1:33pm Tita and I are having another fucking argument. We should write up a schedule and shoot for the same time each day for this daily tradition. It is frustrating AF!
With all of this goodness that I am trying to bring to the world, the goodness that's not going to happen soon enough if I get slowed down, my blog and self-expression has been evolving like crazy and she has been here to witness every step, and still she wants me to go at her snail pace? Why can't you realize the potential I have to reach more souls than ever before? You are getting in the way of my dissemination of vital truth! Why do you keep giving me barriers?
Every single day she tricks me, fools me into thinking I have finally convinced her of the worth of my mission and I will soon have her totally on my side and on board. She tells me how she thinks I am a genius and am on the right track.
Fuckin' hopium she drip feeds me, because before you know it she's being a little girl again. You should be more careful to harm your integrity so much, you big fat liar! It's not nice!
She is having all this communication with Frank, and I am so glad for that! I have hope again! I really hope I can reach him, to let him know exactly how I feel due to my fucked up upbringing by my retarded parents!
This is a dream come true for me, to be able to vent my angst finally! And I can do it with my free blog! Anybody else can follow my lead and express themselves and make things right for themselves too.
Free therapy all around!
Like it says in that Slots the Missing Piece article, can't everyone see how the benefits of my project totally outweigh the detriments? How my lifestyle of simply asking for things I need and the simple fact that I am provided for so much anywhere I go, I mean, just take a look at the organization I did recently with my treated-like-royalty search I did on my blog.
That's how I found the interesting days people can read at first before diving into my journal, so they can get a good taste of my realness. I get hooked up so many more times than when I say treated like royalty, so just imagine!
It was just amazing how I was supported everywhere I went. I could count on it!
WE ALL CAN!
IF WE JUST SHED ALL OF OUR BABYLON WEIGHT AND LIES AND MISCONCEPTIONS WE HAVE BEEN FED SO WE DON'T KNOW HOW THINGS REALLY ARE, SO WE CAN ALL SOAR TOGETHER!
It is possible for things to be good for everybody!
BUT ONLY WHEN ENOUGH PEOPLE WAKE UP!
Because if not, the total opposite of goodness is going to happen.
Everybody who doesn't get killed are going to wish they had been!
I don't want things to ever get like that!
That's why I haven't had children!
There's nothing like a dream to create the future!
There is also nothing like a nightmare because if enough people think that's what it's going to be, then that's what it's going to be!
If enough people believe that is going to happen that's what WILL happen!
Our combined thoughts create our reality!
Think happy thoughts only!
Tita doesn't want to share her opinion because I am recording. Say hi, Tita.
Tita: No, because I don't want to share every little tidbit of my life to be put on your blog.
Victor: Not even if that helps bring world peace?
Tita: I don't give a shit about world peace. '
Victor: Oh, really? The truth comes out, huh? LOLOLOL
Tita: I want the world to burn. Burn, baby, burn, baby.
Victor: Not today, Satan! LOLOLOL I have to send Frank this right now!
So, kidding aside, are you with me or are you against me?!
Are you with me or are you against me?!
Are you with me or are you against me?!
I want you to say which one of those two you are.
There are only two valid choices in my question.
Are you with me or are you against me?
Tita: I am with you! I have been since I met you.
Victor: Okay, why was that so hard?
Tita: I don't like being coerced and backed into a corner.
Victor: I don't like there not being world peace and being slowed from helping me make it happen.
Tita: Whatever, I don't want to be recorded so I will write it down instead.
Victor: I am sure you're going to orate it to me anyway, so tough. Don't tell me if you don't want it on my blog. You are supposed to be helping me come forward, not holding back. What don't you get about that?
Why should I stick around if my needs can't be met by you? Or by anyone but myself?
Tita: You know what? I am mot going to share then. I don't really care.
Victor: Cool, because I would prefer peace and quiet anyway! So thanks.
Tita: Well, my true friends, my Sivinanda friends, they know how I feel.
Victor: Well, then they can come support you after I leave.
