the truth about our collective-potential.

It is that now, more than ever, I see the detrimental evil that exists that is keeping the majority, not only blind to our doomed fate, but also begging for it because nobody wants to think for themselves and be free from the enslavement they've been tricked into thinking is freedom. Now, more than ever I believe we live in a world where wrong has right-of-way.

The upliftment I gained from being stoned has served as a double-edged sword. I truly believe THC reconnects us with our natural selves, but now that is it "legal," accepted and doled out by our very own government, creating a lucrative source for generating profits, you can damn well be sure it has been compromised and now simply just part of their plan. I am starting to think it has always been.

"Marijuana is self-punishing. It makes you acutely sensitive, and in this world, what worse punishment could there be?"

P. J. O'Rourke

"The corporate revolution will collapse if we refuse to buy what they are selling - their ideas, their version of history, their wars, their weapons, their notion of inevitability. Remember this: We be many and they be few. They need us more than we need them. Another world is not only possible, she is on her way. On a quiet day I can hear her breathing."

- Arundhati Roy

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