Tita: I liked Vishnu Das, but he had so many childhood traumas. That's why he got angry when I caught him being mean to Shiva Das
Victor(ignoring and fecetious): Oh wow, I was wondering about that.
Tita(not getting the sarcasm): I didn't tell you about that already? Well...
Victor: Case in point!
Tita: You should let people express themselves, even if you don't agree. Vishnu Das had a lot of issues. He did that with Jaya too. I feel bad for him. He was constantly high. He can't be anything other than high.
Victor: So what? I am always high. It is a mere preference. Being high all the time is better than living in our fucked up reality, even just a little bit.
It's our portal to freedom. We just can't get the door open. The hinge is rusted shut from all the moronic-calcification.
Tita: When you are high all the time you can't function in the world. That's why he got kicked out of the ashram.
Victor: Mabye he can't, but that's just because he needs more practice. Just like you.
Tita: I like him high, but he made a bad impression on the guests being all red-eyed and goofy.
Victor: Remind me how this boring story is not here nor there?
Tita: I am talking about my friends that don't betray my confidences.
Victor: Oh, I understand the correlation now, but you shouldn't describe mere acquaintances as friends. You seldom ever communicate with them still. I've heard the same long drawn out stories of the four measly months you were at the ashram in grass valley. Get over it already. Those people aren't friends. They're just characters. True friends support you directly and make sure you know that they really love you and are not just using you to give them attention instead. IMO.
Tita: So, I do want to watch the US government burn.
Victor: Quit lying some more. It doesn't seem like you really wanna watch it burn because that's what my blog will result in! See, you don't believe in me!
I AM SHOWCASING THE POWER THAT CHILDREN CAN HAVE SO EVERYBODY CAN BE HAPPY!
Tita: The children are not in power.
Victor: NOT YET!
Tita: But their parents can kill them too, or abort them.
Victor: Oh, so let's not even try, right?!
Very seldom do people rebel against something not worth rebelling against.
Tita: What I am trying to say is that I think that half of the people of the population, can you turn that off?
Victor: Nope.
Tita: Well then, I'm not going to talk.
Victor: Good! That was my intended effect!
Tita: ::Starts chanting in Sanskrit loudly::
Victor: Fuck this, I'm just going to leave. Bag packing time. You are showing your true colors. Did everybody hear that? She wants the world to burn! Let me eat some of this cake, haha. Tita got her spiirit co-opted by Indians and Yoga. Another country's version of religion has infected her. Learn some native Mexican chants instead!
¡Pinche traidor!
How much did that spiritual education cost?
TRUE KNOWLEDGE IS FREE! IT IS WRITEN IN NATURE! STOP FOLLOWING OLD TEACHINGS WHEN THE CURRENT ONES ARE STARING US IN THE FACE!
WE NEED TO GET WITH THE TIMES FOR THERE TO BE BALANCE!
Like I told Charlie, if these masters and gurus were so masterful and knew the right way to peace, it would be here already!
ALL RELIGIONS ARE EVIL AND SUBVERT THE TRUTH!
EVEN YOURS!
Tita: I WANT THERE TO BE WORLD CHAOS! DEATH AND DESTRUCTION! WE CANNOT BUILD ANEW WITH THE OLD IN THE WAY! THE BUILDING'S GOTTA BURN, BABY!
All this that we see here, is going to be under ash. That's why we have to go to the high places.
Victor: That's right, run away, coward. As if there is going to be anywhere to hide, HA!
Cowards, all of you!
Tita: You can stay here with all of the gringos that you revere, like your mama. Your mom ain't no Latina, she's a wannabe. She gringa-ized herself.
Victor: You are grasping for an argument. Umm, you turned me against her, remember?
Tita: But you empathize with her!
Victor: Not anymore! It has become time to roast her too! I have you to thank for that!
Tita: You empathize with the whities. That's why you didn't have gringo jokes memorized, you had racist jokes memorized when I met you. Thank god you've changed, but I am just saying that you like white people more than Latinos.
Now I understand why all of your friends in Mount Shasta were gringos.
Victor: Oh yeah, mo-yeah, save all the white man! LOLOLOL
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